BFN this morning

[SueGre]

I really wasn't expecting much. I mean, it's 10 dpo, and I'm 41 and have diminished ovarian reserve. I know it's not over till the witch shows her ugly self, but I'm not counting on anything. We will continue to try! I will do another round of Clomid and keep going to acupuncture. We have a telephone consultation on Monday with an adoption agency. It's good to get that process started. :0)

[NO1critter]

Have you taken a pg test again over the last couple of days?

[Mariana101]

I know you hate this nonsense!!!!! IT'S SOOOOO awfullllll :(  and today is such a windy cold day!!!! Oh boy!!!!

I just got candy for Holloween.  Crazy night with kids though. There will be plenty of hyperactive children around my neighborhood but guess what Sue? they will go back to their homes and we will be sleeping peacefully with our hubbies and our sweet dogs:) Thank God for DOGS!!!! BTW, Your is so cute. I have a very cute Maltese named Teddy!!!! He is the best.

I am sending you a "wireless" hot cocoa, so drink it, wear something warm and cozy and tomorrow is another day!!!, it's not that bad after all.

I never ask you.... have you ever done IVF? Clomid won't do much for you, at least it hasn't for me. We are a bit "older" so IVF is "better". This *****:(

Let me know when you try Orinoco:) You guys will love it!

[SueGre]

Ugh. I have a feeling AF is going to come really late like it did once over the summer. I just don't feel like she's anywhere near. So annoying. If I'm not pg, then just come already. I want to start another round of Clomid and I just hate this in between nonsense.

[Mariana101]

Hi Sue,

Im starting the injections this Thursday, then my first eco is next Monday, the retrieval is Monday Nov 9 and transfer is Nov 12 if my dates are right. Im kind of an "expert" calculatig my dates unfortunatelly. So wish me luck.


Have you tried Yoga? .... I do power yoga at the Baptiste Studio in Cambridge, they have one close to you. I can only do that in between cycles, not when doing IVF because is a hot room, but I do some yoga at home. I did acupuncture last time and it did not work so I got disappointed. I know acupuncture is good but I had to pay a bit more than $50 a session so Yoga is MUCH cheaper. My hope this time is that bacause I'm not that hopefull maybe I won't be too stressed out and it will happen:) hhahahahhah.... Life is weird :)

BTW, I have random cramps as well...... I started noticing them more after my last invitro.... I think we get more sensitive to our body sensations but they probably were there all along, we just never notice them before.... but let me tell you I think I would have noticed them since they feel quite weird,,,, it's like the side of my tummy shakes like a little earthquake!!! hahhahaha!!!!.

I have never being at Sol Azteca. Is that the one on Washington square?. We love trying out new places as well.

I just got home to do some work in the computer and The Tyra Show is talking about fertility OOOMMMGGGG!!!!! It's EVERYWHERE..... and I see a million babies a day!!!!!! they are enerywhere as well..... hahhahaahaaha:) Talking about being a bit sensitive about all this, ah?!!!!

Im so glad we have this forum..... we understand eachother and it's ok to just write it all down..... :) sort of :)

Have a good rest of the day

Mariana

[SueGre]

C'mon AF! Let's go already! I hate this being in limbo. She's already 2 days late. I hope this isn't one of those cycles where she's like 2 weeks late. I have acupuncture tomorrow. I just *love* telling my acupuncturist every cycle that I'm NOT pregnant again. I'm sleepy, I have a headache even though I took Tylenol, my bbs hurts, my lower back hurts and I'm having cramps on my lower left side.

Can you tell I don't feel well today???

Blech.

[SueGre]

I just saw Orinoco last night for the first time and wondered what type of restaurant it was. Thanks for telling me about those two. We are always looking for new places to try. The place that was closed the other day was Sol Azteca. Do you know it? We love it.

You're so right that I should stop testing. It just becomes an obsession. I know you understand  this. I'm running a test right now but I have no hope left for this cycle. I know I'm probably not getting pregnant for 2 reasons: I'm 41 and have diminished ovarian reserve and I obsess every cycle. The first strike is probably remedied by acupuncture, the latter I don't know how to deal with. I've got to reroute my thoughts. I'm not sure how to do this. I wish we could go on vacation for a whole week right when I O!

You just did IVF? Best of luck! I hope you and I are new mommies very very soon.

Sue

[Mariana101]

OMG!!!!! SUE!!!! Stop testing my friend... I remember seeing faint lines one day and nothing the other.. and kept asking myself: What the heck did I do to mess this up? Did I just became "unpregnant" all of the sudden? All the hormones we take affect our bodies so the results are not clear until MUCH latter!!!! But I totally understand what you are doing and I will probably do it at the end of November when I should be waiting for the results of my IVF!!!!  My husband was so sad last time and kept asking me not to do hpt but I couldn't help it!!! I would try to keep it quiet but my face was pretty obvious :( .
You know something, the sad part about this is that I am a very upbeat enthusiastic person, work with kids and families as a social worker/therapist and play all day..... this fertility thing afects me more than I give it credit for. Now, Im like: "Ok God.... Im trying to trust you.... don't make it so hard. i'm loosing my patience".

BTW, I have a 15 year old daughter and she is away in boarding school, loving it but I feel that I have an "empty nest" way too early.  She will be a great babysitter though... She is telling me to adopt, and help other children like I do every day:).

Try "La Casa de Pedro" is a Venezuelan restaurant in Arsenal Street, Watertown.... or Orinoco in Brookline Village I think..... they have another one in the South End... Im only saying this because I am from Venezuela and you wanted to go to a Mexican place the other night and ended up in an Irish Pub (Which I love btw,,, nothing like a good Guinness!!!! hahahhaah:)  so I though you can try my kind of food, not spicy like mexican but with tons of flavor!!!!!

Im talking way too much. Im going to go to bed now. Long day tomorrow.

Huggs to ya!

Mariana

[SueGre]

Dammit. I thought I saw a faint line tonight but Rob said he couldn't see anything. I really thought I saw one developing and then it just went away. I cracked open the test and looked and looked and thought there was a pink line, but there wasn't. There just wasn't. I'll test again tomorrow morning and then I'm done testing and will just wait for AF.

[AmyG89]

I just wanted to wish you luck. I live on the South Shore in Holbrook.

[alikat1205]

I am always late with Clomid

[SueGre]

Hi Mariana, I live in Brookline near Coolidge Corner.

This is a tough road we're traveling, isn't it? We are checking out some adoption places. I will gladly let you know what we find out, who we liked and who we want to steer clear of. Next Monday we have a phone consultation with Adoption Network. They claim to place babies in just a couple of months. I'll let you know how it goes.

Sue

[SueGre]

Thanks!!!

[SueGre]

You are the BEST cheerleader, Amy! I know Clomid made my AF come early a couple of times, but doesn't it make most women's cycles longer? Also, I realize from hearIng a lot of stories here, that I could still get a BFP well after 13 dpo. I just don't feel that different. And I know that's silly because I didn't feel anything with Aidan until much later. Believe me, I want this more than ANYTHING, but I just don't think this is my month. I love you for being so enthusiastic for me! You're such a good friend. Still can't wait to see that girl of yours! How are you feeling these last couple of weeks?

[naturschld]

Wishing you the best.  Hope AF stays away and you get a BFP!  Good luck.

[Mariana101]

Sue;
Im 41, from Cambridge MA.  We go though a lot with this fertility stuff. Im about to start my third IVF but don't have much hope to tell you the truth. They want to do four eggs. Crazy.  the thing is: my eggs are old, as simple as that.

Are you going to adopt? If you find a nice place let me know,,,, please..... Im clueless of how to go about this if we decide to adopt.

Thanks so much

Mariana

[amy0013]

I'm not trying to give you false hope, just stating a fact...but Clomid USUALLY makes your af come wayyyy early...NOT LATE!!!  Am I right?  I am remembering some crazy early cycles for you last time you tried clomid...the late thing is different!!!  

[SueGre]

I'm having pretty sharp cramps by my left ovary. I've had that around O time but not before AF. Weird. If she's going to show, then show already and don't make me wait!

[SueGre]

Uncle Chuck is awesome! I'm totally going to call Clomid that from now on!! I'll test again tomorrow, but I just don't have any hope for this cycle. Clomid has clearly delayed AF.

[usuk]

FRER is better than the others without FMU but you never know. I know this waiting is crazy. But if you do get AF, just know your mind is not playing tricks on you. Clomid changed me completely. Since I've taken meds, now my periods are a day shorter. I used to not get cramps until after my bleeding started now I get backaches, cramps, headaches, etc days before AF. It also gave me that metallic taste, it made me warm, carsick, lightheaded, etc. I'm going to start calling Clomid "Uncle Chuck" because he and Aunt Flo are my least favorite relatives.

[SueGre]

Nope. No line. The "line" kept moving so my eyes were definitely playing tricks on me. I'll try again tomorrow...

[amy0013]

OMG REALLY?!?!  A FAINT LINE?!?!  SERIOUSLY!??!?!  Go check and post back!!!!!  HOLY POOOO!!!!!

[SueGre]

I just took our the test and looked at it under my desk. I work with all men in a tiny one-room office. It's past the time you should check it but I might might might see a very faint line. I'm not sure because the light under my desk *****. I think my eyes are just playing tricks on me. I'll go to the bathroom and look again.

This suucks.

[SueGre]

I just did a FRER. It was negative. It wasn't with FMU, but since my period is officially a day late, I would think it would show with any urine, right?

pertykitty: Thanks for sharing that. I love those stories.

[pertykitty]

sue i was talking to a friend of mine last night.  one of her friends just adopted a baby boy.  she tried to get pg for many many years and was told it would never happen.  well that baby boy she adopted is now maybe  5 months and guess what?  she is pg!!  i have another friend that had one child early, like at 17.  she went 20 yrs without using b.c because her and her dh were told kids wouldnt happen (her dd was from another man).  she now has 2 more!! there are so many promising stories out there.  

i just wanted to share some hope ;)