Oops Evelyn, I think you may have posted to the wrong thread.
I did the same thing a couple days ago.
I identify. Everyone has strange thoughts, but most of us keep them hidden. It is good that you can say what you are thinking here. Once it is out, it loses its power..it is out from under the rock and light hits it, so its not a big secret.
The guilt is the worst.
It's ok. Sounds like you could use a friend or some kind of a group or something...maybe take a painting class or something fun to get out of the little tiny environment you are in.
I have had thoughts like that too about a younger brother. Its probably not that unusual but most people never tell!
Evelyn
Nickster, when you have gotten yourself to the ER and your heartbeat is better - and you come home again...
Why'd you take so many all at once?
Florena again
go to emergency NOW if you havent yet.
You took 40 Asprin in less than 24hours, of corse you have over dosed.
Your blood is probably thinner than water right now. 40 Asprin at once is usually deadly.
You seriously need to get to an emergency room ASAP!
I suggest you to seek medical attention. You have overdosed. Seek medical care now, and your kidneys have a chance.
Thats way to many asprine your blood will be so thin at the tinyest cut you will bleed fast ,,, and your kidnys will get hurt , go to a doctor