Eating Disorder?

[dizzie01]

I am 5' 7 and 110 lbs. I would like to gain weight and start eating more. However, I can not make myself. I am constantly counting calories. I also exercise at least an hour a day. I know that I should eat around 1500-1650 calories a day or more and weigh around 125-130. I try to follow healthy eating guidelines but fear of getting fat. I was a fat kid growing up and obesity runs in my family. I am scared because a few years ago I got deathly thin at 75lbs. I know I am too skinny but I fear not be able to control myself after I get to a healthy weight.  My father weighs over 370lbs and a lot of my uncles are over 300lbs. I need advice. I know that I need to eat better for my health and longevity of life.

[Zoelula]

Good for you for recognizing that there is a problem here. Being fearful of gaining weight and continually working to keep your weight at an unnatural low is indeed the sign you may have an eating disorder. Nobody can diagnose you online but I assume you are posting because you suspect that is what is going on. But you are ahead of the game because you recognize it is not healthy! I encourage you to get some help. It may not be something you can just figure your way out of. Some options are to talk to your family doctor, seek a therapist (one experienced in eating disorders) and/or attend meetings of Overeater's Anonymous (OA). Don't let the name scare you away; it is for people with various types of eating disorders. Good luck to you.

Just to let you know it's possible, I have been in recovery from my eating disorder for 15 years. The first time I realized I could just maintain an ideal weight and not have to either lose or begin to gain out of control, it was amazing to me! Now it is just routine!
Zoe

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