drugs/pro-ana and pro-bul

i have been bulimic since late into my grade 9 year, and only recently became more and more anorexic due to the drugs i choose to do. I am now in the second year of college, I went from 115 pounds healthy in grade9 to 84 pounds now, but drugs are also a factor in my sitituation. so between both I have totally become a skeleton, and i can barely look at myself in the mirror anymore. How do I force myself to eat in the mornings when i feel so hungry i want to puke? how do i keep my food down if i decide to do drugs? and also how do you GAIN weight? even when i do eat real food compared to fast food, its out of me very quick, and it either comes out, or comes up. I don't know how to fix my body, I need help.

[Crystal553]

If you have a problem with keeping your food down, try eating penut butter. It helps with your gag reflux. thry that.