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depressed and suicidal

I'm a 25 yr old women and have been depressed from about the age of 10 or11 and i remember feeling very suicidal even then, i used stand a my open bedroom window wanting to jump out then in year 9 of secondnary school i swollowed a load of pills, i didn't know what they were. I went to school after and felt very dizzy and was sick in class. I never went back after, since then i have felt the same maybe even worst but i have done nothing about it, i am now in a long term relationship and have a son but still i think about killing myself everyday, i hardly ever leave the house and i'm scared stiff about having to get a job  PLEASE CAN U HELP
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i state that you have offended me but still you find it necessary to offend me some more. Did i say that i did not think of the people around me and how they would feel, do you not think that is why i'm still here. I am a very good mum and i put his feelings and welfare before anything else and it is driving me mad that you keep mentioning him as if i don't care about him or my BOYFRIEND , so why don't you go and offend someone else
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i state that you have offended me but still you find it necessary to offend me some more. Did i say that i did not think of the people around me and how they would feel, do you not think that is why i'm still here. I am a very good mum and i put his feelings and welfare before anything else and it is driving me mad that you keep mentioning him as if i don't care about him or my BOYFRIEND , so why don't you go and offend someone else
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well, if you were better and some what sane, i think you would think it's selfish to consider killing yourself, too. you're not thinking about how much your death can affect and hurt others or even put them  into depression too. and that is selfishness.
you're probably only bitter toward me b/c you want to just deny everything.

and you're right, i am sick. i'm sick of myself crying every time i want to die but the thought of my mom distracts me and puts me in the ultimate dilema.
i just don't think you ever tried being in your husband or your son's position.
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i find it completly sick that you can call me selfish when you yourself have felt the way i do , i am dealing with the way i feel with no thanks from people like you . I don't think you even know what your talking about (what do you mean honest truth) , so yes you did offend me and i don't care that your sorry
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i know why you write on here and i didn't mean to offend you in any way.
i've been suicidal myself and i'm finally getting myself out of this dread.
i really am sorry about your condition. but i was letting you know the honest truth about
being suicidal is and nothing else.  i know you won't need help for long, since you are already trying really hard. when you first catch yourself wanting to work yourself out of this illness, then you know you are much better already.
good luck dear
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i spend everyday of my life dealing with depression and forcing myself to be a better person for my  son, so i don't need a person like YOU writing a load of rubbish you obviously don't have clue about , i choose to write on here for help and advise not for someone like you telling me i'm selfish, you do not know me so keep your thoughts to yourself OK
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I'm using 2,000mg DHA daily to make my depression go away. DHA is expensive fish oil and is good for your brain. You can find the stuff at vitamin stores or the internet (www.vitacost.com). Based on my experience in using DHA, if I were in your shoes, I would start off with a couple of 500mg Carlson Super DHA per day and after about 3-4 days, double the dosage. After a week at 2,000mg, your feelings don't improve, then I would increase dosage to 2,500mg per day for another week. Still need more, then increase dosage to 3,000mg per day.

In order to save money, I tried to reduce my dosage to 1,500mg per day and after a few days, my depression and "anger at the world" came back. I am much more mellow at 2,000mg per day. Finally, if you feel a lot of anxiety in dealing with life in general, then try GABA. Before my annual visit to the Doctor, I take around 3,500mg to keep my blood pressure at a more reasonable level. Without GABA, my blood pressure will soar to the 190 range, whereas, a few days ago my blood pressure reading was 113/70 which is very good for a 60 year old.
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i honestly think considering to kill yourself after getting married AND having a kid is extremely selfish. depression is hard to deal with but you can force yourself to get over it
if you just think before you consider killing yourself.
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Hi, I am a middle aged woman with a history of depression going back to at least my teens. Finally, in 1985 a close friend overdosed and almost died. That was a turning point for me. I know I was closer to taking suicidal action than I had realized. Going to my family doctor for help was very difficult and I wasn't nealy as assertive as I now am.  But I have kept up the work of finding help - doctors, counselors, fellow sufferers etc. I have been prescribed many or most of the newer anti-depressants; some help, unfortunately some don't and it goes back to square one. But not really square one because being proactive about our health care can be empowering.
I have overdosed many times on different meds. Obviously I am still here. Sometimes I wonder why but mostly I am just relieved that I am. If we don't stay here (i.e. alive and trying) we don't get a second chance. I too have been feeling more hopeless lately; maybe it's the time of the year? Also had some serious stress with some family issues....One thing that sounds dorky but does help me is "take it one day at a time" because sometimes looking any further down the road just doesn't help much.
I hope your significant other can be supportive; there is help available for families of those who suffer with depression. It's just hard to find sometimes.
My advice would be to look at lots of possible solutions - medication, talk therapy, art therapy, journalling, reading about depression (to get more insight and info.). And keep that son of yours close to your heart. He will never be better off without you! That's what I used to think but it just isnt' true. 'There are also 'alternative' therapies and treatments. if you can afford it at all think about seeing a naturopath. I have found them more concerned for the whole person than most medical doctors and more empathetic too.
Just hang in there for today....try not to think too much. Can you at least sit outside on a porch, balcony, deck - wherever? Just being closer to nature can touch you in ways you may not understand; I've just started trying that more this year and it has made a difference even tho' it was hard to open the door to get out....you can do it even just for a minute or two.
I don't know you but I care and I hope this has helped....Give your son an extra hug for me today.
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You didn't say but are you under a doctor's care? And have they tried anti-depressants with you? Even if they tried and it didn't work, there are different ones out there they can try. Sometimes it takes awhile to find one that works for you. I think you really need to talk to a therapist and try the anti-depressants. It can do wonders. You also sound like you may have some anxiety issues too. You said you're afraid to get a job. Are you on your own? Do you have any support?

Please don't kill yourself. You have so many reasons to live, the biggest one is your son. He needs his mom. We only have one life to live. It's just not worth throwing that away. You don't have to live like this. You can experience peace and happiness again. Please find help. There is hope.
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