Beginning of an eating disorder?

I have had anxiety for the past 5 years and ever since then I have had very bad self esteem issues. I am never satisfied with myself mentally or physically. I feel like I'm fat, even though part of me knows I'm not. My friends are all really thin (naturally) and I guess like.. idk I'm a bigger build than them, and it makes me feel really bad about myself. I always critisize myself and I'm at the point now where I'm not letting myself eat a whole lot, and when I do, even if it's a bit, I feel like im 500 pounds. How do I get rid of this feeling and get myself to eat?! I'm starting to get dizzy and lse concentration cause of it!!!

[Zoelula]

Actually many of us on here have a lot of experience with eating disorders and that's why they have a peer forum so we can help and support each other!

Things like self esteem and anxiety are frequently connected and in order to recover from an eating disorder it's necessary to deal with all those feelings. The food and weight issues are just a symbol of the rest. I would suggest talking to your doctor and getting a referral to a therapist experienced with eating disorders. He/she can help you work through the issues and perhaps also prescribe medication if needed. I also highly recommend OA, Overeater's Anonymous. Don't let the name fool you it is for people with all kinds of eating disorders and is a great source of support and information. Look in your phonebook, there are meetings in all large towns. I have sixteen years recovery from a lifelong eating disorder so it is possible!

[Jaquta]

You might like to try posting on the emotional eating expert forum.  The doctor there will be better able to advise.

[lisaxx09]

oh okay, thank you!

[Zoelula]

Actually many of us on here have a lot of experience with eating disorders and that's why they have a peer forum so we can help and support each other!

Things like self esteem and anxiety are frequently connected and in order to recover from an eating disorder it's necessary to deal with all those feelings. The food and weight issues are just a symbol of the rest. I would suggest talking to your doctor and getting a referral to a therapist experienced with eating disorders. He/she can help you work through the issues and perhaps also prescribe medication if needed. I also highly recommend OA, Overeater's Anonymous. Don't let the name fool you it is for people with all kinds of eating disorders and is a great source of support and information. Look in your phonebook, there are meetings in all large towns. I have sixteen years recovery from a lifelong eating disorder so it is possible!

[lisaxx09]

thanks! :) at the moment, im trying to tackle the anxiety, so im hoping the eating thing will go along with that. if it gets any worse i will talk to my doctor, but i think for the moment i like to do it on my own.
thanks a lot for replying. that really did help :)

[Zoelula]

Great, good luck and let us know how it goes!