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experienced different types of ED throughout my life

I have had an ED since I was 13.  Started out, I would say as anorexia, then went into bulimia when I heard about the idea of getting to eat and not gain weight if you throw it up.   The bulimia started as normal eating, if not enough eating and throwing up.  I have done everything to hide it including throwing up in bags and hiding it so that there would be no evidence in the bathroom.  Sounds gross!  Then I have gone months and eat normal, then back to eating and throwing up,  except through the years it is more binging and eating until being completely uncomfortable.  Now I am 37 years old and it is much harder to keep the weight off with the binges and throwing up.  I am now doing more binging and not throwing up. I end up falling asleep from exhaustion from all the food I have eaten.  I eat healthy during the day and then once I get home I fall apart. Once I haul my kids everywhere, get them fed, eat a good dinner myself,  and can finally settle down and relax for the night I binge and eat everything with the intentions of throwing it up, but end up falling asleep on the couch.  Of course waking up during the night or in the morning, feeling bloated, not rested, depressed, and fat.  I weigh myself and find that the scales have gone up 2 or 3 pounds.  This has gone on for a month now and I have gone from 125 pounds to 134 pounds.  I am 5'4" so I am still in my range for my age.  I was very content at 125.  The problem is that I can't maintain it because of the binge eating I do.  I am out of control!  Has anyone else experienced the different types of ED?  
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yeah I've done that before...it was like I was stuck in this rut I couldnt' get out of...it just got to the point where I couldn't throw up any more...I was just too exhausted from all the work I did in the day and then just not having the strength to get rid of the food I had just eaten...it sounds like you're exhausted and your body is trying to tell you that it can't take this any more...why not take a break from the puking and see how you feel...you'll probably feel a lot better
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It's really important that you tell your family doctor, so he can do a full check up on you. Spill the beans, it will be the best thing you'll ever do for yourself. Chances are you will get referred to a psychiatrist  -  Bul. in any of it's parts cannot go without treatment. Bingeing is a horrible disorder that I know well, even after I stopped purging I still binge, no where near what I was doing, but it's still a battle. I'm getting treated for a mood disorder, and it's dropped my binge behaviours dramactically, though pms is brutal. It's hard not to gorge, but I try my hardest on top of therapy. It's great you posted here, now the next step is to get help. Much luck,
LCC
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