Please help... verge of relapse

I have been struggling with anorexia for about 7 years now. I became ill when I was 15 and now I am 22 years old. I had to wait to seek treatment until I left home for university because my parents refused to get me the help I needed at the time. I have been in therapy for a couple years now and in the past few months I have made great strides, including reaching a goal weight that was negotiated between myself and my therapist.

However, I am home visiting my parents on holidays and won't be seeing my therapist for about a month. She has asked me to keep track of my weight once and a while, and when I weighed myself a couple days ago I was about 5 lbs over the target weight we had agreed on. This extra 5 lbs actually puts me at the ideal weight for my age and height, but I have never weighed this much in my life. This has really set me on edge and I've been upset for days. I feel like I must lose the 5 lbs and I'm terrified that I may be starting to relapse.

I would appreciate some advice or support so that I don't get sucked back into losing weight... I am having a very hard time dealing with this alone.

Thank you so much to anyone who might take the time to read this.

[meg613]

i am pretty much in the same position, just remember that soon you will be back and talking to your therapist... i know it is so so hard visiting home and it can be so daunting but it will end and 5lbs will seem like nothing, remember to praise yourself, a healthy wait is always best it makes you look healthy and sexy, remember its not about what it says on the scales. don't lose the waight because you will regret it in the end.
just say to yourself.... wow i am actually healthy and look how much you have achieved, now if you can get past that freak out stage then that is one massive step, if you can stay at that 5lbs added untill the end of the holiday then imagine how amazed your therapist will be!!

stick in there!!! you can do it....!!!

[autumneyes]

Thank you so much for your kind words of support, they warmed my heart and made me feel a little better about my situation. You are right, I jut need to focus on staying healthy and looking forward to talking to my therapist. I wish it were as easily done as it is said... :)

You said you were in a similar position as me... I'm really sorry to hear it. It's awful, isn't it? I hope that you are doing well, and if you need to talk at all I'd be happy to be here for you. You can get through this!