I'm really depressed and suicidal. I've contacted (email & phone) potential psychologists and psychiatrist in my area and nobody will help me. They say I'm too high risk to take on as their patient even though I have good insurance. They refer me to the local state
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Mental status tests health center which is a big joke (I know...been there involuntarily 5 times). Even my husband won't help me and says I'm alone. My parents and siblings don't talk to me either. I'm starting to make plans to kill myself next thursday...gonna buy bullets for my rifle. What should I do? I can't call the
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Mental status tests health center. Maybe I should go through with my plans. Nobody cares anyway. It will be better in the spirit world anyway because I've tapped into that realm already. Any advice sir?
That's rubbish!! Everybody's life is of some value. If mine is, then yours must be also.
It's unfortunate that health professionals cut people off when they need help the most.
Family and friends can feel hopeless and threatened so a lot of the time they are just plain useless at helping. I can't comprehend how difficult it must be for them but it's never easy for us either (and they get to walk away from things if they choose -we can't, we have to live with ourselves).
I think the first thing you should do is call someone and ask for help -you shouldn't be alone when you feel like that.
If you can drive, can you drive yourself to the local hospital? I know that can be an extremely difficult thing to do, but you need a lot of support right now.
I'll be around for a short while if you want to chat. I can't promise anything though because it's my birthday and my family are ringing.
J
Get help. Don't make plans. Is the problem that no one will treat you?
You're wrong when you say nobody cares or you're not worth it. You are worth it and we do care.
J