help me?

i feel like dying...
help me?
ive got nowhere to go.
im at the end of my rope.
someone help me.
i just dont know what to do anymore.
my parents wont get me any help...

[Becky2006]

Hello- What is going on? It is hard to know what to say other than there is always hope. Please tell me a bit about what is going on.

[niso82]

Yesss say what's going on maybe u can get some advice or help !

[dyingxonxthexinside]

well--, long story short, i got kicked out of my mothers house and was forced to live with abusive dad. ive been here for six months already... and i cant stand it. they (my dad and step mom) dont understand that when i say im having suicidal thoughts, i mean it. they just laugh at me. i dont have anyone to talk to. i go to a new school, all my old friends have forgotten about me. i have a boyfriend, but hes just worried about his own problems. i cant go back to my moms cause she doesnt want me back. i just dont know what to do... i even ran away halloween night to prove a point and i still dont have the help i need. i just feel like dying. if i mess up here, my dad will send me to a.) juvie or b.) a placement home. he said he wouldnt pay for me to stay in a placement home so that automatically makes me an orphan and im put up for adoption. ): i just dot know what to do... i know i have problems and ive stayed strong for the most part. i cant do it anymore.

[dyingxonxthexinside]

theres more detail about my past and present.

[niso82]

Hey,I know u suffered a lot and what you are passing through is damn tough nd hard
but plzzz never give up life still hiding amazing things and at the end of every dark tunnel there is light !!! From disasters come dreams ,everyday brings a new sunshine !!!!!!
It's not the end of the world if it was ur destiny to have bad parents
u must be strong enough to face it
god is testing you! He's hiding the best later on !!!
Ur sun will shine sooon
study well finish school and uni be someone good in ur future , get ur own home
leave those bad pple
honey if u died u will make them happier because they don't damn care!!!!
Be smarter than them look forward life is waiting u ...have hope and dreams love life and enjoy every moment ...plss don't let them destroy u
ur life is just at it's begining have faith
god bless u
best wishes
smileeeeeeee!!!!

[ricky_id]

I used to feel so alone like you, but I hope you're aware that at some point of life, some need a psychological reengineering to cope better with life. It's not that I'm forcing you to smile all the time, but just don't feel too much attached to other people especially when they're not really accepting you. You may still feel alone, but you'll be relieved by being yourself rather than being dictated by other people's acceptance of you.

[dyingxonxthexinside]

niso82 ; im agnostic. /: i just dont know about God anymore...

ricky_id ; i dont care about being accepted... i just need help. i cant bottle all of this inside. i have for soo long. i have NOBODY. this was my last hope. -_- i just... need soe advice on what to do. my dad and step mom wont get me help, my real mom KNOWS i need help but doesnt really wanna pay for it.

[ricky_id]

The belief in God is something optional. Well, find work so that you can live on your own and move out on your own. I know it's not as simply done, but what might be a better option for you?

[dyingxonxthexinside]

Ricky ; it's not that simple. Everything has to be perfect and planned out.

[ricky_id]

I don't wanna be mean, but you can strive for it to be perfect and not getting out of your current position.

[MarnieJan712]

Are you in school?  If you are talk to a school counselor.  If there is a crisis center in your area I would recommend going there.  There will be some one to talk to and they can refer you to other services.  Some health insurance covers mental health problems.  You need to get help.  Personally I have attempted suicide 3 times, some people tell me it just isn't my time to go.  Getting better is hard work, but being happy feels great.  Feeling good is weird at first, but the more it happens the better it gets.

[ricky_id]

Yes, a counsellor could help, but again it will be up to herself to decide whether she will change her own mindset. I could've stayed forever wishing I was accepted by everybody, but in the end we have to accept not everything can be perfect as we wish.