I've had a lot of issues growing up... I don't know my dad, my mum was severely depressed for years, and I was disowned by most of my family for being so different...
This spiraled into self harming... I still do it after 2 years of "specialist help"... Nothings changed... I still cut, pour wax on my body, force myself to have freezing cold baths, or at night, I leave the window open and sleep with no blanket or anything for warmth... Or I do the opposite and turn up the heat until I'm sweating.
I hate my weight. I hate how fat I am. I'm 5ft 7in, weighing 8 and a half stone... I want to be 6 at the end of it all... I really really want to be skinny, I eat 500 calories at the most a day. If I eat more, I cut deeper through guilt. I only noticed because my former boyfriend keeps pointing out my weight loss, but it's never enough... What's wrong with me...