Hi, i'm 30 years old and have worn soft contact lenses for about 12 years now. I hadn't had an eye exam for nearly three years and my lens prescription was outdated, so I went for an eye exam and got fitted for new contacts. I used to wear Acuvue2, but these new lenses are Oasys, which are the lenses I'm wearing right this minute.
I think it my last lenses were -4.25 or so, but maybe it was -4.50 or even -4.75. I thought both my eyes were identical prescription, because I never had to bother with Left/Right lenses, but now my Left is -4.75 and my Right is -5.0. From what I can tell, the lenses fit well, they don't slip, don't really feel too dry, too wet, too big or small.
After wearing these new contacts since Wednesday evening, I have this REALLY strange thing going on with how I feel. It's hard to describe, but it's like...anxiety. Nervousness. This vague sense of frustration, like everything people say to me is annoying. I feel spacey, disconnected, just "out of it". Difficulty concentrating, a sort of heaviness and listlessness, strange pressure in my sinus area and above my eyes, I wouldn't exactly call it "throbbing" but it definitely pulses through my eyeballs with my heartbeat ever so slightly. I feel irritable and short-tempered; for example, last night, when my wife asked how long it had been since I'd cleaned out the gutters, I said "last summer". She didn't quite hear me and asked, "What was that, hon?" I answered meanly, "I @#$*%^& SAID I DID IT LAST SUMMER!" This is not my usual behavior. I've since apologized.
It's like I don't have the joy or energy to do anything but fixate on something, sit still, and try to recapture feeling like myself again. Nothing seems fun anymore--going out to eat, watching movies, staying up too late working on my novel, having "fun" with my wife, having a long, hot bath each night, I just feel WEIRD, bizarre, disconnected, disoriented, even a little dizzy at times. I can best describe it like this: it feels like I have a cold or sinus infection (sinus pressure, irritability, hard to focus on anything), but I don't feel "sick". It's not like my stomach hurts or I have a fever. I've tried removing the contacts completely, but that near-blind feeling masks how I actually do feel--in that near-blind state I tend to get annoyed, short-tempered, headachey, spacey, and unfocused anyway, because I can't really "do" anything without my vision except read a book held an inch before my face. That's very boring. It's like the only thing that makes me feel any better is sitting perfectly still focusing on one thing, like watching tv QUIETLY--bright lights, loud, sudden noises, moving my head too quickly, and people constantly talking to me makes me edgy, like I want to beg them to please stop talking because it's driving me nuts.
Something came along and sapped me, it's like I somehow became this short-tempered, foul-dispositioned son of a ***** within six hours! This is NOT me! I put in my new contacts at the eye doctor, and by nine o'clock or so I started feeling really strange and unhappy. Right around nine I went from being fine, to literally standing up from my computer desk, blinking, wondering what was happening, why did I start feeling so bad, nervous, and starey all of a sudden?
It's like these things are no fun anymore because of how strange the front of my head feels =( I felt great until a few days ago, no medical history of anything serious, physical or mental. I'm usually thrilled about getting new contacts because I love the fresh, cool feeling and ultra-sharpness of vision that comes with new lenses. I always look forward to eye doctor visits.
SOMEthing is causing this, and I'm trying to comfort myself by discovering what it might be. This HAS TO END. I keep getting these tense, anxious feelings in my chest, then my heart gets going and I get that nervous twinging because I keep trying to figure out WHAT is making me feel like this??
Am I about to suffer a nervous breakdown over something?? Is my mind fraying out over some kind of repressed stress? Do I have some kind of nervous system disorder that won't let me relax or concentrate or be happy again, I'll have to just sit and stare like Norman Bates?? Am I just plain going crazy? Nothing was stressing me when these feelings started, but now it's like I can't relax. I haven't even been able to read a book since going to the eye doctor--my mind won't let me enjoy or focus on anything, because these bizarre sensations are SO alien and pervasive and I have no clue how to deal with them.
The contacts MUST be the cause, but how can it be lasting so long, and why is it causing me so much horrible trouble? I've heard that switching between glasses/contacts can cause irritability and temporary loss of focus, but this is ridiculous! I just feel like I don't "care" about anything right now. Sorry that I can't describe this feeling in finer detail =/
I'm a 30 year old man, but I've reached the point where I'm frightened by what's happening. I even shed some angry tears this afternoon because no matter what I do, rest my eyes, get a good night's sleep, rinse the contacts, or try to keep repeating positive thoughts: "Oh, you're fine, stop being such a baby, there's nothing wrong at all, YOU FEEL FINE", it will not go away--and I have no clue how to deal with it on a permanent basis. It just keeps lingering. I need reassurance that these feelings of "weirdness, inability to focus, irritability, disconnection, spacing-out" can indeed be linked to a new contact lens prescription, and that they will fade away very soon.
If you're wondering why I haven't called my eye doctor about this, it's because the day of my appointment was his last day of work before taking two weeks' vacation. I get the feeling that even if I could inform him about this, he'd say something like "You worry too much. Maybe all that caffeine you drink has something to do with your feeling edgy." (Even though I've cut out about 90% of my caffeine intake over the past 2-3 years). Or maybe he'd say "If these weird feelings are bothering you THAT much, maybe you need a psychiatrist instead of an eye doctor)."
I apologize for this lengthy post...maybe I'll rewrite this post and call it my "third novel"...but this is the first time my contacts have ever affected me this way--if it even IS the contacts responsible =( Really, I'm at the point where I either have to know what's causing this, or I have to take a trip to the emergency treatment center for some kind of muscle relaxer, or something to calm me down, a professional to reassure me that everything is all right, that this will pass and I'll soon return to my energetic, happy, normal, family-loving, attentive, focused, hardworking, confident self, instead of this jittery, irritable, broken-down shadow of my former self =/
PS - if someone thinks this IS a serious medical issue, please DO tell me. Whatever is causing this condition has to be identified--it's the "not knowing" that's really bothering me. at least then i'll have an idea how to deal with it, and which steps to take. and if this really seems like something laughable, something so stupid and ridiculous that you can't imagine a mature, married, 30 year old man getting worked up over it...even better. i'll laugh along with you, if these symptoms are nothing to worry about. i'll laugh heartily, knowing i'll soon have my happy life back =*(
Thanks a lot, please be kind and understanding,
James