THIRD IVF FAILED....AGAIN

Hey all...got my blood test this am...negative.  I am SO angry right now.  I am numb. I have cried and cried.  I am waiting on the doctor to call me back to discuss the fourth and final try.  I have no children and cannot get pregnant on my own at all.  I had both fallopian tubes removed in 2007 w/ and ectopic pregnancy.  I don't even know what to do.  Thanks for all of the support here.  Will try once more in Feb 2010.  Good luck all.

[scienceteacher79]

Oh man! That stinks. I am so sorry. How many did they transfer this time? Can they up the number of embies put in?

[chasers2005]

They put in 3 this time, which is more than what they normally use for a 29 year old.  I don't know what they will do next time, considering it is my last chance

[usuk]

I am so sorry. I am not familiar with IVF but I am sorry for the tears and the anger. You should spend the time between now and Feb healing your mind and heart.

[LilyMF]

I am sorry.  Why is this your last try?  Good luck in your next round of IVF.

[GiGiGiGi]

I am so sorry that you got bad news.  The frustration and pain must be immense.  Your feelings are totally justified.  Vent all you like because you know we understand!

I hope that your doctor comes up with a new and successful plan for February, and that you never need to go through this heartbreak again.

Sending hugs and prayers,

Gigi

[chasers2005]

Thank you all for your kind words.  It means alot. I believe that the Lord has something special in store for me someday, on His time.  I think that is the hardest thing for humans sometimes b/c when we want, we want it now, and I don't believe that is the way life works.  He will bless me, I truly believe it.  Thank you all and good luck w/ everything

[GiGiGiGi]

You are so right.  I keep telling myself that God is having us wait for a baby because he has just the most perfect little child lined up for us, but for whatever reason, the particular sperm and egg required to make that child just arent available quite yet.

I know one day, when DH and I are holding that beautiful child in our arms, it will all make sense.  Until then, I guess we will just continue to be frustrated.  I now accept that this is TOTALLY beyond my control.  I am just not a very patient person, ya know?

All the best,

g