I am so sad, and confused . i need you help

[yumipersonal]

Hello everyone, I went to my fertility to get all my record because I want to have with me. Because they told me everything is was ok, this was happened last year, so i went yesterday to have my record. my fertility did all testing... they don't know why i never get pregnant in my life, :( now i am 36 year,  never be pregnant in my life. all my test was good, they don't know why i can neve was pregnant and why i can be pregnant now.

But you know people said when you get old you egg going low.

so i just have here my paper with me. I want you help me because, my prolactin is high

Prolactin: 23.4   High  tested  in 03/21/2009
Prolactin: 35      High   tested in 07/30/13
Testosterone  : 19 Low tested in 07/30/13  
FSH : 5.9 ( I don't know is if low or high )
LH 6.8 ( I don't know is if low or high )
Progesterone 36.8 in 7/06/2009 (don't know is low or high
TEST AMH/ =   0.88 (thay said is low because my years, but what i never get pregnant in my life when I was young
:(.

can you help me to understand life :( i feel so terrible today i am so tired to try and God don't give my babies , i don't know what more i can do, i don't have money to do what the infertility doctor want, IVF or IUI  i cant do this, :( why life is so hard. why  ':(  ohh God help me to undestend, i don't want feel that pain anymore. :'(

[yumipersonal]

i dont know if you guys remember me, buy my AMH IS 0.88 is been long time suffer and thinking what is the right to do. now i just think i want to do IUI because i am tired to waiting and waiting to get pregnant. my question is : my Amh is 0.88 i don't know is great for IUI because i don't want to lose money because we really dont have a lot  i just one make sure is that's go to work. if any here can gibe given me a answer that will help me a lot. what your guys think?

[yumipersonal]

thank you Ariellesmithe ;)  Today I was feeling like sad, but I change my mine and I am try to be positive. My ovulation is high today. I test the test lol  is so crazy I am doing ovulation test when I never get pregnant in my life, but that life is about to have faith...! and keep try to be positive and trues God. that I never stop try I never , never ...because I know someday he will do what is the best... !

[yumipersonal]

Thank you so much snance ;).  hey...be strong and positive. in you case is a lot things but the good thing is you know you can get pregnant ;) is that is a good sign. I will pray for you....! keep be positive...! I am sorry for the lose, but know just keep doing what the doctor told you. and do the best you can. I know adoption is a great thing too. we maybe we never will understand what some thing happened in life but we need trues the God doing the best for us. Keep try...and be strong, don't never lose you faith. ;)

[snance24]

Just know you're not alone. Which is why these forums are very helpful to get support.
There are SO many unexplainable reasons as to why our body/anatomy doesn't cooperate. I just started seeing a fertility specialist. I am 30 years old. We have been trying for almost 2 years without being able to hold a baby of our own. We got pregnant last year and it resulted in a miscarriage at 10-11 weeks along. It was devestating. I had to get surgery to remove a large fibroid causing no room for a baby to grow. Since then, it's been quite the struggle trying to get pregnant. I just had a couple of ultrasounds, and now they are going to be testing my hormones via blood work. At this point they just want to make sure they can cross things off of their "what if" list. At least we are getting SOME answers, it still doesnt' mean a solution but I feel relief just figuring crap out about my body. They tested his swimmers and that seems to be normal too, besides having 0% morphology. Hoping lifestyle changes can help increase that. We have talked about adoption. Our doc seems to think we would be a good candidate for IUI too, but lets face it...it's not even guaranteed and who has that kind of money to just toss in the air and cross their fingers THAT is the answer? Good luck to all of us. It's frustrating and we will never understand WHY things happen the way they do. I just keep trying to stay positive and have faith, even though I feel kicked when down often. Constant roller coaster of emotions. Keep your head up!

[ariellesmithe]

Ladies, your faith is strong and I will continue to pray for you all. Sometimes we truly have to "let go" and "LET GOD!"

He knows what is best for us and our family.

Best Wishes! :)

[yumipersonal]

Hello LumbeeNativeAmerican,yes we cant lose us faith. and you no alone, and you no the only one. is many woman in this world. we infertility. but I know God have some plan, maybe no exactly the plan we want, but he will do the best all time. trust me, sometime I feel and I ask God. God what you want me to do? and I know he can listen and I know he can see all pain. When people ask me to me to do adoption or why I don't want to do adoption, I just answerer: When God put in my heart that I will do. but now I don't feel that in my heart. that I said to people. because you need to do what you feel in you heart... because when you feel in deep in your heart that feeling, that peace on you heart you know  this is God speaking, God is telling you is that he wants you to do.

I am be pray all my life for my babies, a lot people said I have a lot faith in God. But I said he still the same God, the God making people to see, the God who performed miracles. And I truest this God. So if in my life come day when he tell me do a adoption, I will do we all my heart I will do with all my love, because that God want me to do, but I still have faith the some day he will show me the way. I ask God for wisdom to understand things that sometimes can not understand. and let me tell you, sometimes there are terrible days in my life, but the only help me is just pray, and Talking with him because i am 100% I listen to us. so keep pray and ask God  for wisdom. I know is no easy but I know God with us.  

ariellesmithe, beautiful history...that the way God work in the life.sometimes we see things so far, but when we left in the hand of God, he puts so close this things to us. Congratulation for you babies....

in my case I don't have the money for IVF and me and my husband we don't want to do this, I don't feel I want do this, I want God show me that he want me to do if I have the money, but in my case I feel in my hear... I need to trust him 100% I know he doing something...what I said all the time, is GOD CAN SEE WHAT WE CANT SEE....so I am still pray...I am still to look for he answers, if someday he told me to do adoption or ivf and help me to get the money I will do because I know that he put in my heart  to do this. You history  is a beautiful because God give open the door when maybe you was think is no was more hope. God love you and bless you more. Thanks for share that ;)

[LumbeeNativeAmerican]

Wow, that's awesome. So u had twins. Thanks for sharing.

[ariellesmithe]

Prayer definitely changes things! I understand your pain and frustration. I was 35 when my husband and I started trying. We eventually went to the doctor that told me that my tubes were blocked and we needed ivf in order to conceive.  We didn't have any money, but I just had faith that something would work out.  We even tried applying for a loan but my credit was bad so that wasn't a possibility.

Time went on and we started taking classes to adopt.  Then I let go from my job. I was TOTALLY depressed. I ended up on medication and end the hospital.  

More time passed and God blessed me with another job. And when I looked at my benefits, they covered 100% of ivf up to 5 tries! I immediately contacted a fertility clinic and began the procedure.

We are now blessed with 4 month old baby girls!

Be encouraged! PRAYER DOES CHANGE THINGS! :)

[LumbeeNativeAmerican]

Amen to that sis. Being able to talk to you has helped me because I thought I was alone. Every body around me is having children except us and it hurts all the time. I'm not gonna give up b/c I don't think God would withold anything good from us..When it comes it will be in his perfect timing.

[yumipersonal]

Hello everyone.  Thank for you support. and yes we need to continue to pray.. because I know sometime we feel terrible, and so sad, but I know God is a Good God. Today I feel better.... I need be strong... I cant give up. ladies, lets pray...!  we cant give up...! Sometime life is crazy, sometime we cant understand life, but we need to keep going. we cant give up, because God never give up to us.

I know we have time. when we can do this anymore, when we have a lot question and no one cant answers us. and sometime we cant see God answers but he will do the best for us.

so...
LumbeeNativeAmerican
TIRED_OF_NEG
icelemon

BE STRONG...! GOD WITH US.

[TIRED_OF_NEG]

I'm 38 married since 06 n still no baby. I'm so tired of this.  Gurl I'm with u, I pray everyday.  Right now I'm scarf to get a text cause I'm scared n tired of negatives!

[LumbeeNativeAmerican]

My husband has mentioned adoption as well but I wanna experience the joy of carrying my own baby. Last night he started talking about us having a baby and wants me to find a different specialist to try and help us.  Its just so emotionally draining going to doctors; maybe they will do more than the last place I went. Every month I get discouraged when my period comes cause I'm hoping to be pregnant. Right now its all I think of, I even have baby names picked out. I don't understand why we have to struggle with fertility when so many people have babies and don't even want them. And I just can't seem to give up on it. I always pray to God to bless my womb and allow us to conceive. Yumi personal let's help one another pray and keep in touch.

[icelemon]

I am so sorry to hear that.  There are a lot of women in the same boat as you.  I am 35.  Never been pregnant and trying.  I know it gets so frustrated.  I hv the means to do ivf but i hv decided not to.  I will be taking letrozole tomorrow.  I will just see how it goes.  Hv a plan b.  As for me, i hv decided that if baby can never be in my life, im gonna travel the world.  I dont wanna be bitter for the rest of my life.  Life is short.  

[yumipersonal]

i understand how you feeling too :( is just so hard :'( i pray a lot, i talk a lot with god. but is no answers... the wife my brother have dream she see me in the dream i was pregnant and she said God told her to tell me continue pray... but i really i pray for all my life... in this point i feel lose :( i just cant do this anymore, every moths is just depress my husband told me about i adoption a baby, but i don't want, i don't feel to do that,. i just i am mad , angry, confused about what God do this, why? :'(  sometime i feel i need to be strong, but is so hard to continue to be strong when you feel all this pain.
so , what we can do lumbeN with all this pain, with all this in our hearts :(

[LumbeeNativeAmerican]

Your not alone. ..ive been married for 12 years and we have no kids either.
Fertility specialist says it's unexplainable why we haven't conceived.  I get really stressed thinking about it and cry alot; I desire to be a mommy. I even have dreams of being pregnant;I feel the baby move and everything. I guess I think about it that much. I'm 31 and ready for our family to be complete. I don't know what else to do either.