what do i do?

[15goingonextinct]

im 15 and i m depressed. i cut myself and think of suicide. my life should be fine, i don't understand why im depressed. i cant tell anyone close to me so im writing this. please answer with any help etc.

[mammo]

We don't always understand why we are depressed, but through therapy we can learn.  Why do you feel like you can't tell your family?  Do you have any idea how devestated they would be if something happened to you?  How much guilt they would have to live with for "not seeing you needed help?"  Your parents love you dearly, and would want to keep you safe at all costs.  Sometimes as parents, we have no way of knowing what you are feeling if you don't tell us.  They want to know when something is wrong, and being depressed is a real thing, and they will help you, and it is never something to be ashamed of, or embarrassed by.  Please talk to someone, maybe start with a school counselor?  Or put it in a letter to your mom, dad or both, but seek someone's help.  You do not have to go thru this, there is help, and depression is very common.  You can and deserve to live a happy life.  Maybe you think your life should be fine, but if you're depressed something is wrong, and it may just be a chemical inbalance.  Being 15 is tough, and there is a lot of pressure, a lot to deal with.  Sometimes things are just too big for us to handle on our own.  Take that one step, please and talk to someone.