Methadone

I am so sorry for my repeats my computer is bad, anyway someone told me not that i trust it, they said it is safe to come off 5 mg a month all i know is i am a hermit i can't drive since being on this crap and the pain doc keeps shoving it to me I am scared of the Pain as it helps so much but it has ruined 10 years of my life and i want off. I am so scared like the rest of you.  Pain or no Pain and no life I Know you all understand i'm all of a sudden 49 years old
and wasted all these years,  All i do is lay in bed in deppresion get up when the pain is gone with the Methadone so i can get a bit done around the the house. then bang the methadone wears off and the pain starts I hate my life and the methadone helps but is also killing me anyone relate?