Problems with hope

[diabetichick]

I'm 14 and have lost hope almost completly. Diabetes has caused nothing but more stress, friend lose, pain, and I'm tired of it. I have no one to talk to. I tried once, but I felt nothing but simpithy and judgement. I don't have deprestion.  Help please...

[Forum-vol-cmb]

Okay first of all everyone has days when life seems way too much to handle.  Diabetes can make you feel despair because it seems like so much to do and and it is not going to go away.  I get it--I have been diabetic for 27 years.  It is a long time and a lot of shots and testing and going to the doctor and
blood work, low and high blood sugar readings, believe me I KNOW!  But what I don't get is the loss of friends.  I am older and therefore wiser, but if you lose a friend because you are diabetic than I can't see how that friendship was ever a good one or a real one.  
Who exactly are you talking to?  Did you try going to the JDRF website?  It is www.JDRF.org, try going to that site and finding where you can look for your local chapter or an online friend with diabetes or go to the part of the site where it say life with diabetes and scroll down to teens.  
I think if you try talking to someone with diabetes you might find something other than sympathy and judgement.  You will probably find understanding and someone who knows what you are going through.

[stackchips]

yeah, kids are mean... and make fun of you...


deal with it... make fun of them back..
or you cant go to the candy store with them... o well..

[a1c9]

Hey, I'm Zac, originally from Texas but living in Maine (4 now).  I've been diabetic type 1 since I was a young teen.  Seriously, I can remember the first minute I knew there was something wrong with my body.
After loosing eighteen pounds in a week, gone through at least 100 bottles of soda and water, I was in the hospital with a blood sugar lvl of 823.  
Years later, things aren't much better.  Though our A1c is supposed to be seven or under, the lowest mine has ever been was 8.2.  It's 9.3 right now...
Currently I am suffering from nerve damage in my lower legs.  No numbness or loss of circulation but it hurts like...beep.
Hope...I understand how distant that sort of feeling is.  In school, when I had to leave the room to take my blood sugar, or go to the cafeteria to get juice and bring my bs up, it wasn't uncommon to get accused of using my diabetes to slip out of class.  One time a syringe fell out of my back pack and I was interrogated by the vice principal.  
When I got a job I took my insulin in the bathroom.  Well, I almost got fired because the boss thought I was doing drugs.  Diabetes is hell.  
Nothing is more pathetic than a diabetic type 2 patient telling me their success stories and how I should learn from it.  For one thing type 2 is not near as fatal or bad as type 1. Secondly, type 2 can usually be prevented by not gaining weight.  Why did I get diabetes? I was never near overweight.  My doctors don't even understand.  
I get used to be scolded at by dietitians and other diabetics.  I get warned a lot.  Seriously, I know the dangers.  I know that I am living on borrowed time and time is critical.  Surely you know too, diabetes is very personal. Each patient suffers often completely different issues than others!  
I get so tired, I'm always so tired.  I've missed a lot of school and work because of the constant fatigue and sickness.  I have all the reasons to control my diabetes but I seem to can't.  For a brittle type 1 diabetic to have an A1c below eight demands CONSTANT attention, focus, and concentration almost around the clock.  You need to have a very uniformed sleep pattern, meal plan, snack plan, and exercise plan.  In short, you might as well be a robot.  I get depressed a lot.  I feel diabetes takes away my freedom.  And the cost keeps me in poverty.  
I pray for a cure.  But we are always told about how a cure is just around the corner.  I almost think its a conspiracy.  Diabetes treatment and medications bring in billions of dollars a year to our country's medical system. I know it may sound silly but something else sounds silly as well.  It is 2007 and even though the glucometers have grown smaller and smarter, we are still sticking our fingers and injecting insulin.  
diabeticchick, I really and truly do understand your hopelessness, all my heart goes out to you.  You are in my prayers.  Let your story be one of triumph and survival.  The only answer I have for you is to find your hope in the things that you love doing.  Find hope in all that you aspire and dream of being and doing someday.  Do not let diabetes have power over your heart and your spirit.  Instead, fill your heart and spirit with the things that make you happy instead.  
Good luck and all my best to you.

[stackchips]

Nice comment above^^^^^.  Just wondering are you still in school.  I also believe that doctors and such tell their patients that a cure is right around the corner.  They probably do it to give the people hope, or to help convince them that they need to keep lower a1cs.  Also, isnt diabetes genetic?  Dont you think you could have possibilly developed it cause it was in your genes. and in fact you did nothing wrong..

so i agree, go live your life to the fullest.