I need someone to talk to ASAP

I feel like my world is falling apart, and the harder it gets, the more i feel like i don't want to be here anymore. I haven't felt this way in a while, but it's back, and it's strong.
I never had anyone i could depend on, and then i found someone in the form of a guidance counsler, and i love him so much. i'v never felt like anyone's ever cared. But he has gone above the duties of his job. He's gone out of his way to make me feel like i'm worth something. And now i feel like i'm loosing him.School has come up with a new student improvement plan for me, although i don't see how there new plan is going to improve me...now i feel like ****.
The ED is tearing me apart, adn nothing seems to be worth it anymore. If you on please send me a message.

[Gigger]

I think I can help with a listening ear share experience and hope.

[Kila_Malia]

You are not alone. I have those feelings to sometimes. I have a 12 program that helps me get through the ruff and hard times etc. Hang in there G/F. You are loved! I don't even know you but I care! I am a good listener and I can share my experience,strength and hope with you!! Hugs Jill

[Rach878]

Thank you both. I was so upset, i didn't know what to do.
Its good to know that there are people willing to listen that care. What's a 12 program?

[Zoelula]

I assume Kila means 12-step program. 12 step programs are like AA. The one specifically for people with eating disorders is called OA. If you look in the phonebook under Overeater's Anonymous you can call and get the time and place of meetings in your town. They are free and are an excellent source of support when you feel the way you have been feeling. You can get a sponsor, someone who has some recovery time from this disease who  you call every day and will help you work the 12 steps, which are a way of getting well. If you live in or near a large city they may even have a special "young people's meeting", one meant especially for people your age and you will feel very at home! I enourage you to get involved with OA so that you don't have to wait until half your life is gone before you get over this disease like many of us did!
All my best to you. I've been there.
Zoe

[Rach878]

Thank you, i never thought OA, would be for eatting disored people, except for what the title means, overeaters. I never though of trying there.

[Zoelula]

That's exactly who it's for, Rach. Even though it is called "overeaters" people who attend OA have the whole range of eating disorders from compulsive overeating to bulimia to anorexia. People that attend OA are overweight, normal weight and underweight.

[Rach878]

Thanks for the info. do you know where i'd look for a group like this?>

[Zoelula]

Look in the phonebook white pages under Overeater's Anonymous or OA.

[LeftCoastChick]

I think it's time Rach for you to go into a program then worry about school don't you think? It's better to stop and get this worked out so you can get good grades when you are healthy.

[Rach878]

i do agree, but the school year is almost over. There's only 3 months left. I do plan on going to a program over the summer, but i havent' really told anyone yet