Do I have an eating disorder???

[Bran_Bran]

Ok do I have an eating disorder if I starved my self for 2 days. The only reason I stopped is becouse I read that it slows your matabalizim down and in the long run I'll just gain weight.

I still want to do somthing about my weight. I am 5 foot 10 and weigh 156 I want to get down to 132 cuz that's the lowest I can go and still be healthy. I guess I'm not sure how that will look but as long as I have a flat stumic.

Most of the time it's not even about weight though. I guess it makes me feel like I'm fixing somthing about me and that it's one thing I can control that my parents can stop me from doing or take away.

I always feel full after one or two bites I have to forse my self to eat the rest cuz I know my mum won't let me eat that little. My appatite was alot bigger last year I would always go back for seconds and thirds but now I can't do that I don't why my appitite has slowness down though I guess it good it's not so big anymore

I'm also goi g to start exersising asucj as possible wich is why I'm glad for second semester next year cuz I'll have gym all afternoon I calculated and I could exersise a total of ten hours a day then. Though I probably won't have the motavasion to do that much but I'll try

so do I have an eating dissorder???

[debhut]

you definately have some of the symptoms of an eating disorder - issues over your weight and shape, wanting to gain control in your life, anxiety when trying to eat.  You are obviously worried about your behaviour which is usually a good sign - as most people in the grips of an eating disorder can be in absolute denial.   You need to seek out a good therapist and let your family know - you have nothing to be ashamed of - it is a disease like any other - and I can tell you from watching my daughter struggle with this hideous disease for over 4 years - it is not something you want to ignore or do nothing about.   Please talk to your mother or get some help........it will only get worse if you continue down this path

[eszy]

i'm 13 turning 14 and i eat once a day with one snack. i try eating but it hurts my stomach. i try and cant i get grossed out when i smell to much food. my parents think i have an eating disorder but i'm not sure. i feel weak and so tire i get bumped and it hurts like crazy. i'm not sure what to do i'm afraid but am not hungry and i'm afraid of forcing my self to eat because i think of my self as a fat person when i weight like about 105. i just can't see what people see of  my appearance. i'm not so tall just 5 1/2 or 5'2. my parents are preventing me from doing track or just running. i feel like falling and not getting up. i also, always feel dizzy and feel like i am about to faint. i still don't know what to do or what i have. so,,, confused..

[Bran_Bran]

Umm no I don't think she supects anything. Cuz I still eat full meals. And the two days I skipped I only skipped brekfest and luch cuz I knew I wouldent be aloud to skip dinner. So I dident bother trying I just had smaller portains. But still a full meal.

[Zoelula]

I think you are right, that it is about hating yourself. I am much much older than you but can still remember feeling that way when I was your age. I used eating disorder, drugs, sex, everything I could to make myself be the way I saw myself. It took many years to feel good about myself, but I now have 16 years recovery from my eating disorder and my life has been good. I am at a perfect weight, not fat, not skinny and don't have to think about it too much. I'm a very good cook and enjoy my food. I'm glad you are talking to someone and hope it helps you feel better about yourself.

Your mom may already suspect something is wrong, by the way, and would want the best for you, so perhaps one day you will seek help in that way as well.

[Bran_Bran]

Well I can't see my self talking to a therapist cuz then my mum would know. Though I

talking to a trusted adult. He's does bible studies at
my school so ya. He can help me threw it with a religion side as well.

And at this point i'm not sure if I want help or not I think I do. I want to feel mentaly and physicaly good about my self. But I also want to lose the weight. Though I know I'll still find somthing to hate about myself.

I think it's more from Hating my self that o self contesly started looking for more things to hate. That when I started hating my body

[Zoelula]

While nobody on a website can diagnose you, yes, it does sound like you have the symptoms of an eating disorder. What you don't say, is if you want help with it? Eating disorders, unfortunately, get worse not better if untreated. You are very smart and absolutely right when you said it isn't even about the weight as much as fixing something and control. My suggestion is to get a referral to a therapist who has experience with eating disorders. It hasn't been going on very long so you could get help and benefit from it very well.