i dont want to leave my house

i havnt been out of bed since last thanksgiving...i just cannot make myself get up foe any longer than an nhour or so to eat a bit..i want to be in my dark room watching a netflis of on FB..i am on antidepressents...tried suicide twice a year or so ago...coulnt seem to hold the pills in my stomach because i have ulcers and so i threw them up....my husband does what i used to do...shopping laundry...since he is now retired from the military...we moved here a yeqr ago...no friens no family....i need real help and soon.