What do I have?

[mcull]

I'm 18 years old I'm 5"5 and 110 lbs. My weight fluctuates constantly. I was aneroxic since my freshman year of highschool and bulemic starting my junior year. I'm a freshman in college now. I am no longer bulemic. I don't think I'm fat but it seems as though I have a permanent issue with my eating. As sick as this sounds, I enjoy starving myself of food. I like to "test" my body and see how long I can go without eating before I break down. I've gone a week without a meal. Just little snacks here and there..I lost 10 lbs in that week. But I really don't think I'm fat! My stomach is ALWAYS bloated and I can't tell if that's from my eating problems or my stomach is just big but that's the only area of my body I think is big. Recently I've had to go to the doctors because my stomach now kinda rejects food. I have sick to my stomach after eating, I have constant pains. Not crippling pains, just a constant annoyance in my stomach. I've had a few "episodes" I call them where for a good two hours my stomach is just tightened into knots, I can feel the acid in my stomach and it just burns, it hurts to stand up straight and I just curl into a ball until it goes away, I get hot and sweat. It's awful. My doctor prescribed me prevacid.  But it didn't really do anything. I only allow myself around 1 meal aday and if i starve myself for too long suddenly I'll freak and eat a big meal.  I just don't know what to do or if this is even called something. Because I feel like I'm playing some sick game with my body to test it.

[mcull]

I wanted to add the point that when I do eat, it feels like i'm forcing myself. food doesn't appeal to me anymore. if it were up to me i could get an IV in me everyday. when i force myself to eat it makes me gag, i do not enjoy eating attttt all. it is unappealing to me. food just makes me sick.

[Rach878]

To me it sounds like anorexica/bulimia. It's similar to myself. I was bulimic for 4 years, and then i started restricting but still purin whenever i ate, then restrictin everythin but dinner which i pured. Although i uess you could call that anorecxia i never fell below average weiht. I wouldn't worry to much about what kind of eating disorder it is, but rather that it's there, and it soundls like you need some help to deal with it.

[Sarah1013]

I agree with Rach, it doesn't matter so much what it is, but a matter of getting help.

And the reason your body rejects food is because you're going so long without it. You have to slowly work back up to a normal portion, not all at once.