ive been bulimic since 4th grade

in 4th grade i used coloring pencils to make myself vomit, and then graduated to other objects as i grew older and realized the skinnier you were, the prettier you were. hah. i was and still am crazy. when it was at its peak i made myself throw up around 15-20 times day. i've been to therapy and rehabs and bla bla bla. but i recently heard there is a pill that is being used to help control my needs to get sick? i was just wondering if anyone has tried this, and what their experience was. i'm very curious.