Will my psychiatrist see me sooner if she knows im suicidal?

[gumbygumby]

There's no way im going to make it a month to the appointment. What do psychiatrists even do? I thought they were supposed to make me feel better. I had to spend the night in psych lockup for it a few weeks ago and learned that i cant even rely on them. I know once the month is up i have my appointment I'm just going to go home feeling more alone and miserable because they never care. I'm not going to be able to take it again.

[whodunnit]

If a pdoc doesn't see when you are suicidal then get a different one and go to a hospital in the short term.

What do pdocs actually do? They diagnose, offer treatment and support while we do the real, hard work of resolving our problems.

No doc can MAKE you feel better, that truly is up to you. All they can do is offer meds to try and relieve symptoms while you analyse your life and change what's not good about it.

No doctor can stop you feeling suicidal if that's how you are feeling. Meds will help that but not overnight, it takes time and effort.

I'm afraid the first time I was hit with the full weight of depression I panicked and saw a pdoc. I actually tumped on his desk demanding to feel better NOW. God I wish they could do that and they do too. I recall that moment clearly and still feel the frustration you do now. Wanting it to stop and hating the replies of "It takes time" etc. Afraid it does but the good news is anyone can do it. If you want it it will be done.

[gumbygumby]

Nobody loves me. That will take years for me to solve. What is therapy?

[Hensley258]

There are no shortcuts in the treatment of depression. Meds help A LOT, but they take much time to work and even then they usually need to be adjusted and augmented.

Most Psychiatrist will insist on seeing a patient that is in severe crysis and is immently suicidal every two weeks until they stabilize. Then they will go to a once every 30 day visit plan if they feel their patient is stable enough.

Is this Psychiatrist aware that your in severe crysis right now? Try to call their office and tell them that you need your appointment moved up because your condition hase taken a serious dive down.

If that doesn't work then find a good Psychiatric hospital and have someone admit you into the hospital. I'm not talking about going to the city Bam Bam ward, but rather a good psychiatric hospiatal the specializes only in mental health dissorders.

I agree with you friend, you can't wait a month to start on a treatment plan.

Regarding the "therapy" get that idea out of your head right now. I can tell you from experience that therapy doesn't do **** until you are first stabilized on the RIGHT combinations of medication. Then and only then can therapy be done.

Since my last relaps into the darkness, It took a full 8 months for my Psychiatrist to find the right combinations of medications to stabilize me. Even then it took an additional 3 months for him to dial in all the seperate dosages properly.

I wish it were a one visit fix all deal, but these meds work slow and the path to feeling normal is not always a streight line.

After all, simply feeling "normal" is what we all crave.

[gumbygumby]

If medications are the only improvement i can have i would rather be dead.I just want somebody that doesnt like me feeling bad and tries to stop it. I have legitimate reasons to want to be dead, so how do i even know i need medication? I called a suicide hotline and she made me feel so awful.

[Hensley258]

I don't care what the reasons are for your depression, (I care but that is not the focus now) the main fact is that if you are feeling iminently suicidal and have felt this way for a long time, then YES you need medication for sure.

Look at me my friend. I have been exactly where your at 15 times in the last decade. In that time I had 3 suicide attemps and one with a gun that almost worked had the round not jamed up in the breach of the gun. (I know so little about guns that I couldn't even figure out how to dis-lodge the round)

No one likes you feeling bad, but first you must understand this one key thing about severe depression at this level..... Non-sufferers will NEVER understand. We can not expect them to understand. The reason they can not understand is simply because they do not have the capacity to understand anything so painful that it would cause one to kill themselves.

It's like expecting a blind person to describe color. The non-sufferer may want you to get better, but they will never understand. They think they understand, but in reality they don't know ****.

The one thing I have learned after 18 years of doing mortal battle with the beast of depression is that you MUST find the strength to FIND HELP. I had to call 60 different Psychiatrists just to find one that was qualified and agreed to take me as a patient.

Several times I had to call a suicide hotline to save my life and many times I got an *** hole on the line that was as usless as **** on a bull. But you know what... I kept calling and finnaly I reached a man that was a volenteer at the hotline and he worked his *** off to find me free treatment because he was also a sufferer.

You have to muster up your last ounce of energy and get busy on the phone. Be the squeeky wheel and call call call until you find help.

Help will not find you. You have to reach out for it and put in the effort to find it.

You can do it if you try. leave no stone un-turned.

[gumbygumby]

the suicide hotline i called told the cops T_T I just spent the night in psych lockup...

Good news is that they gave me directions on how to ween off the pill thats hurting me and they also prescribed me an anti depressent.

[Hensley258]

I'm sorry that happened to you. It has been a long time since I had to call a hotline. Putting you overnight in the Bam Bam ward was not the right thing to do.

The idea of suicide hotlines is to help the person find quality mental health care (or at least that was how it used to be)

Do you not have any access to proper care for your illness? I know insurance can be a pain in the ***.

[Icia]

nope.  she/he will recommend you call 911.