Yes, you may very well have post partum depression. But since you suffered with depression in the past, it may have returned with all the pressures of being a new mommy can bring. When you feel sad, blah, crying and not intersted in things you normally would be, it is usually depression. What is of concern is that you sometimes don't want to care for the baby, which would indicate Post Partum Depression. We often don't know why we're depressed, and see no reason to be, but still we are. This is why therapy is very important, depression always has a root cause and thru therapy you can find out what that is for you. Once you learn what it is, you can deal with it and move on, sometimes without medication. Medication may be needed until you accomplish this. Some things are just too much for us to handle on our own. Normally depression is caused by something traumatic that happened to you as a child, which you chose to forget about. But it remains in us and will make us deal with it by showing up as depression and/or anxiety. See a psychiatrist so that you can get your life back and enjoy your life and new baby. You needn't feel this way with all the help there is for you. We do want to be strong and deal with things on our own, but some things are just too big for us to handle alone. Take your life back and get help. We have all dealt and are still dealing with depression, so we understand, and are always here to support you. Take care...