Why does depression make me do this?

Recently, I just found out that I was diagnosed 8 years ago with major depression. It causes me to have anxiety symptoms. I've noticed recently that my depression is worse. I'm constantly easily frustrated, can't remember things, procrastinating, and have abnormal sleep patterns. I'm worst in the mornings. I'm noticing it more that i'm starting to take my agitation out on people when I don't mean to. I feel lonely and miss my bf a lot and feel bad for seeming like i'm clingy, I don't want to pull him away from me from it. I am a person who feels guilty about everything. I am a perfectionist. I have undergone a lot in my life. What are some useful tips for dealing with it? What the reasons behind why these symptoms are acting up all of a sudden?

[Hensley258]

That's just the nature of the disease. Most people that suffer Major Depression (myself included) also suffer from severe anxiety.

I know it really *****. Your current emotions are consistant with Depression. When I get bad I get very clingy with my wife. Some people respond by withdrawling away from their spouse, but I draw closer.

The worst part about this disease is that it never goes away. It's like it's always there and even when you feel a little better you keep thinking "when is it going to grab me hard again?"

Are you on meds? With meds I can keep it almost completly a bay, but I still know it's there just trying to get out.

I can't beleive it's almost 2010 and pills are all they have. Still no cure. Maybe in my daughters life, but probably not in mine

[myersnpooh]

I agree with Hensley258 meds are a good start (to some that is) but also you might want a therapist who you can talk to and get things off your chest. I know when I hold things in it makes things alot worse and me alot more irratiable. I am in the midst of divorcing my husband  for many reason, but I too also was clingy. Like now as the dark and depressing winters come here in Ohio I get more moody and shut in. I basically hibernate like some old bear. lol But for me mine is more serious I have agorophobia with my deperssion. So unlike me maybe you could find a good friend outside the home to talk to or just hang out with. I know if I had someone to share things with it would help me out alot, but I am still waiting for that someone. And yes I take alot out on who is anywhere near me, even my 2 children, but they have learned throughtout there years that mommie doesn't mean it and 99% of the time I come back and apologize. So in all I don't have a cure, but just some sugesstions from my life experiences. Not much, but hope somethings helps. If you need to talk to contact me, your friend, April

[blondie918]

Thanx 4 the advice. Yeah I mite just look into meds and therapy when it is available to me. Thanx 4 being so caring :)