Feeling guilty leaving relationship

Hi,
I was married to M for 5 years and dated M a couple years before that.  Both of us are in recovery from drugs and alcohol.  After the first year of marriage, he relapsed twice and blamed "losing himself in the marriage".  We entered counseling and things were better for a couple years.  In May of 2007, he disappeared while I was having a hip replacement in the hospital.  I thought it was weird I couldn't reach him but he said he had phone problems, blah, blah blah.  In my heart, I knew he out doing crack, his drug of choice, even tho' you would NEVER peg him for a crackhead.  

Shortly after that, my 14 year old daughter stopped visiting her father (different guy) so when I travel for business, my husband and her would be in the house.  Then his behavior became much worse.  He was "falling asleep" at work and leaving for long periods of time (hours).  It always happened when I was somewhere I couldn't get back from or some very important meeting or work thing.  

My daughter started to suffer (her real dad has drug and alcohol problems as well) so I finally asked my husband to leave.  I make more $$$$, (like 5 times more) so I paid him off and removed his name from all shared property.  I continued to suspect something was wrong with him, so evenually I stopped all contact with him.  I am pretty sure he is still using altho he is in AA and NA.  

I offered to pay for his rehab, I tried to help him, but I felt like I was always going to be 2nd to a crack pipe and I really felt like I had to save my daughter and myself.  Yet, I still care for him and feel guilty.  Its been about 5 months, the divorce should be final soon and I had coffee with a new man today.  But, there's a part of me that feels like I should have done something different, a part of me that still cares for him and I am still sad.

BTW, my kid is doing great now and we are fine in every way.  Am I crazy?  Thank you.

[iam1butterfly]

It's what is called second guessing...
There's always that nagging feeling that we somehow failed that other person. Or, we think that we didn't do enough to save the relationship. So, no... you're not crazy; you just have regrets that things didn't work out! The relationship may not have not have survived; but fortunately, your daughter is doing better.

[Fuzzz]

You did the right thing.  He did not do the right things.  You had to protect yourself and your daughter.  It's human nature to have those ilogical feelings, but keep doing what you know is right.