Anorxia/bulima

[samlovepink]

Im anorexic and bulimic i was wondering the possible effects it could have for my body. iv lost alot of weight but my friends are concerend i think there is nothing wrong with it but they think so. if so how can i solve it,

[ivyannekier]

I have been diagnosed with bulimia since 2003 and according to the dsm, I'm anorexic as I've missed four consecutive periods, and my bmi is at 16...and so on. I'm 5'10" and I was 180 lbs, now I'm 103 lbs....ok, that was 8 months ago. Now, currently, I am 135 +/- lbs (i refuse to know). I flirted with this eating disorder as a way to cope with my divorce. I was losing everything on my life (so I thought) and food, weight, and my own body was my only control. I thought I could just stop the behavior until 8 years past, three stays I'm a mental ward, eating disorder treatment facility, and countless hours with therapists. I had no control like I thought, it controlled me. I got sicker, lost relationships, my life was in total blackness. I decided last August in 2010 or so, I had enough. I couldn't do it anymore. I felt horrible, looked like a skeleton (dont think that at the time until I see pictures of my wasted self), and was flirting with death. I could go on and tell you all the harms and the forever damage it causes but, you can get that info everywhere, anywhere, by anyone. So, what I'm going to say is that it comes down to this, some go only months until they've damaged themselves for good. To their death even, while others go scathing by for over 10...20 plus years and they are "functioning" to a point of normalcy.  But eventually it catches up and there is nothing one can do. Your playing with fire. I played with fire and I have many burns, just not so noticeable. I feel blessed I only did minor (more like minimal considering what I could have done) damage to myself, but I also feel guilty that I did it in general. I'm 30 years old and my body feels like I'm 60. I take medication that's meant for older individuals. I lost two molars, cavities everywhere, osteoporosis, and I'm in pain..chronic pain. But what I could feel like now versus what I could feel like, is a shame.
I guess what I'm saying, don't play with fire. You'll never really no how your body will respond until it's too late. I'll never get those years back, nor will I have a day go by where I think of my disorder. I have to remind myself why I started, what I did it for, and be proud of my recovery, even though I have the piece of me who resorts back to my "eating disorder" that tells me I'm no good, ugly, fat...ect. I stop those thoughts and remind myself I'm good, doing good, and I can't fall back into "its trap" ever again. Not am option. Never again! I don't have support from family, like I said, I lost a lot of relationships, I have a few friendships but no one can relate, nor do they want to talk about it. I feel alone sometimes in this battle, support groups are too few around here if any and therefore its me. I have me, my knowledge, and if I can help and assist anyone with such a thing, it feels good. I'm working on my masters in counseling and hope one day, I can make a difference in someone's world.
I don't know your history, why you started the behavior or if its something your just posting to gain more info on side effects bit I hope this post of mine gives something to you or anyone else for that matter. I wish you well.

[lilymoon]

effects can be very severe,you could die.Youre obviously in debate about this why not talk this through with your gp?

[lilymoon]

The effects on your body;throwing up a lot can cause your throat to get burned too much and go bad,your teeth can get really bad because of the acid,your heart can get under pressure,your blood can miss the vitamins and minerals it needs and therefor shut organs down. People can die starving themselves.Please take it seriously before you do yourself permanent or lethal damage.