I NEED SOME (((HUGS)) :(

[babyadrian]

Hi Ladies, good morning, sorry i took another post. I'm just sooo down right now..i did another hpt (last one)and still BFN!!!! i went for my blood work an hour ago, will get the result later today. i am preparing myself for the worst for i already know the result.

I just need comfort right now..i don't want to let you down ladies, i don't want to give anymore bad news but my heart really broken at this time. im at work cant help my tears from falling down.. my boss understands me, i don't want to go home, i would like to keep myself busy so i can forget this..

GOODLUCK TO ALL TTC'S AFTER THIS I'M CALLING IT "QUITS"
WE'VE DONE EVERYTHING WE COULD, AND IT IS UP TO GOD IF HE EVER GOING TO GIVE US A CHILD..I'M STILL PRAYING AND HOPING FOR A MIRACLE BUT PREPARING MYSELF TO GET THE NEWS..

[babyadrian]

From the bottom of my heart i would like to express my appreciation for all of you who offered me comfort and gave your valuable time eventhough we do not know each other, but this difficult journey make us bind together with one hope& one wish.. a wonderful baby, although right now, my chance is soo slim to have a baby on my own, i am not closing the door for any possibility that i might conceive again. hopefully naturally..but now i am letting myself to take step back and focus on something to recover from this hardships..i am hurting right now but you ladies have done so great to comfort me.. with that i said.. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!

Shesherm- thank you
Annie - GOODLUCK to you, try to relax,i believe this   time its your turn to get pregnant.
Kerry - thank you for that inspiring story..i'll keep that in mind.

[kerryrobin]

I've posted this story on another persons comments but I wanted to say it again for you.

Don't ever give up hope. I'm a social worker and went to do an adoption assessment for a couple who had decided to adopt after actively trying for 8 years for their own baby. On my second visit they told me they had news - they were pregnant! All the specialists said that the adoption had taken the stress/pressure off them and hey presto! The women gave birth to a healthy baby in Nov 06.

(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

Kerry

[anniesland2]

I'm so sorry:( i wish there was something i could do or say to help you! Try not to give up i know it's hard!!! You are in my thoughts!!

[Tamsewn]

Big bear hug...I need it too. I still have a journey ahead of me and I can't imagine what you must be feeling having decided to end this part of your journey, and put it in god's hands.
My brother in law said something to me the other day....I can't quote him, but its something like, is it the path you desire, or the outcome? Meaning, is it just that you want to be pregnant, or is it that you want a family...I already know its the latter, and I am talking with DH about adoption now.
My situation is different then your only because I am in Canada, I have endo, so my IVF is covered for three cycles, and adoption is free within the country if I adopt through family and childrens services, If I go through an agency, you pay  for there services, but there are alot of laws in place, that allow for a pretty inexpensive adoption process.
I feel for the ladies that are not in Canada, as society has not made it easy, there are many people out there like me and DH that are getting by fine, but were not rich, and don't have $10 000 sitting in our bank accounts.
I commend you for your attempts, and for knowing that its time to take a step back.
Take care, and give yourself time.

[sunshinecyk]

I know that it is hard to stay positve, but just remember that I too had negative home test results and even the day AFTER my BFP blood test!  I hope that things work out for you.  I know that my husband and I have done this twice and have been fortunate each time as I am preg. now, but I also know that we had a back up plan.  We paid aroun $10,000 for my son and around $4500 this time.  We knew we couldn't afford to do IVF fresh again so we talked about donor sperm.  I would even be willing to adopt but it too is so expensive!  Hang in there....there may be other options and I hope that things work out for you today but if not, know that everyone feels for you!  Please keep us posted and remember that people love and care about you!!!

[seazshell]

Sending you a great big hug.  Remember there are no other women then those of us in these forums who understand your disappointment.  We feel your emotion and wish you the absolute best.  Remember this is all part of our journey.  It's a long one for some of us. (I have been ttc for 2 1/2 yrs, & beginning round 2 of IVF now.)
I will keep you in my prayers.
Please update us after your blood test.

[Nickey1]

GOOD LUCK.............I'm sure you'll get a BFP when you least expect it.  GOD works in mysterious ways.........

[lucyp]

It is hard, isn't it?  Just try to keep in mind that you aren't out of the game yet.

I'm glad you have such an understanding boss and that you are able to have something to keep you busy today.  

I wish I had better words of comfort for you.

Keep us posted and good luck!

[anxiousmomtobe?]

My thoughts are with you and I hope you get that baby you are longing for.

[babyadrian]

thank you ladies for your kind words, i will let you know what the result is..it is so hard  that we go through of this. We, that nothing in this world what we really want than a precious child. we are longing to have baby(s) on our own..maybe it will happen..someday..

Thank you again..

[bamababy]

My heart goes out to you.  I am in the same kind of boat.  My DH and I have been trying to conceive for 6 years on and off Fertility meds.  I keep telling myself that if this cycle does not work I am going to stop trying and just go on.  My heart aches so bad for a child and to see all my friends and family have children around me is totally heart breaking.  I am getting so frustrated watching the news about people harming thier children or finding them and I ask god why!  How can he bless them with life and all of us going through what we go through.  I will keep you in my prayers and please do same for me.  May god bless us both with a child.

HUGS**********

[babyadrian]

Well, i finally got the news that i wasn't really expecting and hoping..BFN!!!!!it is sucks!!!im so heartbroken, i feel like im already stumbled(sp)? and still kicking me on my heart..UGH!! i don't have enough energy right now.i don't even want to talk about it..i just want to thank you all ladies here in the forum.. you guys help me a lot and i really treasure it..

For you that will continue TTC GOODLUCK and thank you again from the bottom of my heart. it will be for a while before i probably post but know that i will be here around  everyday checking of you guys...

I hope and pray that GOD will continue to give me  strength to carry on day by day for right now i feel i cannot do anything..GOD BLESS US ALL!! I LOVE YOU...ALL EVENTHOUGH I CANNOT MENTION ALL YOUR NAMES...

[babyadrian]

hi thanks ladies for your kind words.. im a bit better now, my boss let my cried & cried.. although i still feel empty, so lonely but I'll go through of this, I thank GOD for giving me this strength and found this site, although we do not know each other but we all have one aspiration in our life, to build our own family/ to have kid(s). i just dont understand why is so hard to achieve it. i guess GOD wont give us things that we couldnt handle.. thats the way i look at it, i'm just letting myself to grieve and cry..

Thank you all and again my prayers and love also to all of you...

[sunshinecyk]

So sorry to hear the news....my thoughts are prayers are with you. Best of luck in whatever path you go on.  Please stay in touch!

[Faith247]

I am so sorry, I so know your pain I know that you feel very empty inside and heartbroken I am praying for your strength, don't make any decisions today stopping your treatment I said the exact same thing when I found out we were not pregnant in October after our failed IVF cycle. I am here if you need anything  

[shesherm]

hang in there.  ((((((HUGS AND SUPER STICKY BABY DUST))))

[lhowell]

Aw, I've got my fingers crossed for you and am sending hugs your way.  Hang in there!

[paranoidpatty]

Please try to remain calm till you find out your results.  I understand how emotional you can be and trying to get your work done while the people around you have no clue what you're going through.  I just make sure I keep Visine in my bag for times like this LOL.

Make sure you check back in as soon as you hear anything.  I'll keep you in my prayers for a BFP!!!


HUGZ!!!!

[JerzyGirlatHrt]

I wish I could reach through the computer and hug you!!!  Sending you lots of hugs through cyberspace :o) :o) :o)  I got my BFNs this morning also.  I'm sitting in work just fighting back every urge to burst into tears.  I guess fate has something in store for all of us and that is beyond discomforting to me. Best of luck to you and know that there are a lot of us here who will be keeping you in our thoughts :o)