I'M confused about having a possible eating disorder...
I gained like 14 lbs around 2 years ago, then I started making myself sick after lunch at work, then I started using laxatives and being obsessed by weight and counting calories. I lost the weight I gained and for the last year have maintained my normal weight of 124lbs, at 5 ft 5 that's perfectly healthy.
I no longer purge, or take laxatives, yet after every time I eat I just want to go and puke.
Things got better this summer, but now things have taken a turn for the worse, so I'm a bit confused. It's like I have all the thoughts, but I'm resisting to the point where I'm not actually binging and purging. So in theory I have all the mental symptoms, but none of the physical and I just don't understand what to do