now i need someone to talk and vent to

ok i can only be soo strong and help others and i am trying so hard not to fall apart. i am depressed currently with overwhelming change to meds, trying to work on my therapy, and nutrtion all at once. my husband is not supportive emotionally and physically and i cant do it on my own. i need someone to talk to. i am trying to get an earlier appt with my new therapist because i dont think i can wait till mid septemember. i dont like complaining and letting go to strangers but who is there out there that can help or just listen without judging me or sayng stop complaining.  i know there is alot worse off people who are sicker than me.

[Kayannaboo]

First of all, it is so understandable to me that you can give others extremely great advice and be so very broken on the inside, HUMANS cannot be strong all the time and actually letting go and letting others in is not a sign of weakness, it takes strength to let others see the REAL YOU. Recognize however that the same "strangers" that you have assisted many times are going to be the same ones to help to you that is called a support system, I help you, you help me no shame in that.

I often stress the importance of depending on a professional for all the help you need in healing because UNprofessionals such as your husband and others don't understand, they do not feel how you feel and quite often they feel the opposite so they don't get why you can't just "be happy" not knowing depression is not an easy thing to overcome. Our counsellors, though they do not feel what we are feeling they have the TOOLS and guidelines to assist us in the steps to a better life. Your husband loves you very much I am sure and he wants to be supportive, he simply does not know how to do so. Talk with him about your feelings but know that he is ignorant to those feelings you speak of.

I have been depressed for awhile now but I have never been on meds, in Jamaica people do not really place so much emphasis on anti-depressants, however psychologists are prominent. My understanding of these medications however is that they take a while for your body to regulate and a change in these medication and any other medication will have negative effects on your body for awhile until they begin to do their job, it's like tossing and turning in a new bed until you have found a comfortable spot. Be patient and I know it's easier said than done but in time it will start to work the way you want it to.

I would definately try for an earlier appointment with the therapist, talking to him/her definately will give you hope. Do not stop believing and do not give up because nothing compares to hope NOTHING. Being stuck on a broken down run down island will not be your life forever paradise awaits but only YOU can reach it. Do things to keep you busy, things that you enjoy doing, that relaxes you. Also spend sometime with yourself, write about your feelings and things that make you happy. Spending time alone will make you appreciative of company but not feel so empty when company is gone.

Message me if you ever need anything and I will keep you in my prayers dear. I hope you will come to know the happiness you desire...

Anna~

[mandapanda928]

I will listen to you. You can send me in a message or on here. And your husband should be supportive, especially with something like this going on, And i'm the same as you i try to help everyone, but i'm really suffering also. Hope that your ok.