is it depression

i barely sleep..all i wanna do is curl up in a ball and cry......sometimes i wish my kids would be better off without me....i never know what to do...i wait till everyone is asleep and i just cry.....

[mcmcorp45]

Yes, those are signs of depression. You mention that you have children, how long has it been since you gave birth to your last child? Do you have anyone you are talking to, Doctor or family member? If you could explain why you think your children would be better off without you? There are many people here who can relate and will try to help you. I know its hard, but you have done the best thing by looking for help so you should be proud of yourself! And keep it up.

[jasmin_mom]

i just gave birth to twins by via c-section on the 13 of this month.....and everyone i talk to says its normal after you give birth to feel down...but my oldest daughter who is 10 months doesnt want me she only wants my mom...she wont even let me hold her.....i keep thinking its my fault my twins are premature....and im to scared to talk to anyone in my family because im scared too....i think they would hae been better off with out me since my oldest is adopted out...my oldest daughter doesnt want anything to do with me and the twins are premature...so idk what to do.. i love my kids dearly and i want them to have a mom who is all together in the head....waht do i do

[mcmcorp45]

Well it seems like you have alot on you right now. Its hard to deal with all these things all at once. Yes it is "normal" to feel down after you give birth. However if it continues for a few weeks after the birth then it can be PPD. Alot of women have this, its the onset of depression after child birth and its difficult to understand. The feelings some women get cause them to feel as if they are bad mothers. This however is not the case, they are good mothers. As for your 10 month old, her always wanting to be with your mother can be many things, its not a reflection on you or you as a mother. I am not an expert with children so I cant really talk to that, but I can say that I have seen that alot and heard of same situations with other parents in all stages of infantcy. Also in regards to your twins, the premature births are just not your fault. But as a mother you have many emotions over the situation and again thats normal healthy and part of being a mother, but dont beat yourself over it. Make sure they get the BEST care they can and all the love they deserve and you will be the best mom in the world. That should be your goal. But Its always easier said then done, right? So in order to give your family the best care and love you need to be able yourself to be feeling good and able to function. And from what you describe, your having difficulty. And thats OK not your fault. You can do some things to help yourself. So what you do is up to you and your situation. Do you have a doctor? If so you can start there and begin the process of getting back on track. If there are some issues with that, there are some other things you can do.. but lets start with a trying to see a dr....

If i read your post right, you say your oldest child has been adopted? I was adopted :)

Hope all is well

Matt