Hear Broken

[nikkie1580]

So today has been a sad day, it was hard and my heart broke little. and have been crying all day I could barely get trough this post.So here it goes about 6 months ago my sister brought home a litter of pitbull puppies( i have always had a soft spot in my heart for this misunderstood breed they get a bad rap) and they we small 4 weeks I know young my sister boyfriend breed his dog and is father told him if in the next 24hr if they were not gone they would disappear(yes i reported him)so we got 8 new puppy we feed them, got health check and when they were 8 weeks they one by one went to good homes, all except one a pretty little girl named Bella my sister had a baby could not take care of her and left the house and Bella was left behind.So she became our responsibility i knew she had to find a home we have 3 dogs and foster all the time we could have up 10 dogs at are house at a time, so day by day she has been with now she is 7 months old and she grew on me i bonded with her like no other she is a precious girl my bound with my dog Rowan is strong i never thought another dog could get my heart like that but she did.But we needed to re-home her, so today she went to live with my cousin, grandma, and uncle my uncle is sick and my grandma needs a furry friend so it is a good choose they told me it a open adoption and we will see her all the time. She will get one on one attention and lots of love i know it the best places with lots of love and room to run and she is the only dog there, but why does it hurt so much i know in my mind it  is a good place but in my heart i feel pain, i feel like i lost her.She not mine any more and i was fine and held it together until today when they change her name i know stupid, it  was finally she was no longer mine.I have foster many dogs for 1 week to 1 year it has always been hard, i always say their goes a little piece of my heart every time one is re-homed, but this time it broke my heart.Sorry a long post but i need to get it out and i know all the regulars are loving and caring and know how i feel  even it sounds stupid or sappy it may be. She was loved will be miss she so, but she is in a good home.

[seeana]

What would we do without them.... so glad you have your special one in Rowan.My goodness you do a wonderful job it must be so rewarding and heartbreaking at the same time.
This is something so special about this site is that I get to meet people like you ! we come here to help and give advice to the best of our ability ....but many times I get upset and frustrated by some but am learning to bite my tongue.................a bit. lol

[ginger899]

Sweetheart, you are bound to feel this way! I know I would be crying too if I were you, because of course she will be missed. It's never hard to form a really meaningful bond with a dog! And especially a good sweet dog like Bella.So now she's gone to a new home, you'll miss her such a lot.

But there surely has to be a bit of a bright side...? Will you be able to visit her, and play with her? I guarantee those wags and licks you will get if you do will be off the scale!

Maybe in the future, Bella will be able to have a sleepover with you and your k9crew. And I am sure there is still a lot of fun waiting in the future for her and you and your furry family!
I know that probably doesn't help right now. But see how you feel in a week or two. I promise you, it will get better.

[nikkie1580]

Thanks , it is a trail run but it seem that she is there to stay, it will good for them and her.Since the are family i will see her the all the time they live about 20 min away.It just seem so final she no longer mine ,but it will be good for her.I myself  many years ago taken on the responsibility of fosters most we get are sick, injured, or mom and pups, senior, and even close to death and spend  their last days with us and a lot of them need a lot of attention and to be socialized. And Bella a precious puppy is supper hyper and is one of those girl that need a lot of attention and all of it, it was only fair for her to go some where  that allof their attention can be given to her.Rowan last night saw and felt my pain and would not leave my side slept with his nose at my check all night long so in my bed was this 55 lbs furry ,furry Siberian boy with is wet nose on my face what love, so glad i  have him in times like this.But you are right I want to run over there and get her back and never look back.THANKS for the response.Respectfully Nicole

[seeana]

Oh darling I know it is so hard for you and in her mind you will be her first love you wait and see.They dont have to change her name do they ?????? Bella is a lovely name.

If she does not settle can you get her back ???.
You know it will be hard for her as she does not understand. I hope she copes ok I must close as I know how you feel..... and once in a while we really connect with that special dog and you should Not have to go through this.

This is wrong of me to say this but I would go over there and get her....so sorry Its not what you need right now , should not have answered this.

Lets just say I really know how you feel. sincerely Joan.