Meeting a Friends/cousins Baby @ Easter

My Cousin just had a baby (girl)  She got pregnant naturally & this is her 2nd.  Although I am so HAPPY for her as I really love this girl.... I just think I am going to break down when I meet her on Easter.  I don't even want to hold her but I don't know how to say No, when asked.  I am thinking of going to someone else's house just to avoid the babies. Is this wrong??
I am soooooo emotional today. I am not sure if it's the GOnel-f or not?  I just feel like an emotional mess today.  

How does one avoid this?? There will be a time that I am going to have to deal with it.  It's just that this is the first baby since my m/c.

[usuk]

The prospect and dread of going sometimes hurts more than being there. You have to decide on your own though. We all have limits. Last time I had a situation like that, I called my college friend and bawled my eyes out an hour beforehand. My DH was out of town and I had to brave all the happy parents on my own. It was the kind of crying where your mouth is open and you are drooling on yourself with a very unattractive face. I could have won as Oscar. LOL. Mainly I was crying because I was so ashamed at my feelings. She talked me off the ledge. And then reminded me that I have my DH and so many of my friends are 38/39/40 and single. I went to the party but I was just a tad quiet. Everyone's life looks good to someone else. Even our lives of TTC heartaches look good to someone who has not had the chance to think about TTC yet.

PS. The meds do cause mood swings. Take it one day at a time. Hugs.

[ttc1010]

Hey there!  I'm new on the forum but I've read about your experience with the M/C.  I had one last July and its so awful.  A couple of my friends were pregnant at the time and it was really hard for me.  I know what you mean about being so happy for them but still just feeling so broken and its like its being thrown in your face that they have a healthy baby and you don't.  I got past this feeling with time and you just have to do whats best for you now.  You're on enough of an emotional roller coaster as it is.  Dont feel guilty if you feel like going somewhere else.  So much luck and love to you!

[minney930]

My sister and I were pregnant together... I was 1 month behind her, and we didn't plan it that way. (Well, my DH n I were ttc for about 2 years, but my sister wasn't in the loop). She carried full term, and I had a mc. I had similar feelings, but I went to the hospital when my niece was 2 days old. I didn't know if I could go in the room. I took a deep breath n held it to brace myself while I stepped in, but the second I saw that little girl and my happy sister... Oh, I had so much love for them. DH and I are still trying to make a cousin for her :) it was mostly nerves leading up to the event, but it was great afterward. I hope you find peace in these next few weeks before Easter. Best of luck.  

[MsCeceG]

Hey i feel the same way we had a m/c in Nov and shortly after my lil bro announced his girlfriend was pregnant,she's about 3 months now and they sent me their ultrasound pic i felt happy and sad at the same time but i'm trying to be supportive since i am his older sister o yea they're both 18 and I'm 35 woooow I try to be tuff sometimes but it's hard,if you need someone to talk to I'm here (((hugs))) and lotsa baby dust******