I'm desperate ! please help.

Hi Doctor.

I am taking citalopram for more than a month. And I still is not very good. My anxiety is gone, but then I am worried because I begin to think that I accepted all this. And I'm not and never will! Also, there is still a female person stuck in my head and still another person stuck in my head. And than my mind says that this is what I want and that they are all thinking what I want, and assures me that this is my reality: ((I'm already totally distraught over this situation.    

QUESTIONS:

1st ) Is hocd worse during menstruation? For me at that time seem all very realistic and I am very upset because I have no trouble even though we all seem real.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

I hear you  that you are desperate, but I can not answer your questions because I do not know enough about you....you can only sort this out by seeing a psychotherapist...that is the best thing you can do for yourself..in fact, it is essential.

[nenaa]

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2) Do hocd creates a false memory? I do hocd can play trick to better convince the person that this is the reality? And given the past can be rewritten and that makes it realistic? Because I constantly ruminating my past, and hocd is always some kind of signals and assures me that this could be it, and it made me frick out

3) Will this ever go and whether I'll be back to normal like before? (Although hocd says that this is my reality always and has always been, and assures me that I have no where to return because this is also my history and such).

4) Whether the person who stuck in my head ever go out of my head and not to return ever?

5)Is it possible that hocd start in intervals? Because my began in the fifth month of the 2009th year. And he went, and came back and again went off and came back ... and so while I was completely caught in the eleventh month of the 2009th year, and is not gone. There is a constant, with a little better and worse days. but it is always there. Thus, there is already a very long time and it is impossible to shake. Is it possible that remains so long?

Please Doctor, help and answer these questions because I am really desperate of all this. And your help and answers will help me indescribable. Please answer all questions.

Because I want to again my peaceful and lovely life with my man and I do not want my mind says the opposite of that and convinced me to his gay nonsense!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

[Jaquta]

I agree with the doctor.  I think you should discuss this with a psychotherapist.

I think anxiety, etc can become worse around menstrual cycles.

I think one self-doubt is all it takes to create that sense of insecurity.

I have had several people from my country e-mail me wanting to have relationships.  They were both bi-sexual and that freaked me out a lot.  I don't know if they wanted intimate relationships (hopefully not).  They said they didn't.  Anyway, having contact with them really freaked me out and made me second guess myself and my sexuality.  I felt extremely confused and frightened.

Currently I feel comfortable with who I am.  I am not in a relationship but when I am I expect it will be with a male.  I am female.

This stuff can really mess with you.  Talking it through with a T may help.