need to knw..let me knw fanks

dont fink this is the right place to try this but hell sure i hop ya knw wat i mean. im 18 years old and b4 about 4 months i was outgoing had loads of friends loved myself not in a d;;k kind of way. i loved my life was so happy and always went out at the wends had fun went wif girls and all jus bein normal tenager..but js b4 halloween my da took a massive heart attack and was near death and it realy scared me i was shaking i cudnt breath and felt very dizzy. so that was ok my da took the results back sayin he was fine and der was no damage. but that week wen i went back to wrk i thought i cudnt breathe i felt very dizzy and sick....well i found out i had panic attacks and slight case of depression. i was bad 4 about 3 months but then i got really better. but now this last wile im goin over things over and over and over agin in my head and get very stressed out and tired. now anythin i see in the paper r internet r tv like for example sum1kills themselves, i think its goin to happen to me and get really freaked out and get depressed. now im gettin images of hanging and im scared does dat mean is it guna happen r is jus stress and have panic thoughts. i keep having guilty feelings and blaming myself foe things dat other people do. i jus wana b me again live my life and b ahppy but i seem that i cant get this outa my head. im scared dat im guna go insane. sorry 4 writin a book ere but need to get this off me. plz any coments wud b good...thanks