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I don't know where to choose the topic. I always scared about something. I worry about anything. Too much pressure in my head. I'm thinking about death sometimes. I'm thinking about my dead friend. I'm thinking about anything. I'm tired. i hate for being imperfect. i hate if someone hurts me. why do they hurt me and they never feeling sorry. never say sorry to me. so how can i trust ? i do forgive him. but how can i trust if he never say sorry, never looks guilty. how am i supposed to be like this. i hate for being a bad girl. i hate my trauma. a bunch of fu*kin' trauma. always have a bad dream. once again im thinking about death. how can God loves me, if i always thinking about death. im *****d up. i always *****d up. never be like other people. they seems to have a good way to live. im tired. .....@#^$#&!

[Marebear74]

U need to check out r depression forum! I am Bi-Polar/Manic Depressive! U sound like me on a bad day!LOL U really need to try some Medication. Zyprexa works for me but, there r so many out there! I have severe up's and downs, sometimes 10 or 15 times a day! Let me know if u want to talk more. Best wishes!

[p2kyrock01]

Im feeling so so so so bad right now. But im trying to hold on. Think positive. It feels like a cursed to me. I really want to remove this brain from my head. I want to stop thinking like this. I don't need medicine, i need love and care. I don't want doctor helps me. I want my life's back.