Feeling down - 1st round of clomis and no success :(

I just got done with my first round of clomid. I ovulated but it appears no pregnancy, since I tested today and it was negative. I'm just feeling emotionally drained. Anyone else feel this way? I know one round of clomid is really soon to give up but honestly, I just feel so emotionally spent.

Wish I could get some support here. Hopefully there are tons of positive stories to cheer me up!

Thanks.

[amandamae1126]

I got pregnant on my first round of clomid and didnt show up + on a pregnancy test. I have now learned (after starting a second round and ending in mc) that some people need the extra few days (or another week) to show up on a test. I am not just talking about pee sticks - I didn't show on blood test either. Give it some time, and if it is really negative, try a second round. I know it's a tough rollercoaster. Hang in there.

[northernsunshine]

mangoaddict- Yes i know all too well what your feeling.  I'm now on cd3 and my first round of clomid was a bust even though i do ovuate on my own every month like clockwork, all tests have come back very normal and i have very regular cycles.  I had high hopes believing that our unexplained infirtility would be justified by eggs not being mature enough and that the clomid would help that.  But today i've started my second round of clomid hoping and obssessing again over my charts and all signs.

SSBD to you.  Good luck.

[ChuLinda]

Hi Honey,

I just started my 2nd round of Clomid yesterday. I REALLY thought I was pregnant after the 1st round and was so happy..come to find out I am not.  I was extremely down about not being pregnant, I cried when my period finally came. But my fiance' and I talked about it he gave me a lot of encouragement which helped immensely. I hope you keep your spirits high and I will keep you in my prayers as well. Enjoy this beautiful day!  (:

[udbe2]

I am just finishing up my 2nd round of clomid.  I can tell you there was a world of difference between the two cycles.  My first round I had 13 follicles total and they only matured to about 14mm.   Started my 2nd round and had 31 follicles total and had one mature to 28mm and a few others 16-18mm.  

I was disappointed the first cycle of clomid and really thought that I would get pregnant but when the test came back neg I about wanted to cry.   I'm in my 2WW so hopefully this will be the one.  

Good luck and SSBD to you all.

[owlbaby]

mangoaddict, udbe, chu linda, amanda (hi), and northernsunshine (hi) :

I totally thought I was pregnant my 1st round and when I wasn't it was a big blow. Very much a rollercoaster,but mango, I'm sure you'll start feeling positive again by the end of your AF and you'll get energy to begin again. I know it feels like HOW... but you'll bounce back. You just have to keep walking until you get to the destination... are we there yet???!!!

I'm feeling again really hopeful for this cycle, but I agree with udbe2 that the 2nd round was really different. Much clearer OPKs and it felt like smooth sailing... maybe the clomid needs to just build up a bit.

SSBD to all of you!!!

[frustrated1217]

I just took my second round of clomid and waiting for AF.(hopefully not)  I know exactly how you feel.  It's hard to describe to people who aren't going through the same thing.  I got a false positive home pregnancy test which made it even worse, I think I cried for 3 days.  It's a very mentally stessful time but you'll get there, just keep positive(even though that's hard to do sometimes) It'll happen it may just take a few times.
Good luck and I'm prayin for ya :)

[udbe2]

Forgot to mention.  I also found out that if you are on clomid you should wait at least until the 3rd day after taking your last clomid pill before taking OPK.   The clomid will cause a false positive on the OPK.  

[Super_sally888]

Hi,

I am just about to get my period after my second round of clomid and 1st round of IUI.  I was so sure this cycle was going to work, and now it hasn't.  Am sad.

This does put us on an emotional roller coaster.

I can't do IVF (not available here), and so I'm depending on IUI and good old mother nature.  Hoping that this next cycle will be the one.

[mangoaddict]

thank you girls. I don't know where to begin. I really feel this is a "test" for me from above. I have had a normal baby girl with no medication 7 years ago and now this seems so foreign to me. Sometimes, I feel real bad feelings and blame myself for putting on weight and not taking care of myself but then, I see others who are obese and carrying around kids. I am not even obese! I dont know what to say. It has been a tough 4 years for me. With 2 m/cs it has not been easy because doctors don;t even know whats wrong with me. They all pushed for clomid, so I took it and now no pregnancy and I am waiting for my AF. My 4 years have been really difficult for me. I cry alot from inside and feel numb but I see and hear of miracles and I sweat that God is watching over me. Sorry for venting. I just don't know who else to talk to. My hubby is very supportive but he cannot understand a woman's body like a woman can. That is why I am here.

The clomid definitely shortened my long cycles, but then it also thinned my uterine lining. I'm so frustrated. My doctor thinks a 6.8mm is not too bad. But I'am so scared.

I don't want this to be counter productive to my goal. I hope my dreams come true. I really truly do. Thank u for listening.

[frustrated1217]

Hang in there I'm on my 2nd cylce of Clomid and 5th iui. In the 2ww right now.  I think for some people  it just takes time, that's what I tell myself anyway.
It is very sad, and I hope you're feeling better soon.  Good luck and I'm praing for you.  
Just remember all of us will be here for you :)

[rnnghorse]

I am starting my third round of clomida tomorrow morning. will have an u/s on saturday next week.after that, my third iui.  the first round was hard and  I undertand about being frustrated. I am 39 years old and have pcos. Husband is good... so it is all on me. Sometimes i feel like a broken rag doll but then... I have to remember that God would not put me through something like this if there nothing to learn or gain.  either way the experience is a blessing. There are so many out there who can not even consider the options that we can.

Keep you chin up, know that you are not alone as we are all there for you and with you. Trust in your heart and you will be fine.

Good Luck... hoping that the third time is a charm

[mangoaddict]

thank u. Your posts mean alot to me. All of you.

[udbe2]

I'm surprised that your doctor didn't put you on progesterone supplements.  Mine does this due to the clomid effects on the uterine lining.  

[mangoaddict]

UDBE2- He hasn't yet. I just got tested for my progesterone yesterday, so we will know the results. On a separate not, got AF today, so I'm not pregnant. Will try another clomid cycle starting this week. Please pray for me.

[mangoaddict]

by the way, on cd 16, my follicle was 16mm. Is that kind of small? I think this seems to me that the eggs are not maturing fast enough. Could I be right?

[SunWorshiper_26]

Here is a success story for you.. After 34mtha ttc and one m/c, more rounds of clomid than I can remember I got pregnant this cycle with clomid, trigger shot and IUI. Woohooo!  This will be my first child. Hang in there. Miracles do happen, you have one little miracle and I'm sure you will get your BFP soon. I know how disappointing each failed cycle is and how upsetting and how much you cry and then you feel just numb and nearly want to give up. Remember it's ok to take a break if you need. My husband and I have taken a few breaks along our ttc journey so we didn't loose our sanity. Best of luck!

[SunWorshiper_26]

16 is a little small but not too small still able to get pregnant from it. Maybe they need to up your clomid OR just give them a few more days to mature. I had to wait till day 17 which was frustrating but it worked and I got my BFP

[Super_sally888]

So nice to be sharing this journey with others who are going through the same thing.  It helps!  Thinking and praying for your all.

[mangoaddict]

Thank you ladies. I had my progesterone done. A little late (around day 30) but got it done needless. The result was not good. My level was 0.6. I mean, basically, I did not ovulate.

I don't know how to feel right now. If I get my dosage increase, my lining may thin even more. So, I am trying one more cycle of 50mg clomid (hopefully, will ovulate this cycle).

Please please keep me in your prayers. I really need them, as I am feeling very very low.

[SunWorshiper_26]

Mangoaddict ask your dr about a trigger shot to force your body to ovulate and progesterone suppliments. Maybe with those and Clomid you can get your BFP :)

[frustrated1217]

Well the 2ww is over and the result is not good...no BFP.  I'm soo sad today.  Maybe next time will be lucky number 6th try.  Feel like crawling in a hole and crying for days:(
Does anyone have any good news they want to share?

[waitingonanagel]

It's is so good reading everyone's story. I've completed my 3rd round of clomid and my hopes aren't to high. Each month I am ovulating with no problem but still no luck. My husband is supportive, but he doesn't quite understand. Some days I feel like such a failure because I feel this is what I am supposed to do, and I can't. Not sure if I should give up or keep trying. Only time will tell I guess. Mango I totally agree this feels like a huge test....

[mangoaddict]

Things are looking good. Haven't ovulated yet but waiting anxiously...this cycle seems little longer than my last cycle. Cervical mucus is almost non existent but I am hoping my estrogen will go up enough to make me have ewcm. Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts.

[frustrated1217]

Well we are now in the 2ww for the 6th time.  Here's hoping...lucky # 6?

[frustrated1217]

Ok I'm going crazy here, 9 dpiui and
I've been nauseated for 2 days, I'm hoping it's not all in my head. I want to take a hpt so bad, but I  know it will come back negative. I'm really scared for the disappointment this
Time.

[mooney608]

dont be pessimistic and think of the full half of the cup,
I know its always hard to not feel bad each time we get AF but we must also have faith to keep us trying, I am married for 10month ttc since then 3 months ago i went for a just check up - ultrasound and they found 2 huge cysts on my ovaries, I had lalporascopy and had them removed successfully, also my tubes flushed in the same procedure and the dr said evey thing is now great, all other hormone tests are ok, and DH semen and results are ok too so its just the cysts that was the problem, last month i was on clomid 100mg, and fostimon 75iu(FSH), and on ultrasound there were 3 follicles, however no prgnancy, i cant tell you how disappointed, but i soon had my faith back and now on same meds clomid 100mg, and fostimon 75iu(FSH), yesterday the U/S showed 4 good follicles 18.3mm today i will have the trigger shot and i have looooooooooooong days of waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiting to see what will God do this time, still i do my best to stay optimistic, if it didnt work this time, i'll give it a third shot, then will try IUI, babydust for all of you, keep me in your prayers please

[frustrated1217]

Well AF came today, I think I'm done for a awhile, my mental health can't take the dissapointment anymore. I'm so depressed I think I could lay in bed for days.  I just can't even look at pregnant people anymore.  Everyone i know has children so it's hard to talk to any of them, people say they understand, but they don't! How can you say you understand when you have no idea what it's like to not be able to have children :'(

I'll still be praying for all of you
Good luck

[mooney608]

sorry for the not good news, but plz plz plz dont givup, we all give hope to each other so dont give up, its still out there you have to reach for it, dont lose the hope as long as we live we still have hope and AF means you still have a hope, i know the awful feeling i have it myself sometimes, but it just takes sometime and then hope is back, lets stand by each other and support each other,we are all here for you, keep us updates, and i'll keep you in my prayers,
P.S I'm waiting for my dream to come true, sure you know how awful it is to wait, I'll keep you updated

[trh0819]

Others may not understand your frustration but everyone here certainly does. We all either have been or are where you currently are and feel your pain. My DH and I ttc for a year before seeing an RE. Then we spent month after month being so disappointed in failed IUIs.  I prayed constantly, but I don't think I actually believed it was going to happen. After my third surgery, we finally agreed to IVF. I changed the "if I get pregnant" to WHEN and convinced myself it was going to work this time. I believed it in my heart 100%. No doubts. And it worked. I'm 10 weeks today.  My 38th birthday is in three weeks and this is my first pregnancy ever. So trust me, it's NOT over. Hang in there!

[frustrated1217]

Thank you so much for your words, it really means alot, and now that I've had time to breath,  i have not given up hope. We will  be starting injections this month and I believe in my heart that it will happen this time.  and congrats trh0819 i hope you have a wonderful pregnacy!