im so scared

[scaredasever98]

Im a 13 year old girl and i think i have depression! Im too scared too tell my parents though! I've benn so antisocial lately though. I cry basicaly  every day for no apparent reason. Ive thought about what would happen if i died.  I want to find a way to cure it i guess but without having to tell my parents. Im just so scared ill do something ill regret or not be able to regret i guess. If you know anyway i can do that please tell me. This is me reaching out for the help i think i really need. Please answer me! I dont know what to do. ive seriously changed like it isnt like puberty or anything so please dont say it is. Im much more high temperd and thats weird for me because im a mellow person. I've lost a lot of my friends because they think im a downer! Ive taken pencil sharpener blades to my wrists qnd legs but I've only drawn blood once. I want the pain to stop!!! Please help!!!!!!!

[ccann00]

am a 13 year old girl for years know I have been happy but when I have nothing planned to do or  just sitting in my room I may cry or even feel like I should hurt myself but other times my sister always makes fun of me I also had a friend and starting two years ago she was controlling and I wanted to go home I. Would go in her room to get my stuff and she would like wrestle me to the floor I told my mom that but I was feeling depressed before that and that just made it worse and by the way I she was like my only close friend and after what she did she moved I only told my mom she pinned me on the floor

[Poo44clooner]

I am so glad you took that first step and getting over being scared which I know is terrifying to do and eventually telling your mother. Good for you. I was worried about you and was wondering whether you were going to keep it to yourself. You are a wonderful young lady and together you and your loving mother can get through this and find the help you so desperately need. You will get better. Remember this NEVER let anyone, or even a bad day get you down and lose hope in your life in this matter or future matters in your life. You are strong and deserve the best in your life.
Keep in touch,
Angela

[littlebit667]

Wow, telling your mother is great!  We should never feel like we are alone in this world.  I hope you get the help you need.  These forums are amazing at how they can help.  Strangers helping strangers.  Keep talking, it really makes the difference.

[scaredasever98]

I just recentally told my mother. thankfully she was understanding and i have a doctors appointment in about a month. And it wasnt that i didnt want to telk my mother its just that those feelings kept me too scared to tell anyone. But after i told her it litterally was like a wait lifted off my shoulders. Lately ive tried my best to not dwell on the bad and actually eat something and sleep. Anyways i wanted to thank you for the advice because i really was terrified.

[Helpcanhelp]

Its important to tell you're parents. my mood goes in ups and downs and its hard to believe that i truly will be healthy one day. Im 18 years old (boy), been happy all my life, well ofcourse i had my ups and downs but always felt normal. Very active at sports and very social, popular etc. The last 2 years been really hard, in ups and downs, but when i feel good i cba to think about that i need help because then im feeling good and well i think i can handle it on my own

Some days ago the feelings came back again, basically makes me very antisocial, scared to pick up the phone, daydreaming a lot, trying to control my mind but thats impossible.. Some days i wish i could just get like a message from the doctor that im seriously ill, because then its not my fault (thats the way i see it atm)

Try to hang in there, its easier to when you know other people are struggling aswell.. Its hard to read others people mind and its hard to tell people whats wrong, but if you do believe it can help you in the end its really smart doing it. If you cannot tell your parents how you are feeling write a note, that may help. And show it to one of them, i think its harder to talk to both my parents at once so well you decide. Hang in there, lots of love.

Best wishes from Norway

[Poo44clooner]

I am so sorry that you are so scared and suffering so much but you must tell your parents first. If you don't feel comfortable, there must be a school counselor that you can talk to that will help and guide you on what you must do.
I really do believe you need professional help immediately. The cutting that you are doing scares me. My 16 y/o daughter recently started cutting and said that she wanted to die. She was a happy child growing up and very active and now she can't even go to school to do her homework. I am glad that she had the courage to tell me how she was feeling. I found a really good psychiatrist that specializes in adolescents and children and she sees her every 2 weeks to find the right medicine for her. She also sees a counselor every week. She never wanted to see a counselor but this time she says that she likes this lady and enjoys talking to her.
You must tell your parents so that they can get involved in your life and help you. You are their child and they love you, don't forget that.
Sweet thing, don't suffer alone, please tell your parents and get the help that you so desperately need.
I am here for you as we all are to speak and listen to you anytime,
Angela

[Hobby10]

I hate to say it but it partly may b your age.  I got a daughter about your age and she has pretty dramatic mood swings sometimes.  And if I can ask.  Have you started period yet?  Because if that's trying to come in your feelings may b all over the place.  Do talk to one of your parents or a school counselor.  Hang in there.  and you hav us to talk to if u need us.

[RainLover71]

Ok,there is no need to self harm or do anything silly,there are some excellent people on here that can support you through this trust me.To start with you really need to see your family doctor and if you don't want to tell your dad then talk to your mum and make a time to see the doctor,certain medications can totally change your moods and calm you right down.They have to find the right meds for you.Depression can be treated.Hang in there.