Can't stop eating please help. It's making me sick.

Every day I eat until I'm bloated and feel like puking. As soon as it passes I eat more. Always fatty disgusting foods. I don't even like the food but I can't seem to stop. I noticed I only do it when I feel sad or bored so it's basically emotional eating. I hate it. I can't look in the mirror because it makes me cry. I can't stand going in public. I wish it was just as easy as 'going to the gym' and 'cutting out fatty foods' but I ALWAYS give up whether it be running out to mcdonalds or skipping the gym for months. I'm 17 and I'm not obese..but I'm overweight by at least 30 pounds and I'm afraid it will go even higher. I'm disgusted by myself please help me figure out how to stop. My mom won't help she does that thing where she tells me I'm the perfect size and she pretends I don't even have fat which clearly I do because I've been bullied my whole life about it.

[Zoelula]

The problem that you have isn't fat, or 30 pounds, but the way your eating is making you feel, and the way you feel about yourself. You are very right that it is an emotional problem. My suggestion would be to get referred to a therapist who has experience with eating disorders and can help you both with your issues with food and the feelings underlying that.