The long-term effects of uncontrolled complex partial seizures?

Greetings -

Ever since I was a young child (I'm 43 now), I have had intermittent spells and episodes of blanking out, being unable to speak or move, losing control of my body, shaking/trembling, and extreme mood swings that come out of nowhere and disappear just as quickly, leaving me feeling exhausted and very low/depressed. In the past, I have fallen because of one of my "blank-out" episodes. These are somewhat disruptive, but they don't keep me from living my life. They did become more frequent and more intense last year, but lately things seem to have quieted down somewhat.

I have had an MRI and an EEG, but both came back normal/inconclusive. I am considering doing a longer ambulatory EEG to see if my doctor can get more data.

But I'm not sure I want to pursue a diagnosis or be treated pharmaceutically. I have heard many things about the ill effects of AED's, and how they can sometimes trigger more serious seizures. I've gotten to a place in my life where I can pretty much identify and adjust my behavior and activities to accommodate these spells. I feel like I've just now started to level out.

But if I am having complex partial seizures, as my neurologist suspects may be the case, is there a danger of allowing them to go unchecked? What are the risks and dangers involved in just "letting myself be?"

I am the chief provider and head of my household, and stopping work is not an option. I also cannot afford to "experiment" with medications which may take me out of commission. But I don't want to put myself and my family in danger, if these spells are going to cause me long-term issues.

Any input you can offer would be most appreciated.

Thanks

BB