This all started when I was married. I used to wake up in the morning and feel really angry at my wife because
we had a lot of arguments. I guess somehow I ended up cracking one night after a heated argument and called
her a ***** screaming from my lungs after being married 5 years. For over a 3 months, I woke up in the morning feeling very angry and thoughts of anger would rush into my mind. I think the first thoughts were.... that *****! I need to leave her otherwise I will end up killing her. This is what happened. I ended up telling my family about my thoughts and I told them I needed to get a divorce otherwise I might do something stupid someday when we argue. We divorced.
Now its been 3 years and a lot of crying. I don't wake up in the morning thinking about her anymore or calling her
a *****, but now it seems to be my family. I live with my parents and sister. I now wake up in the morning angry
at them. I sleep fine, but the moment I wake up, I think of really angry thoughts.
Since then I also suffer from severe anxiety tight places like in a car, bus, or airplane. Before then I didn't have these issues.
What is wrong with me? I've never been on any drugs.
I've been to a psychologist, but he wanted to put me on drugs. I said I want a natural way and not have to rely on drugs.
This is obviously an emotional anger issue, blocked energy, or something, and needs natural treatment or healing.
I hope you have found some relief from your suffering. As I read your article 2 years after you have posted it, I feel for you, your ex wife, and your family. Believe it or not, you have made them suffer from your problems even though you might not have been intending to do. I think you can have relief though you need to get medicated just for a short while to see if maybe that can soothe your symptoms. I say this cause my ex has these rage anger problems as well and he was also diagnosed with bi polar which you can not treat on your own. He would snap at nothing a and for no reason. Just in case you haven't had any further help, I thought I would try and help
I as well have this same issue. I wake everyday or anytime I rest with a sense of rage and physical discomfort. I’ve tried staying in bed until it subsides but still find myself looking for reasons to be angry. If my kids are not following routine, the dishes are not cleaned, or even if I find items misplaced. I almost have this hate in me for everyone and everything when I awake. Once I've had my coffee and have refocused myself then I am calm. But for about an hour my hate consumes me. I’m sure there is a medication to remedy this issue but I'm afraid if I seek help I will be forced to multi medicated and I prefer to live a fog free life.
This has been a problem for me for as long as I can remember. I'm 33 and have been diagnosed as being bipolar. I'm currently seeking a diagnosis of Asperger Syndrome, and I mention this because I believe the waking up angry and the Asperger are related. I especially relate to your comment, Mattamecca: anything out of place, anything sensory (smells, sounds, lights, hot/cold, wet, etc) and I either wake up angry or vomiting from anxiety. I've learned angry is an umbrella emotion: we use it to shelter ourselves from tougher feelings we're not ready to face. The things I see or feel can trigger extreme anxiety as I have SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder)... I've come to understand over the years that under the anger is fear. Fear is what I'm using the umbrella for... Once you get to root thoughts and can deal with the feeling under the anger, you can free yourself from it, in general. Until I've had my coffee, I can't process anything, and the fear I'll have a terrible coping day is overwhelming. I hate waking up :(. I need a coffee IV started before I wake up, clearly ;)
Thank you for this post. The "umbrella emotion" comment sums up my anger. And my daughter is SPD, as I learn more about it I think "that's me!". Especially with sounds and touch, which are ample in my household in the am. Now I've had my coffee and shared some of your experiences, I am walking away from the pc in a much better mood. Sending good vibes to all angry wakers out there!
At one time in my life I use to wake up angry and I started taking lamictal and it took the feelings away. I hated to take naps because I felt awful. It could be a chemical imbalance. I was so happy when I took this drug and the side effects were so minimal. Believe it or not I only took it for a month because it caused a rash. I had to stop with no withdrawal. I just saying it helped.
how about wake up thinking really funny random things. Just random random, funny, pleasant non-sense, ridiculous things. That's what we dream sometimes, and maybe it has something to do with hidden emotions, then cut the association with those angry thoughts and switch to random funny pleasant thoughts. These don't have to make sense, as long as you think they are random and funny. So this way, your old negative thoughts will be deprived of attention, and just like plants if you stop watering them then they will die on their own. I have the same angry state of mind when I wake up. I haven't tried this plan, but I will now and tell you about the results.
I have the same problem, and have for along time. Since 1999, is the earliest I can remember. I honesty think its deep thoughts of problems you think you cant control. Things that subconsciously bother you, or conscious problems you cant fix or tell people how to fix it without creating more problems. Sometimes its the way things unfold, that can do it. Having any anger just causes more anger or scared people around. One drop of water can equal a ocean of anger. Its always the loved ones that take it all because we aren't scared to hold back on them.
These are my problems at least,
One way to feel like a *** after being a ***, Smoke medical marijuana, you will be like wtf was i thinking. Thats what happens to me.Try it when you wake up. Doesnt always help, but in some cases it can. But I still struggle a few times a year like today.
My problem is that my boyfriend wakes up angry and verbally attacks me until he finally leaves for work. He will snuggle me all night and then when he wakes up he will wake me up and start saying horrible things to me. Then usually when he gets to work he will text me to have a good day and that he loves me. As if nothing ever happened. One morning during his rage I went and sat in the car and waited for my daughter to get ready so I could drive her to school. I got in the car early just to avoid him because he brought me to tears so I sat there sobbing. When I was pulling out of the driveway he came out and waved. Then he called me and asked why I was crying? And was acting as if nothing had happened. And told me I am crazy! When I try to talk to him about his anger issues he just points his finger at me and says its all my fault. That I am a crazy *****! He has smashed a wine glass on my chest, smashed my phone 4 days after he bought it for me, and using two hands popped me hard in the chest knocking me into the footboard of the bed leaving a huge bruise on my leg from it. He hasn't punched me yet but I am afraid it is only going to get worse. I have never been treated like this before and find it hard to believe that its all my fault. When he is not consumed by anger he is a wonderful man. I don't know what to do anymore. He has 2 children and I have 1 child, and we all live together in my house.
So I was hoping to get some advice from those of you that have those anger issues in the morning. As a loved one that is being hurt by someone who hasn't accepted he has a problem, what can I do? And how did you finally discover your anger was a problem?
I think the first thing you need to do is get some help for yourself. It is not ok for this person to put his hands on you for any reason. I don't care if its chemical or emotional. Secondly, you have to protect your family. If this person is not acknowledging his behavior, that can be dangerous. You can't force people to see their problems, they have to want to. Do you stand up against him. If he hit me I would not take it. I would call the police. I don't care if he is sick. You can't jeopardize your well being for someone else's. I know you love and care for him, but physical/ verbal abuse is wrong. You can't use illness as an excuse. I hope you get some help before someone really gets hurt. God bless you!
Wow, I really thought I had wrote this. Your morning scenario is spooky the same as mine. In fact I have been living this way for 25 years. Many people have said in their comments things are better after an hour of wakeup and some coffee. Don't drink coffee but spouse is on ADD meds and until those kick in stay away!
What really bugs me is the whole denial like I'm the crazy one and this is happening in everyone's house. I am wearing down after all these years and we have 2 daughters that are per-teen/ and soon to be. This has defenitly got worse approaching mid age:(..
I was looking for info on mood disorders and came across these post. Comforting to know I suppose it is happening elsewhere,and treatment seems to be available. Are your boyfriends parents alcoholics. Any mental discrepancies? I shrugged off early signs of what was to come. I'm not getting a divorce we will seek treatment cause like you said there is a wonderful, but hurting person inside that could turn it around givin the chance.
I read your post and was thrown off my chair. This person is abusing you and you have the option of saving yourself. You have children in the house-would you allow someone to treat your child this way? My guess is no, this is not allowable behavior and you need to kick this crackhead out of your house before he puts you in the hosptial or hurts one of the children. Abusive people tend to follow a pattern of abuse and then with extreme love, forcing the abused person to question the validity of the abuse. This is not you acting crazy, this is typical controlling behavior of an abusive partner. Get yourself out of this relationship and your kids out too. Please do not allow this person to treat you this way-you are so much better than this and you don't deserve this abuse. No one has the right to put their hands on you and hurt you. This not only hurts you physically, emotionally and it scars not only you but all the children witnessing this abuse. You can always get a restraining order to protect yourself and your children. Maybe you need to protect HIS children, too. Remember, children don't have a voice so the adults witnessing this behavior HAVE to be their voice for them. Abuse tends to run in the family as a vicious cycle and you need to be the one to change it. Otherwise these kids may end up abusing someone, too.
Thank you for your brave post. It is good to know that there are other people out that have experienced what I have with my son's dad. We are not living together any longer but still see each other often and at times I still see the same behavior, except now I have a safe place to take myself and my son to toget away from it. You have helped me to know that I'm not the only one and I am NOT the crazy one as he would say the same thing. This must be some kind of a disorder if it's happening to multiple people, hopefully for my son's sake his Dad will decide to get help one day. For now though I need to take care of myself and my child and I hope that you can find the strength to do the same. I know how hard it is when you love someone, but sometimes you have to love yourself more. Best wishes my heart goes out to you, and again thank you.
OMG Shawnee. I have been living this hell for the last three years of my marriage. My husband talks to me so pleasant before going to bed and then around the same time each night, between 2-5AM it is pure hell. He accuses me of cheating, he yells my name starling me out of sleep and argues about the smallest things like raking the leaves. I want a divorce, but we have two small children together and he won't admit that this issue requires medical intervention and medication.
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