IUI FAILURE ONCE AGAIN!

[dying4baby]

IS ABOUT MIDNIGHT MY TIME AND CANNOT STOP THINKING WHY GOD IS NOT BLESSING ME WITH A CHILD... TO TOP MY DEPRESSION DUE TO THE FACT THAT MY FOLLICLES WERE NOT GROWING AND I WAS ALREADY ON MY 17 DAY WITH GONAL-F AND I LOST ANOTHER IUI CYCLE, MY ASSISTANT ASKED FOR THE DAY OFF BECAUSE SHE WAS GETTING AN ABORTION
DONE :(  I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE ABOUT MY PROBLEM AND THIS HORRIBLE PROCESS SO I DON'T EXPECT ANYONE TO HAVE COMPASION FOR ME BUT WHY MUST I LISTEN TO SOMETHING LIKE THIS!!!  IN ADDITION, MY SISTER IN LAW WHO HAD A BABY GIRL A YEAR AND 2 MONTHS CALLED TO SAY THAT SHE WAS PG AGAIN AND THAT SHE WAS NOT LOOKING FOR A BABY NOW!!! I LOVE HER, BUT I HATE HER ,,,,,, I'M PRAYING REALLY HARD SO THAT ALL THIS HATE GOES AWAY!!

[usuk]

i am so sorry. i know. the abortion thing just breaks all of our hearts. it seems so cruel to give where it is not wanted and not to give where it is so desperately wanted. but you are not being punished. kids with cancer are not being punished. it all comes down to the miracle of life. i cry almost everyday but deep down i know it's nothing personal. it just really, really hurts. xoxo.

[suchitraa]

I had 5th IUI, and on 26th day I started getting periods.. Is this normal? I usually get on 30th day or later..and after this IUI, I got my periods on 26th day itself which is making me go mad.. after seeing so many posts here.. I have got confidence that someone I will be a proud mom..

[mami2karina]

I am so sorry.  I don't understand people either.  I have all of these friends or girls around me getting pregnant "accidentally" and don't want their babies, none have had abortions they're just "dealing" with it as they say.  My best friend just had a baby November 21st, she has ZERO maternal instincts what so ever.  I feel so bad because while she was pregnant she told me she didn't want the baby and never wanted her to be born.  She's 20, I had mine at 17, I'm responsible and have been the sole supporter of her since she was born.  My ex-hubby was no help.  So anyways, I told her if she was gonna talk like that to give me her baby and I'd raise her.  She got mad at me but I told her I didn't ever want to hear that out of her mouth again.  I pray to God that you conceive soon.  I just m/c Thursday morning, but at least I have one child to enjoy.  Always here to talk if you need to.
Brittany

[Baby Vol]

Oh, I feel for you honey. I am the SAME way. I ask my DH every day why God won't give us just ONE child....when everyone around us has them left and right. I can't believe that you had to listen to that from your tech, my heart would have been ripped out. I know what you are going through, I think we ALL do in one way or another. It is a nightmare and it seems like it will never end. I will add you to my long list of ladies I pray for every day! Babydust to you and please hang in there!

[Esperanza/Hope]

i too understand what you feel. I've been trying to get pregnant for 8 yrs and finally got pregnant in june mc in july and now am 9 wks pregnant. I having difficulties with this pregnancy and am a high risk right now. Then my sister says she pregnant and schedules an abortion right in front of me, I was there crying on the couch worried about my baby and the insensitive *itch that she is. is calling to kill her baby using my phone. I was so hurt and sick i just went to my room and cried,  cried for my baby to please pull thru and please know that i want this baby so badly and cried for the poor little bean that the world will never know.

[dying4baby]

THANKS RITA...IS GOOD TO KNOW THAT THERE'S SOMEONE OUT THERE TAKING THAT TIME TO GIVE MORAL SUPPORT AND WHO ALSO UNDERSTANDS!
YOU'LL BE IN MY PRAYERS
XOXO

[dying4baby]

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO THANK EVERYONE FOR YOUR KIND WORDS!!
I'VE MADE A RITUAL TO LOG IN TO THE FORUMS SO THAT I WILL NOT BE LONELY!!!  I WILL KEEP ON PRAYING FOR EVERYONE TILL GOD GET'S THE HINT... :)  LOT'S OF BABY DUST

[Baby Vol]

I am praying for you as well.... I am SO sorry that your sister is doing what she is doing, I can't even TYPE it because it makes me ill. I will pray for your pregnancy to be a healthy success!

[AngieEMT]

What is wrong with people??? Don't they realize these babies are a precious gift from God?? Couldn't they inconvenience themselves for 9 months and put the babies up for adoption?? I know it happens all the time, but it just makes me sick.

We also have been ttcing for a long time. (6 years) We have never got into the fertility meds (other than one round of Clomid), just no prevention. I think I know why we have not had a child of our own. We have adopted two wonderful little boys. One is my nephew. My brother's girlfriend got pregnant when they were seniors. They got married and gave it a try, but she had zero maternal instincts and was a cheater, too. They ended up divorced in short order and my brother got custody. (She was a danger to the baby - tried to shake him more than once, forgot to feed him...) However, my brother was a very immature 19 at the time. My husband and I ended up taking him and adopted him a few years later. He has been a joy to us. We also adopted her next child immediately when he was born. (different dad) She now has 3 more in the custody of childrens services. Anyway, I think that is why we have not been able to have a child to this point. Where would these wonderful little boys be otherwise?

I'll pray for you. I know this is so hard.

[rita02]

i am soo sorry. i totally understand your feelings. i have had 5 mc/4 in the past year and i see all these people having babies that don't really care about themselves much less a baby. ( i work on labor and delivery). it is soo frustrating. just remember that God loves you and His plan is perfect, even though we don't understand it. keep your hopes up and God Bless!!