Dr. Smita-in need of advice please

I know that I have written about this lesion before, but I really am in need of some advice.  One month ago I was taking a shower and felt a bump on the back of my upper thigh.  What I saw was a raised dark bump.  My first reaction was it's raised and dark  it must be melanoma.  I began to pick at it and it bled.  A day later there was a scab.  After one week, I picked off the scab.  I was then left with a white circle with red irritation around it.  I wrote in to Dr. Rockoff on the Dr. forum and he suggested to wait a month to see how it heals.  He felt it sounded like a picked hair follicle.  After one month,  much of the redness was gone (just some redness that blanched).  There was just a white circle with a little skin discoloration around the circle.  However, inside the circle was a very dark brown dot about the size of sharpened pencil.  Well, I let it be for a week thought it was the healing process.  However, I began to pick at it again and picked off the brown dot.  Now I am back to the beginning with a scab and red irritation.  I have an appointment with my family dr. in a couple weeks and do plan on showing it to him then.  But, does anyone think this could be melanoma? I keep on telling myself that I just haven't given it a chance to heal by picking and picking. I am scared to death and could really use a peace of mind until I see the dr.  PLEASE HELP!!!!!!