severe worrying

[always hopefull]

hello everyone i am sorry to say this but i cannot go on anymore the past few weeks of my life have been awfull,i recently started anti depresants prozac,also anxiety tables but i couldnt tell you what they are as my moms locked all my medication away.have been put on sleeping tablets aswell, due to numrous reasons,and have been on them for about a week.i keep having the worse dreams that scare me so much,i had these dreams before i started any of the med.i dare not to go sleep because if i do they frighten me so much i end up walking around like a zombie the next day.in a world of my own.im so frightened im going to end up going crazy that i keep thinking of suicide as i dont want to put my family through hell,as each day goes on i feel worse and worse, and do not want to loose my mind as there is defo no point in living then ,not knowing who you are, or who your family is anymore,so i cannot stop thinking about suicide as an easy way out of it all.please does anyone know what i can do what help i can get?im shattered from not sleeping it is truly so scary i feel like there is not point anymore.anyone please have any advice ? about anything i will be greatful.

[sparkeler]

Stop.  Take a deep breath & relax if for just a moment.  

Now, you will get through this time.  Are you talking to a therapist & addressing these suicidal feelings?  That should be first & foremost.  If not, I would go to the emergency room.  You should talk to somebody now; your mother if you can.  You should not be left alone until you are in a better frame of mind & have the capability of taking care of your emotional well being.

I think you have alot of feelings you need to sort out regarding sleep, dreams, life; they are confusing to you. You are depressed but suicide is not an answer.  Help is.  This too shall pass but you need to cry out to someone.  Your post has been a step in the right direction.  Hang in there.  You will be ok.

[Pandra]

Stop talking about suicide......that is never the answer.  You think it would be best, but it would be the worst thing you can do.  You need to wait at least another week to get the medication into your blood stream and working.  Please, please, just wait this out, you will see, I PROMISE you will feel so much differently in a week to a week and a half, really.  I have dealth with depression since I was 16 (I am now 29) and have been on meds that work, if you give them a chance, they work.  At one point, I was so desperate and felt so desolate, I had dropped 30 pounds in 6 days from not eating or drinking (I never contemplated suicide though) that I had to admit myself into a psychiatric ward fo a local hospital.  It helped A LOT and I have since regularly seen a psychiatrist and psychologist.  If you keep on having suicidal thought, PLEASE, go directly to a local hospital!  They are not there to criticize, they will help.  

[always hopefull]

thank you very much for your comments,there is hope out there then after all? i feel like a shell of my former self :(.im terrified to leave the house or even answer the fone sometimes as i am so down i can barley hold a converstation with anyone.i am sposed to be back at work on monday as i have had a month off to try and sort myself out.wil the prozac help me be able to face the normal things in life?soon. as i dont want to live like this.did this happen to any of you or does it where you feel so terrible you dont want to step outside your house? i just want to be happy again as this is the worse feeling in the world.my parents know im down but i dont think they realise how low i am feeling.my dad just says snap out of it ' but its so hard.i feel like i am loosing everyting my friends my job, i barely even know myself anymore.but i am glad of your comments.
thank you

[alh17]

I really think you should try to talk to a therpist. I know it is hard but you have to look at if you were hurt or sick and needed a doctor. They are only there to help you. I have been sad and worrying a lot lately and just went to a phsychiatrist yesterday. I was diagnosed with depression and general anxiety disorder. It is hard to face those diagnoses even though I knew I was not feeling right. It is all part of the process to getting better and enjoying life. I have also been thinking that I am going to go crazy and it is very scary. You should not end your life over it though! It is part of the anxiety disorder and it can be helped! I really hope that you start feeling better soon!

[NoraD]

I'll start with wishing you all the best - try to remain positive!

I am doing some research on the concept of patient-to-patient support and was hoping you could assist me...
Do you prefer patient-to-patient forums over expert-to-patient forums? Do you find the info provided by patients more reliable? (Otherwise why not just ask the expert...)
(Thanks for your cooperation!)

[always hopefull]

hello everyone and thank you very much for your comments i do appreciate it , it makes me feel a little better knowing there are other people out there that understand and can relate to what i am going through.i think when you get to the point of not leaving the house or wanting to talk to anyone there is something defernatly that needs to be sorting thank you very much everyone.Nora about the patient to expert thing ,for 1 you have to pay to post a question,and with being on the sick i am not getting paid for it so need every penny ive got,it would be nice if it was free lol,im from england and dont really know how i would pay for it in dollers also? but as you can see that its just as helpfull speaking to other patients that have been or are going through what i am.thanks agiain everyone for all your time spent.x

[always hopefull]

hello everyone and thank you very much for your comments i do appreciate it , it makes me feel a little better knowing there are other people out there that understand and can relate to what i am going through.i think when you get to the point of not leaving the house or wanting to talk to anyone there is something defernatly that needs to be sorting thank you very much everyone.Nora about the patient to expert thing ,for 1 you have to pay to post a question,and with being on the sick i am not getting paid for it so need every penny ive got,it would be nice if it was free lol,im from england and dont really know how i would pay for it in dollers also? but as you can see that its just as helpfull speaking to other patients that have been or are going through what i am.thanks agiain everyone for all your time spent.x