What should I do? Is suicide the answer?

[nessa_5]

I'm a 17 year old girl & I think I'm depressed. I don't remember the time when I actually felt content with my life. From time to time when my life becomes unbearable I think about committing a suicide. I have tried it twice before by drinking some drugs but it didn't work. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. My relationship with my parents is distinct, I'm not close to my mother and I constantly have arguments with her as well as with my sister. My dad gets angry pretty easily & he doesn't even understands me or anything that concerns me. I try to not to bother them so that they'll just leave me alone. Recently, my grandma passed away who was the only person in the world I cared about, who accepted me & understood me. At school, I have a couple of close friends but my best friend moved this year. they don't understand me that much I just hang out with them so that I won't have to be alone. My grades are low. I feel bad about myself, my body & my appearance. I try to be positive at times but sometimes I break down. I often cry myself to sleep. I broke up with my boyfriend recently I got tired of breaking up and making up with him. He crushed my pride, used my love. I thought we'll be always together I felt like he was the one, my 1st lobe. But he turned out to be a jerk. Our relationship was based on lies. Besides I didn't want to lie to my parents they didn't know it my family is very strict and wouldn't have approved. I don't know what to do with my life. I keep making the same mistakes over and over. I feel like my past is always haunting me. I don't know what to do. I really want to life & have a happy life. I've got so many dreams & goals that I want to accomplish but I don't know from what to start. I don't want to end my life. I'm grateful for everything that I've got & I know that there a people in the world with far more worse problems and conditions but still I feel bad. I feel sad most of the time I don't know why. I'm don't sulk around 24/7 but I cry for no reason at all. I feel lost & trapped. I sometimes feel jealous of people who seem so happy with what they got. I just don't know what to do. My life seems so useless, meaningless & hopeless. I think that no 1 even would have cared if I just disappeared.  I'm afraid that my family won't understand me if I ask them for help. I feel so completely lonely. Please help. what should I do1?

[Givemeakite2]

I don't know if my answer will help but I remember when I was 17 I didn't open up and tell anyone how I was feeling it just got worse, and worse. then when I did tell how sad I was it was the best thing I could have done, and then the next thing was I found that life has a way of if we just give it time that just over the next mountain there is a wonderful life waiting for us, yes life is hard but it is also great, we just need to find that the ones that live with sorrow that we can get through it. and that the mountains will come, life for us is more of a struggle, but those that are coming up behind us we can turn and give them a hand and tell them its going to be ok that they will be fine, just like there were those that told us when we were 17 and struggling. There is a reason for your life, you have to fulfill that purpose we never know what that is you could be the most important person that GOD wants to use to bringing something in the future into being we never know. The best advise I can give you is you are very wise to get that jerk out of your life that was one of my biggest mistakes. If you really want to keep away from making the same mistake over and over keeping a bad man in your life is one of the worst mistakes  you want not to keep making, trust me. One more thing your mother will much rather have you open up to her than have your funeral. I promise if you just start taking to her she will stop in her tracks, and talk to you. Nothing is more important to her a mother always loves her babies.

[Kermit the Hermit]

like nurse said counseling maybe meds for a short time suicide is quitting and a way straight to hell plus how will you see how life can change and how beautiful it may be  life is short and special we should never choose the easy way out

im not anywhere near your age but get a hold if you need a ear no judgments and my response is not meant to be a judgment just my opinions

[Coly_50]

You are only 17!! You have your WHOLE life ahead of you; suicide should never be the way. Its a permanent consequence to a temporary problem. And you said you have so many goals, and things you wish to accomplish! I suggest you go talk to your school counselor or go to your local clinic and have a consultation with a Doctor about what you are going through, and that you think you are depressed. The Doctor will ***** your symptoms and will either prescribe medicine, and/or recommend going to therapy. But once you go to the doctor, I would also recommend talking with your parent s about the situation, or having your parents talk to your doctor to understand. Furthermore, studies have shown getting exercise has had a positive effect on people with depression in many cases, so I would say get outside and go for a walk and try to take in the beauty of nature and think to yourself the qualities you like in yourself, your dreams, and what is positive in your life. Even if you can do that 15 mins a day and not think about anything negative in that time, I think that might help you, even if it is just a small part in your recovery. Feel free to contact me if you ever want to talk to someone!! :)