Sorry I need to vent

Ok ladies sorry in advance but I need to vent. I  got so upset I could barely see straight and I do feel a little bad that I reacted the way I did but every time I stop and think about it I get upset.
So the other day I called my sister in law ( husbands sister) whom I hadn't spoken to in about 2 months she was acting really weird on the call so I asked her what was going on she finally told me that they were expecting their 3rd child and she didn't want to tell me bc this baby was a complete oops and she know how hard my husband and I are trying and we just aren't getting pregnate. First of all no child should be a oops there are ways to prevent preganancy and if you chose not to use them than please don't call a baby oops!  
Alright the history of everything - when I got pregnate with my daughter who is now 8 my sister in law had my nephew who was 2 when I was pregnate. The day I found out we were having a girl we called to tell everyone and my sister in law was pissed bc she wanted a girl so bad so within a month of us telling her we were having a girl she ended up pregnate and got her baby girl and our daughters are 4 months apart. When our girls were 3 my niece was diagnosed with Autism. When my sister in law called she was upset but made the comment why did it have to happen to her child why didn't this happen to her brothers child ( my daughter) I told her that I know she is just emotional but that was uncalled for I would never say anything like that.
2 summers ago I got pregnate and we went up north to visit my in laws and the whole time we were up there my sister in law kept saying how jealous she was I was preg. I ended up miscarring at 8 weeks.
So now we come to the present my brother in law and sister in law stopped for a short visit on their way home up north from Florida. That day I had just gotten my appointment set up with a reproduction specialist and I was telling her all about it and how excited my husband and I were be seeing a specialist she was really excited for us. I had not spoken to her since she was here until I called her the other night but she is 9 weeks preg so that means that she got preg her next cycle after she was at my house!!!! Argh
I have several friends that are pregnate and I am over the moon happy for them. My brother and his wife have 7 kids and I am happy for them. I love my sister in law and I know with these fertility treatments I am super hormonal but I am pissed off at her and I feel like she wants all the attention to be on her all the time( and that is what my husband thinks she has always wanted attention to be on her). Which I could care I don't want the attention but I feel like its kind of a slap in the face.
I promise I am not a horrible person I hope that everyone that wants a child can have one bc children are the greatest blessing. I love my nieces and nephews with all my heart and I wish nothing but the best for everyone!

[Marten2009]

I don't think your a horrible person for feeling that way. My sister in law (my husbands brothers wife) is also trying to get pregnant as am I. We hadn't spoken in almost a year due to a falling out. However, when I mentioned that we were trying to conceive, it wasn't a month later that they were also ttc.
they have started fertility treatments and have spent thousands out of their own pockets bc their insurance doesn't cover the treatments. I'm lucky enough my insurance covers most of the treatments, my bro in law threw the hugest fit over this.... And now won't speak to me. I just let it roll off my shoulders now and dont even think about it. You should just ignore her and focus on yourself. I know easier said than done. But it will be ok, just hang in there and be strong!!!

Baby dust to all!!!!!

[musry]

I don't think you are out of line I know the feeling bc my husband and I did four rounds of iui and none of them worked but every time we did  a cycle someone in his family got pregnant his sister being the last one. So feel free to vent  BABY DUST TO EVERYONE and we are currently in the 2 ww after ivf

[musry]

I don't think you are out of line I know the feeling bc my husband and I did four rounds of iui and none of them worked but every time we did  a cycle someone in his family got pregnant his sister being the last one. So feel free to vent  BABY DUST TO EVERYONE and we are currently in the 2 ww after ivf

[Bukes]

Thanks guys! I did 6 months of clomid with no luck even ovulating and no I am at a specialist diagnosed with PCOS. I am taking Meformin every day and she has put me Femera and Ovidrel as my trigger. I actually give myself my shot tonight and this is round 2 of this particular treatment for us. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I wish you all the best of luck :)
I am going to let this roll off my back and concentrate on me and my family during these treatments you don't need any additional stress!

[Marten2009]

Thats an excellent attitude to have! I've figured out that I dont need the extra drama that my extended family brings, and my husband has said the same thing.

We're concentrating on us, and we're concentrating on making our "family".
I go back on December 2nd to see how many eggs/follicles i have and then i too have to give myself the ovidrel shot as my trigger!

Fingers crossed that this works for both of us!!!!!!!

Baby Dust to you!

Mandy

[Bukes]

Thanks Mandy!
I am glad that I found this forum it helps to talk to other women in the same boat.
I had to give myself my Ovidrel shot last night. I hate given myself the shots but hopefully it will be worth it in the end! Good luck on your appt on the 2nd :) Baby dust to all!

Rachel