i have seen a regular physician and been to a therapist, it was just family therapist.
i felt the physician didnt really care and just wanted to toss out a prescription for test.
but at the same time i felt that the therapist cared to much, she often felt bad for me and always asked me what i thought i should do. and often times i would get the responce of oh i wish there was more i could do.
and my symptoms of depression would be:
i cant sleep at night at all, and when if and when i do fall asleep i am in a very conscious sleep where the slightest movement or sound can wake me up.
i hate being alone but at the same time i hate being around my family and friends.
i cant concentrate on things, and many times even after thinking about things for 5-10 mins ill walk over to go do it and forget completely what i was going to do and it will take another 5-10 mins for me to remember.
i dont feel suicidal now but i have a lot in the past, now i just have this constant feeling of not going to make it much long, like i feel that one day soon im just going to go to sleep and not have the will to wake up.
i only eat about one meal a day, not so much because of lack of appetite as to lack of motivation to find something that sounds good.
i am currently not on medication.
i have been checked into a clinic due to the therapists recommendation and was asked not to be given any medication.
i have recently realized that i want to get better
and i want to do with with someone that cares and can help? but i dont want to go through a physician because it always feels like they dont really care, yet the therapist i went to before was just making me feel worst and more frustrated before i started seeing her.
any suggestions?