monocular blindness following a brain surgery

[Horia]

I will tell my drama through my husband, who elaborates this letter.
I am a desperate woman, aged 33 years, in Romania, living hell and no one endure to diminish me or cure me unimaginable suffering, although I call on help from dawn until night, every minutes of my life.
In short, I suffered a brain surgery to remove a left temporal lobe arteriovenous malformations, a month ago, intervention that left me permanently blind in my left eye, at which point the ordeal began. I understand that is a collateral loss following an operation so difficult, but I'm exhausted physically and mentally because of the suffering faced: I fail to adapt to the one-eyed, in the sense that the image is not clear, I can not read, can not watch television, everything seems to move and cause me a terrible diziness and nausea, I feel struck by the walls, I have no security when standing and when I go, I feel like I have a blind eye instead of stone, and therefore, I stand frozen in bed hours, days, weeks, not knowing if there is any chance for me to see with eyes that I have left. He felt someone, ever, also a hell after losing an eye? If so, be good and tell me for how long? Because I feel that I wonder in eternity. I do not know how I can resist and alternative to this ordeal is the renunciation of life.
> Mihaela

[Horia]

Dear friends , more than ever, I will please tell me if you have had major problems with adapting to the lights of the house, when you left with one eye. Lamps of various powers have blinded you, have confused you, have dazzled you continuously? For if it happens it only me, I am scared that I will lose vision in my good eye. In the process of adaptation is natural to be so unbearable any artificial lights in the house? It's like someone torturing me with a powerful spotlight turned on my eye and I feel blinded by too much light. The shocking phenomenon happens to me every day, for 7 weeks.
Till I could go to other vision problems in one eye, I feel, slow and sure, killed in terrible agony, by the "lack of adaptation?" light bulbs.
I expect so much that you tell me of your experience and thank you for your support!
Mihaela

[Sandy Feldman, MD, MS]

Dear Horia,

I would recommend that you seek the care of an eyeMD to determine your eye condition.  It is possible that your symptoms especially of dizziness and nausea may be more neurologic in origin. An eyeMD should be able to assist you in getting care and finding out.

Dr. Feldman

Sandy T. Feldman, M.D., M.S.
ClearView Eye and Laser Medical Center
San Diego, California

[Ray T Oyakawa, MD]

I have had many patients over the past 30+ years lose total vision in one or both eyes.  It is certainly a challenge to accept and adapt.    Please see a psychiatrist to help you through your loss.

Dr. O.