luvkayln: Anything yet? How are you feeling - when do you guys test??!!
Well, no af but I'm pretty sure it's because of the prog. supp. I won't be able to do injects next month if I get that job, but clomid is okay for a couple of months :-) I can't wait for AF to just come and go!!! UGH!
Pyar: Sorry! I started the new thread before reading your post on the last. I'll switch you to 6dpo tomorrow! Congrats!!! :-)
Lina: Thanks for such a sweet post to everyone. It's nice to have you back with us :)
Babymamma: Same to you! Welcome back :) Have you moved in yet?
dnikki: I think my ob had told me to take the progesterone till I'm cd30 & then stop, but I can't remember for sure. My RE just says to take it till my beta, which is Friday. Just FYI, I'm using a new progesterone this cycle. It's called Endometrin. I would highly recommend it. I can't even tell you how much easier it is! I would not go back to the other now!!! :) Best wishes tomorrow!
Hannah: I read your post on the other thread this morning. What will the doc be doing the u/s for? I could be wrong, but I don't think they can see your tubes through a vaginal u/s, just your ovaries & uterus. Anyone, correct me if I'm wrong! :) Good luck with the blood test!
Mommyin09- Thanks for starting the new thread! :) And as always, thanks for doing such an awesome job keeping our list updated! You are very dedicated to our thread, and without you we'd all be lost! :)
Candie- Yeah, I haven't been posting much lately, but everything's ok! :) I'm just kinda hangin' out in the 2ww... I'm glad you are feeling better and you were finally able to go back to work! Hopefully you'll continue to feel better, especially b/c you should be getting your +ve opk any day now! :)
Stacey- Thanks for the note! :) I've felt more positive for this cycle since my iui, so I'm prepared for either outcome as usual! :) How are you feeling?
Pyar- I looked at your chart, and congrats on almost being half way through your 2ww! :) I hope the outcome is what you've been waiting for!!! :)
dnikki- The progesterone supplements always delayed my period a day, but it's defintely different on everyone. Is this your first cycle on them? I wouldn't stop them just yet, b/c you just never know. AF will come if you're not pregnant, even while taking them. It just affects everyone differently. Good luck! Oh, mommyin09 and I don't test unless we really, really think it's going to be +ve! :) Her beta is Friday, and AF should be here for me on Thursday, so if my temps don't drop Thursday, maybe i'll test. :) We'll keep you informed. :)
Hannah- I'm confused as to why they told you you were having an u/s later this week to look at your tubes. You can't see your tubes on an u/s, and if you can then that means something is wrong and they are majorly inflamed. The first time my RE ever did an u/s on me he told me that, and then we scheduled my hsg test. I'm still confused as to why you don't just test. And why didn't the doctor do an hpt test on you today? They did blood work, so is that for a beta?
Babymomma & Lina- Welcome back! :)
mrspace- Congrats on your +ve opk! Oh, but I'm just so sorry to hear about your mom's friend! That's just horrible, and you're right, life is just way too precious! God is taking care of him now, and hopefully an angel came to take him before he even knew what was going on! :( ((Hugs))
Guesito- Has AF come yet? I'm sooo ready for you to start your next cycle for your FET! I know you are ready too! :) Good luck!!! Oh, and by the way, keep the meds, it's ok! I have 3 more cycles of meds in my fridge ready to go! :)
hello everyone!!!!! how are you all mommy in 09 any symptoms
well i went to my doctors today i have an ultrsound booked this week and she has took my blood they dont really do it in england but i demaned one woohoo so here we go i will get the results hopefully in the morning if not the day after but the pain has gone so thats good the ultrasound it to look at my tubes doc said my chances are goodbut to be patient i am taking my vitamins so fingers crossed
good luck ladys x
Thankyou for you supprt
and i he everyone is ok x
Mommyin09 maybe i have it wrong then but she said i was having an ultra sound this week and i thought thats what it was for im probley wrong i dont no very much noy like you lol ! my arm is aching from my blood test i have to drp a urine sample in in the morning and also my ultra sound this week i have to wait for a letter with my appointment on 1st thought
i aint having any symptoms really feel sick not fancing anything to eat sore bbs dnt feel like af is coming anymore i miscalculated i wouldnt be 6 weeks i woukd only be 5 sorry xxx
have a good day x
I'm very happy and blessed to be back here my precious friends.:)
Thank you for warm welcoming!!!:)
I would like to ask you to give me same answers my dear friends. Thank you very much!:)
It is about my O, I really didn't have time to analyze my symptoms at all, as you all know I was busy with my dad, I think I O'ed immediately after my period but I don't know is that or can it be possible??? Can you look at my OT and give me your opinion and what U think? Thank U!
Mama in 2009 - Based on FF i have O'ed 5 days ago, so based to it I'll be 5DPO today? God knows.
LinaG- I would definately say you are in your 2ww! Your temps are up there! :) I think it looks like you are either 5 dpo or 8 dpo. Your temps started slowly rising on CD 12, possibly making you 8 dpo today, but if FF is saying you are 5 dpo then maybe they are right! Either way, you've definately ovulated and are in your 2ww! Congrats! :)
Hey everyone! DH and I both have the day off today. So we're relaxing together. I have SOOOO Much ovulation pain. My temp also spiked up today so I'm pretty sure I ovulated yesterday.
I've been working on a bunch of stuff this weekend. I have lots of new designs for my website that I'm putting up and I've been working on a blanket for DH and I. Since we don't have heat in our bedroom it will help a lot until we get moved!
Lina: I completely agree with luvkayln! Welcome to the tww :-) I would bet you're 5dpo today! Yes, there is definitely a chance even though you've been stressed. Hey, you haven't been worrying about ttc. Your attention has been elsewhere & maybe that will help. Hopefully after all you've been through, you will be blessed with a litle miracle! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you & will update you on our list tomorrow :)
mrspace: Congrats! I checked out your chart & it looks like you're in the tww, too! Woo-Hoo!!! :-)
It's been a while since I have posted. We have had really bad weather here lately and everything is a mess. Wasn't able to make it to our doctors appt to start more femera so I am pretty upset. But the all the hubbys tests came back great including his sperm count. I guess we will just try naturally this month and hope for the best.
Just a side question for everone?
I don't have a clotting disorder or anything but I was just wondering if you guys still recommend taking baby aspirin everyday? Any ideas or other supplement ideas are welcomed.
Happy Monday friends!
I'm glad the work day is over. I hope those of you who had the day off enjoyed it! I was a little jealous to tell you the truth:)
Mommyin09 - Thanks again for starting a new thread and for keeping us up to date! It is so much appreciated! And thanks for updating me. With my change in due date my weeks now change on Fridays...so I will be 8 weeks on Friday. :) I checked out your chart and it looks like your temps are staying up there. Very good! I so hope that Friday brings you good news!
Luvkayln - Glad you are feeling more positive. I know you are missing Kayln :( She is with you always and I'm sure she is so excited for her little bros and sisters. I am hoping and praying you get good news this week! I'm feeling pretty good. A little more nausea in the mornings but nothing too serious and other than that just kind of tired. I love my afternoon naps when I can get them :)
Dnikki - Sorry for your -ve test. As we always say, it's not over until she shows. Good luck tomorrow!
Mrspace - Congrats on the +opk! Yay! Welcome to the tww. And I am so very sorry about your mom's friend. That is absolutely tragic. Life is so precious isn't it. My thoughts go out to her and her family.
Candie - Glad you are starting to feel better! Sounds like a nasty bug that you had. And as luvkayln said - just in time for your +opk!!
Hannah - Wow...I am confused. Just be sure you understand what is going on! It's your body and your life. Good luck on your beta - assuming that is the test!
LinaG - Welcome back and thanks for the nice note! And welcome to the 2ww!
Pyar - Wow! Congrats also in being in the tww! All the best
OHHhhh friends this is an exciting week!!! There is a lot happening with testing and betas and I have a feeling we will be adding more to the BFP list! I can't wait.
I started ivf last friday and had my first monitoring appt today-12 follies, 6.5 lining, but have to go back tomorrow-they may start me on ganarelix. Has anyone been through this protocol? 350 follistim once a day and 10 units low dose hsg.
I just don't know what to expect from all of this!!
jmh2005: Hi. Welcome back :) I'll update you on our list tomorrow. I don't have a clotting disorder either, but I was taking baby aspirin for a while. I stopped around Oct. & I'm curious, too, if it's a good idea to continue it... As far as supplements, I take a Women's One-a-day prenatal vitamin, a Fish oil pill, aVitamin C & extra folic acid every day. Congrats on dh's S/A & best wishes this cycle :)
Stacey: Thanks, I will update you each Friday, then :) Wow, 8 weeks this Friday!? That's awesome! Yes, there is the potential for lots of good news this weekend. I'm very hopeful, yet cautious, so we'll see! If not, I'm starting an exercise plan on Saturday!!!
leighanne: I'd love to see your pics! Hopefully you can get them uploaded. I'll keep checking. I'm sure the nursery is just adorable! :)
So far it looks like trigger on Sunday 25th, retreival 27th then 3-5 for transfer-ahhhh!! This is only an estimate, I have to make sure at my age that I don't get a run away follie to knock me out of this cycle. Wish me luck.
Your beta is just around the corner!!
Thanks for keeping everyone united through these threads-I am trying to catch up now
Hey everyone. I'm 2 dpo today. It's been a bad weekend (other than getting the house) and DH and I are fighting like cats and dogs.
Last night was our last night of BD'ing while I was ovulating. When we started this our Dr. told us to BD EVERY DAY while I was ovulating. So that's what we do. Well last night we went to bed and I tried to...start things up. He rolled over and said he wasn't in the mood. I told him that we had to. That when we started this, I told him EVERYTHING it entailed, including BD'ing while I was ovulating. No matter what. And he agreed to that.
He said that when I told him that he said "I could probably do that". Probably meaning that he doesn't HAVE to.
Of course I got soooo worked up and upset. Here I am charting every day, waking up to take my temp every day, going through the crazy mood swings and hormone surges and side effects of the stupid clomid. I work at this EVERY DAY. He's given ONE job and can't do it? And that ONE job is to sleep with his wife! I was just so upset.
So I don't know what'll happen now. I think we might be done. We have one more round of clomid left but I don't think we're going to do it. Not if he's going to pull this. I'm not going to go through the hassle and the pain of doing all the charting and monitoring and taking the drugs for him to just cop out like that. I'm still pretty angry. I'm sure it'll blow over but we'll see.
Granted, I'm also still really upset about losing Dane. It's just been one of those weekends.
You all are wonderful. Thanks for letting me vent for a minute.
wishandaprayer: Yes, keep a tight hold on that follie! :) Best wishes for your retrieval. It's coming up quickly!!! :)
Keyan: It's good to see you back on our thread :) I'm glad to hear Barbie's doing better! It's back to work for me today... Talk to you later!
mrspace: Sorry for the frustrations, but I've learned that if dh isn't in the mood, you shouldn't push it. I think it's the "having to" that ruins the mood. You really don't "have to" bd every day. I'm sure you've covered your bases :)
So, my temp keeps dropping & I'm starting to think AF may be around the corner... I hope not, but we'll see! Have a great day, ladies!
mrspace- I sent you a note, but caught you here first! I'm so sorry! :( I don't understand that either! I think sometimes for men it takes the "fun" out of bd'ing when you know you have to, ya know? I completely understand where you are coming from though. We chart every day, take these meds and go through all the side affects, work at it EVERY DAY and all we need from our husbands is just to cooperate and bd! Maybe he just doesn't know how to deal with the stress of it all like we do, ya know? I looked at your chart, and your bd pattern looks great so I wouldn't worry to much about not being covered, b/c you are! :) Maybe just try not to think about it too much, and when you've calmed down you and dh can talk about it tonight. Just explain to him that you guys are a team, and it's not going to get anywhere if you both don't work together on this. When guys don't know how to talk about things or reveal how they are feeling, they do stupid things like this... I know you guys will work it out and you will keep trying. ((Hugs))
Stacey- Thanks! I'm feeling a little better today. Your nausea will subside soon, and you'll have more energy than before you even became pregnant! My 2nd trimester was a breeze! :)
Candie- Thank you so much for your note yesterday! You always just know what to say and pop in right when I need you! ((Hugs)) Patiently awaiting your +ve opk!!! :)
Keyan- I know, I was just thinking the same thing! I've missed talking to you! Are you not charting this month? My 2ww is almost over, just a couple more days now... If I'm not pregnant this time, we'll have to do next cycle med-free since I know I'm gonna have a ton of cysts in my ovaries left over! Then the cycle after that we can do another round of meds! :)
wishandaprayer- Wow! Congrats on the IVF!! :) Things are already moving very quickly for you! This will surely bring you your much deserved BFP!!! Good luck! :)
mommyin09- Looks like you have lots of updating to do on our list today! :) Everyone seems to be back and ready to go! :) We only have a couple more days to go! Still stayin positive? :) Can't wait to see your temps today! Mine dropped a little, but FF is still saying it's triphasic but you know that doesn't really mean anything! It just sounds good! :)
Welcome back to all the ladies that've been gone for a while! Let's get some BFP's soon!!! :)
Hey ladies! I'm back from the RE's office. I had my beta drawn since AF still hasn't shown. My headaches are terrible - I've basically had one for the past 7 days :-( Anyways, if I'm not p/g I have another rx for Clomid 50 mg - since there is no way I can go to injects while trying to find a job lol! But he wants me to do a postcoital test - Anyone ever have this done? Apparently when I get my + OPK DH and I need to BD then I have to immediately go in the office so they can scrape out some CM to see what "my" environment is like...interesting. But, I will find out my beta around 2!
mommyin09 - Thanks for the new thread! Oh, and thanks for the note too. You're so sweet. How has Carmello been doing? I looked at your chart and your temps still look great. I really hope we're hearing BFP news from you by the end of the week! :) I should be getting my +OPK soon. I think my body may be a little behind since I was so sick. AF really hung around a lot longer than usual, but I'm starting to have more CM so hopefully it will be soon! It's good though because we've still been so tired that BD'ing isn't coming as easy as it usually does.
luvkayln - Your chart looks great too! I sure hope you missing Kayln so much means your body is working to create a new life and your hormones are surging! :) Yes, like I said above, I should be getting my +OPK, but I think I'm a little slow this cycle!
Stacey - I agree, I wish I would have been off work yesterday too! DH was and I was supposed to take the day off with him, but I missed so much being sick that I couldn't. :( Boy a nap sounds really good right now! I'm so happy to hear that you are still feeling so good. I hope luvkayln and mommyin09 will be joining you this week! Let's keep our fingers crossed for them.
LinaG - Congrats on being in the 2ww. Stress can do crazy things, but maybe it will be a good thing that you weren't too focused on TTC this time. I'm so glad things are going better for you.
Keyan - Sounds like you are taking it easy this cycle. Good for you. Sometimes we just need a mental break to be able to gather up our strength for the next steps, which in your case is the lap. Maybe relaxing and just trying to bd for fun will be just the thing you need!
mrspace - I know that Clomid can really take a toll on your body, and your emotions, and it's definitely overwhelming sometimes when you're trying to take meds, temps, etc. Sometimes our guys just have trouble talking about how they are really feeling. In some ways, I think it is scary for them to perform on command, and also because they want to be a man and get us pregnant and they're so worried they are going to let us down. I think you'll still be fine since sperm can live for a few days, so try to relax and don't give up on this cycle. Hopefully you and DH can have a good talk about this.
wishandaprayer - Good luck with the IVF process! It sounds like you have lots of nice follies growing there!
leighanne - What a cool belly cast! That was so sweet of your fiance to do that. I can't wait to see the rest of your pictures. It's so hard to believe your little one will be here so soon! Seems like just yesterday we were celebrating your BFP. :)
jmh2005 - Sorry about the Femara, but that's great news about your DH's tests! I'm sure that's a big relief. Maybe now you can relax and try naturally this month and it will be a success! I'm not sure about the baby aspirin. I take a prenatal vitamin every day and fish oil.
Dnikki - Good luck!!! I hope they call soon! Headache's are apparently a good sign! :) Let us know once you hear...hopefully they don't keep you waiting too long. SSBD!!!
Luvkayln - Yes, I am looking forward to the next trimester but really, I am very lucky compared to many. Plus, after everything we have been through...this is nothing! :) Triphasic sounds very good indeed!! Come on BFP!!!
Mommyin09 - Yes 8 weeks all of a sudden! I felt like I have been 7 weeks forever because I thought I was in the 7th week when I was only 6.5. Well, your temps dipping could also be implantation. You could be implanting around now. I know mine felt late to the estimated 7-10 dpo they say. Come on BFP!!!
Mrspace - Sorry about that. It really puts stress on a relationship and guys sometimes don't like to perform under pressure! The good thing is you are covered and can just bd carefree now!
Wishandprayer - So exciting about your IVF! I just got my BFP from IVF :) Sorry, I am in Canada so all the names are different but I was on a follicle stimulator (75IUs per day) and a suppresent (I forget the amount). I did this until my HCG trigger shot. Not sure if that helps you?
Keyan - All the best this cycle! You seem to be very casual about this cycle. It's good to take a break from all the temping and the charting. It's probably less stressful! I hope you get a nice BFP surprise!!
I'm having a hard time concentrating at work again! I'm in a bit of a "one day on, one day off" schedule. Plus, it doesn't help that I think about lunch all morning, and then in the afternoon I just think about going home! :) And with everything going on this week with all of you ladies, I just can't stay away from Medhelp!!
Dnikki: I answered your question on the open forum, but I thought you said you weren't preg. So, there is still hope! Looking forward to hearing your results today :) I've had two post coital tests. They don't hurt. They're done like a Pap, so they'll insert a speculum & retrieve a small sample from your cervix. It's actually pretty cool 'cause you will look under the microscope with your doc. My first one was disappointing, so they did another & it was pretty exciting to see all those swimmers! :)
Leighanne: The belly cast sounds awesome! I'll check out your pics soon :)
Candie: Yay, you're back! :) It's great that you're feeling better just in time for your +opk. That happened for me, too. Dh was so sick prior to. Carmelo is doing great! I cant wait to get home to see him! :) Good luck & keep us posted!!!
Stacey: Thanks for the + vibes. My temp really dipped at 5dpo. If I had an implantation dip at all, I think that was definitely it! Even though it's going slowly down now, they're
still high. Now, get some work done! ;-)
Luvkayln-your chart looks good good luck
Mommyin09-i hope your ok and your af does not come
Stacey-So happy your feeling good
Leighanne-your belly cast is sweet
Dnikki Good Luck xxx
Well i am so confused i wanna cry :-( My doc i dont htink she nos what to do
she took out my old scan for pcos which i was told i didnt have and said i may have it what made her do that i dont no and she said not to test cuz it can give a false negative so here in sunny england were we have a national we have to wait up to seven days for my blood tests to come back so no news today i just wanna no whats going on i still have no af and cm by the bucket loads she felt my stomacke said it felt promising ????? what lol!! then i felt really tender in my left hand side she said hmmmmm i am sending you for a scan i was like ok that to check my tubes and stuff she said yeah maybe she wernt listning propley i dont no and i got it wrong im just hoping after all this confusion im going to get a good result i am going to wait it out because i feel the need i am anxiuos but im so confused and my family think its best to wait thankyou for your support and belive me im just as confsed as u of you no any one from england ask them about the nhs they will say its terrible to x
Dnikki - So sorry! That s u c k s! Come on AF! Our friend has done enough waiting!
Hannah - Again, very confusing. I would just test.
Candie - I missed your post earlier. I think it is a good thing that you have not got a +opk yet because yes, bding when you are not feeling well, is not very fun! Hopefully you will be ready just in time for the weekend! Good luck!
Mommyin09 - As you can see...I am still not getting any work done! :)
Mommyin09 - My symptoms were pretty much exactly what I would get with af, which is why I was so sure I was going to get a BFN. My bbs were sore, and I had had cramping on and off since about 8 or 9 dpt. On the day of my beta (14 dpt) I felt a bit of nausea in the morning and I noticed my hunger pains were more demanding. But the symptoms were not prominent enough for me to really think much of them. I only put it together once I found out it was a BFP! I still feel pretty much the same as I did then...just a bit more tired and a bit more nausea! How/what are you feeling?
Yes, I temp. This cycle that have been a little hectic. Not sure why. I have been temping at my normal time, 5:15am. Perhaps I am still get adjusted to my meds.. the surgery? Take a look at my chart. Hopefully, I will show a spike soon.... I have always used Answer line OPKs. This was my first time using digital type.. I like them..no guessing! So, should I get the spike tmw or the next day?
rachjas: Since you got your +opk today, your temp most likely won't go up tomorrow 'cause that would mean you're O'ing today. I guess it's possible, though! Usually you O within 24-36 hours after your first +opk. My temp usually dips on the day I O & then spikes up the next day. I noticed your temp is down today, but my guess is it'll go up a little bit tomorrow & then dip Thurs (O) and then spike up on Friday. Just keep up the bd'ing & see what your temps are tomorrow :) I totally agree with you! I LOVE the smiley face opk's. There is no guesswork & I get excited every time I see that happy face :) Good luck to you!!!
Stacey: I started writing down my "symptoms". Dh suggested it, so I'll know if anything's different. It's hard 'cause I don't know what's related to the progesterone, so I won't read too much into them. Thanks for sharing :)
Leighanne: I LOVE the cast of your belly! That is an awesome idea, one I hope to steal some day ;-) Jaedyn's pictures are amazing, too! I just can't go over how cool they are!
Dnikki: sorry about BFN, hopefully AF will be here soon and you will be able to start a new cycle.
Hannah: wow! I can't beleive you are waiting! like the other girls say, take a test, if is BFN then you will be a little dissapointed but like your doc said, it could be a false BFN and you will be able to find out soon either way.
Stacey: your symptoms sound so good....they aren't bothering you at all, that's great!..about my cycle...yes I am not looking to much in to it, would be a great surprise if I get BFP right before the LAP, to which DH and I were working hard on it ;o), but I guess since I have a back up plan schedule and I am not paying to much attention to it. Last cycle I didn't keep a chart, for this one, I am doing the temps.
Mommyin09: hey friend! you can say I am 5dpo, wasn't sure as to when I Oed but I will go w/ my chart and say today I am 5dpo, the pain I had yesterday, not sure what it was. Can't wait for your BFP!! Friday will be here really soon!!!
Candie: yes my friend I am taking it easy, the mental break is hard, I don't know how people sometimes suggest to not think about TTC, how can you not?!, when you feel O pain, you see CM and you BD w/ your husband w/out protection....;o) I guees in my case, not keeping a chart like last time, helped to not think too much about it, but the truth is that it is always in my thoughts.....what will we do once we have a baby and BD just for fun?!! will that be possible?!!! hahaha ;o) I hope you get your +OPK soon!
Rachjas: Congrats on the +opk!! It is so exciting seeing the happy face! No second thoughts or guessing, that is the best about the digitals!
Luvkayln: yes I am keeping my chart this cycle, although it really isn't saying much! Yours on the other hand is looking good!! I understand about the cysts...I think I have one this cycle, the lower back pain is really letting me know, and I am hoping I get rid off it w/ AF, I don't want the doc having to take a Cyst out on my LAP and messing w/ my Ovaries!
mommyin09 & luvkayln: Alright, your beta's are fast approaching lol - ya'll need to get BFP's!!! Are either of you having any symptoms? Come on BFP's lol =)
wishandprayer: Good luck on your retrieval! Keep that follie in it's place for now lol :-)
Candie: I hope you get your + OPK soon!!
rachjas: Congrats on the +OPK!! Now, it's time for your BFP!!
Stacey: I'm glad you're still feeling pretty good - the 1st trimester can take a toll on you...The 2nd trimester is easy, and for some reason you get lots of energy lol :-)
Hannah: PLEASE TEST!!
Keyan: When are you scheduled for your lap? Hopefully you get your BFP and won't have to have one done :-)
Everyone: Thank you for your support and answers to my questions...I'm just waiting for AF to show and DH is going to drop off my rx at Walgreens today (?). DH has been snappy since yesterday, I have no idea what his problem is. We sort of got into last night and I finally told him he was being an a s s and I don't know what his problem is - things have been fine between us - there was absolutely no reason for him to be snappy?!!!? Well, except I asked him what all needed to be done to the house so it's finished and he got cranky with that because I made him tell me EVERYTHING that needed to be done and I wrote it down. But seriously, it's my house too lol! I don't know....
Have a good day everyone!!
Since I'm in 2WW, I have strange symptoms I'm gussy, my stomach is sensitive have a little pain time by time, also my ovaries react time to time and I don't know and don't have a clue what is going on with me?!?. If my AF don't shows on January 28-29, I really will make an appointment to my Gyn.:)
I have to share this with you-
Last night I had very strange dream and I have remembered it, (I don't remember my dreams most of the time) this dream was so alive, excited and also scared me!
We had a baby angel boy? :), who was very long/toll??:) he was 2 days in this world, how he came in this world I don't know. I couldn't feed him with my left breast??? (only with my right), he was very beautiful and quite, he smiled and didn't cry at all but he was very hungry?!? :)))) My DH & I went to the town & leave him home all by him self??? This is definitely not me!!! He was lien down on the bed & I put pillows around the bad so he can't fall from the bad and leave him alone in the house??? I can't believe this also, this is not me!!! :) I wake up after I was scared and that's it!:)
I don't know what to think about this strange dream, I'm scared a little bit, I was not thinking at all this month to conceive since I had another priorities. But if it happens it is welcomed, I will be the most thankful and greatfull to God and would be the most happiest person in this world!:)
So what do U think about this strange dream of mine?
I'm 3dpo and feeling.... okay. I think that most of my syptoms right now are due to all the fuss yesterday. We went to the funeral last night which was crazy. 700 people attended. 700!!!! It was PACKED. But it was amazing. It was open casket which got to me. And it was all just very emotional. So I didn't sleep well at all last night. I woke up late, didn't have time to shower. So I feel kind of gross at work today. So I think I'm going to shower on my lunch break. We'll see.
DH and I talked a lot last night and things are better. He's still in a slightly cranky mood but he as mostly joking around. I can tell that when we go to bed he kind of just wants space. No cuddling or anything. Which is fine... he can have his space. We're fine though. We talked for hours while we were driving to the funeral (about 3 hours away). He talked about the friends he's lost. The times he's cried. It was a great conversation.
mommyin09 & luvkayln- Your betas are both coming up so soon! I've got my fingers crossed for you both. I'm so excited!
stacey- I hope you are feeling wonderful! How's the morning sickness and such?
nikki- Hey girl! How is your cafepress going? Mine has been going alright. My sales are CRAZY low this month, but oh well. I'm adding so much new stuff, hopefully it'll pick up next month. Thanks for being so supportive!
And (I have to add this)..... To anyone who came onto this thread (who isn't normally on here) and decided to read my post and then email me telling me to divorce my husband... I don't appreciate it. I came on here to vent a little. Most of the women on this thread understand what I was doing. But to have so many people (that I don't know) email me telling me that my marriage is in trouble and that I should divorce him... please stop. I've gotten 10 emails already over the last 24 hours. Please stop.
Good morning! So, I didn't sleep well last night. Then I woke up & my temps plunged so low!!! I guess AF is probably right around the corner... It's early, though, for my temps to drop. I'm gonna look back at my previous charts to see. I'm still holding out hope, but it's fading quickly...
mrspace: No one on here knows you well enough to suggest you leave your husband! I'm shocked you received messages like that :( You're right. We're all here to support each other & it's okay to vent sometimes :)
Lina: I have really vivid dreams. Dh thinks it's odd, but I remember them all! I bet you're just thinking a lot about the responsibilities of having a baby & how your life will change. It doesn't mean you will leave your baby home alone!!! :-) Dreams are funny!
Still just hanging out here. Im thinking of doing more research along the lines of baby aspirin everyday. The only thing I take is a prenatal vitamin everyday. Its been a nice break from medicine lately and happy to say that im not as bloated lol. Me and my hubby have been just going out and enjoying things but hoping that this month will be a natural month for us.
Good luck to all you girls I have a feeling there will be BFP'S this month.
Hope you are having a good hump day :) My day is ok...uneventful!
Mrspace - Wow...people are quite opinionated to send you messages like that! Pretty unbelievable! This is definitely a place to vent and I guess some people are lurking and judging based on one or two messages. Which is obviously not appreciated!!
Mommyin09 - Oh no...I really hope af is not on her way! When would you normally get af? It just seems early for your temps to dip if you would expect her 14dpo. Or do your temps normally dip a few days before? I know mine used to dip the day of af.
Luvkayln - How are you doing??
jmh - good luck! Natural can sometimes be a really good thing and could lead to a surprise BFP!
Well...back to work for me! I actually have to get some things done today!
mommyin09 - Don't you dare give up hope yet! You're right, it's way early for you to see your temps drop, even if AF was on the way. I bet it has a lot to with your sleep patterns. Hang in there and we'll pray they go back up tomorrow. As for me, I'm confused! I started having more CM yesterday and today, so I was thinking I should O soon, but still haven't had a +OPK. Then, my temps went up a little today. We were supposed to BD last night, but DH had class, so I told him we could wait until today. Now I'm worried it's too late. Ugh, I hate when it plays tricks on me. Guess all we can do now is BD tonight and hope for the best.
Keyan - It's so good to hear from you! Not keeping a chart probably helps to keep the stress off a little, but you're right, there is no way we can just stop ignoring the signs and not think about TTC! BD'ing for fun - what's that? :) LOL You are too funny. I guess I shouldn't say that it's not fun, because how could it not be, but no it is hard to remember what it was like before we started trying. ...sigh... sometimes I really do miss those fun, carefree days. :)
Stacey - I agree, we need more BFP's! :) Hope you're having a better day at work today. I get like that sometimes too. So many more important things you'd rather be doing at home it's hard to concentrate. Especially for you. You've waited to be pregnant for so long, I can't imagine wanting to think about anything else.
dnikki - Sorry for the negative, and that DH and you have been fighting. Trust me, house work can make any man crabby. DH worked constantly on remodeling our kitchen/dining area from Sept through Dec and I think we argued more in those 4 months than we have in the 12 years I've known him! It was always just stupid, annoying things, but it was so upsetting. Hope AF shows soon so you can get onto the next cycle.
mrspace - I'm glad that you and DH were able to talk. I agree with mommyin09, we're here to listen and support and would never be in a position to tell you to get rid of your husband! TTC can be stressful enough sometimes, and then when you add in all of the other things in life, it's only natural to have rough patches. I hope things continue to get better.
jmh2005 - That's good that you take a prenatal everyday. I hope you find some answers on the aspirin. I know what you mean, I could barely fit in my pants when I was taking Clomid and Femara. Enjoy your time with DH this month. I know it's impossible to stop thinking about TTC, but it's good to get back to enjoying life.
LinaG - That's so cute that you were dreaming about having a baby. Our minds can certainly play tricks on us. You were probably just thinking about getting pregnant and what it would be like to be a mother, and then all those thoughts just came out in a strange way. I'm sure you'll never leave your baby home alone! :)
babymamma - That's so exciting about your move. Congrats. I hope it happens soon for you. Hopefully the new home = new baby equation comes true for you! :)
Candie- Thanks for the kind words. DH and I are FINE. I just got frustrated and instead of continuing to confront him about it, I figured it would be better to come on here and just write out my frustrations. We were both just worked up over all the little things that seemed to pile up on top of us over the last few weeks. We love each other very very much, but the TTC journey is a frustrating one, as all of you know. That was all. I was just apalled that people would say that. Thank you all for being so supportive when I vent.
stacey- I hope that you're doing well! Thanks for the constant support.
mrspace - I'm glad that you and DH had a chance to talk. I'm very upset though who had the courage to tell U what to do in your life!! :( Maybe the people who have wrote U that didn't know or feel what is love and they have not have yet their true love! :((( I feel sorry for them:((, but still I wish them to find soon their loves!:)
Mamushko & Candie - Thanks for your notes:) I agree that dreams are not real & funny or scared, but I have never seen my self so vivid and in that position? even I have never think or imaging anything like that in real life! :) It was very warm & nice feeling though when I wake up!:))) Maybe that is a sign! Only God knows!:)
Mamushko - Don't believe your BBT today! I hope and wish to hear good news this Friday for U:) Stay positive! God bless U:)
Candie - wish U +OPK!!! God bless U 2!:)
LuvKaylin - I hope and wish to hear good news from U 2 dear! Don't lose faith. Stay positive! God bless U
Keyan - Nice to hear from you! I agree with Candie not keeping a chart probably helps to keep the stress off a little, but you're right, there is no chance to stop ignoring the signs and not think about TTC, until we bring our baby angels in this world:) God bless
Stacey - I hope you're having good day at work today. Are U sleepy? My prego friend first 3 months was very sleepy, she slept on her office desk? :)
dnikki - I'm sorry for the negative energy that DH and you have been fighting too. But believe me what is upsetting us is not upsetting them, they don't see the things as we do.:) Be positive and ask him to hug U:) Hugs:)
mommyin09- you will be able to do a belly cast soon, but dont be too quick to think its fun. it is a very odd feeling have a tight cast dry around your belly and then pull it off which is stuck to my skin at certain places and the sheer fact that i was standing there in only my panties while my fiances plastered cast tape across the whole top of my was not very exciting. he did work very hard on painting it and making sure it was perfect and strong on all areas. i will post a close up pic of it so you can all see it.
hello to all my ttc sisters i hope you are all well
mrspace oh my gosh how dare anyone tell you such rubbish we all stress with our others halves this is not an easy journey to be on please ignore any negative responses to your vent don't let it stop you venting
mommyin09 i'm have yoy in my prayers hopefully its not over yet i'm not gonna tell you that you must stay positive because it can be so hard lets just see what happens sometimes our bodies play tricks on us
luvkaylyn how you doing fingers crossed we could all do with somw good news
dnikki sorry about your bfn and your stresses re you and dh its hard to relax and take things in your stride sometime my dh gets snappy and i really have to bite my tongue my dh has got jobs around the house that are more than 3 years outstanding and i have written him soo many lists every few months we blow and he does a couple of jobs just to get out of the doghouse then we start all over again what can i do
hannah how are you i am also in the uk where abouts are you your doctor doesn't sound right even the nhs have a protocol they should follow i would test let us know
staying on the subject of friction between couples can i vent please basically we have been together nearly ten years we both come from quite religious and fairly strict families so having a baby out of mariage would have been a no no but years ago my dh had quite big commitment issues but he was in denial i used to say to him i would like more kids (i had my dd with my previous husband) so i found myself much to my families disaproval divorced and living with my now dh anyway we would frequently argue over whether we would eventually get married and have kids i constantly use to say i'm getting older what if we end up married and struggle to concieve well thats exactly what happened and i find it so hard to come to terms with this not only blaming my dh but also my family and myself for bowing down to their pressure why didn't i just ignore their wishes and go for it all those years ago i feel like the only thing that will solve these issue i have will be a baby and life seems to be on hold untill that happens i fear how i will be able to move on if this doesn't happen so i guess i have to cross that bridge when and if we get there but its scary well there it is i've vented hope i don't get any judging
pyar - well i am just waiting for my results as you well no can take up to the week
i have a meeting at a private docs the 30th carnt wait ..
mommyin09 -im cd 43 as didnt no when i od but i dont usualy mark it an way and i have 29 day cycles on average thanks hope your ok and your dip dont mean anything af stay away good luck hun x
well ladies my doctor has also confirmed that she will be doing a scan and checking my tubes i new i wernt going mad, hopefully if im preg they will find it safe and not in my tubes but he said if i was to have an eptopic she would see my tubes she just wants to be sure.... here is a link if you want to check http://www.****.*** also he has conformed i should wait 14 days to test for the most accurate result my hormone level could still be low and healty as im only 4 5 weeks preg i may even still only have a hcg of 5 and could ne perfectly normal as you will see on this link http://forum.baby-gaga.com/about4755.html even blood work culd show up neg which is why my doc diddnt want me to test everyone is different and 2 weeks late and im not testing yet cuz i dont want to im not being awkward its my way to deal with it so im gonna do it my way..i no it would ansew all my questions if i tested and i appricate advice i no i ask a lot im always on here moaning about somthing i havent got any one else i can speak to i no i could be sitting on a bfp but im young and learning and my doctor is on the case but most of all i love the hope i have inside me at the moment its an amazing feeling .....and drather af take it away than bfn.........!!
I just wanted to let you know that I understand not wanting to see that BFN. I would be nervous to. You take your time w/ it, just take precautions at the same time. In case. Also wanted to let you know last year I was PG and the baby was not in my Uterus. Never did find it but they did send me to radiology for a U/S to check my tubes. They said if the baby was in my tubes they would see a lump. It wasn't and as I said they never did find the baby. My number went as high as 1400 then dropped dramaticly. Just goes to show the body does strange things that even baffles our DRs at times. I hope you get your BFP when you are ready and the scan comes out good.
Hi hun, I got my Possitive OPK today, so looks like il be ovulationg later today, Ive not been getting much sleep over past few days so maybe thats why my temps look a little off xxxx can u plz put me back to cd17 for today xx
Hey ladies...Thanks for all your kind words through the bfn and dh and I. As of yesterday, we are fine lol...I'm just so tired of being in this house! It's been 10years in the works lol. He used to be his own boss and was able to work on the house all the time, but last year the vendor he worked for basically said you have to come on as our emloyee or we won't use you anymore. Which really s u c k s because he's now doing 2 jobs (instead of the one) at that company and still getting paid the same as if he were doing it himself. But we will get this house done eventually lol. There's not a whole lot I can do until the drywall is finished upstairs. But for anyone who isn't in our thread that's reading this...DH and I love each other very much. If we didn't, we wouldn't be married or ttc.
Hannah: I can understand you not wanting to test - but girl you have WAYYYYY more strength than I do! Good luck and let us know as soon as you know anything!!
mommyin09: Let's see that BFP!!!
Luvkayln: You too girl!!! I want to see BFP's this time!!!
Babymamma: Congrats on the +OPK!!! Get to bd'ing lol :-) Good Luck!!
Well, I thought af was going to show this morning...no sign, which is c r a p p y...I just want her to show her ugly face and get it over with lol...I think I'm like CD 33 or 34... we'll see!!
Good morning everyone!
I'm 4dpo and doing alright. This month has been terrible for side effects. I have insane amounts of pain and nausea and heartburn. It's driving me crazy. But oh well. After all that's gone on, emotionally, this last week, I'm exhausted. I just got to work a little while ago, so I have a full work day ahead of me. I just want to go home and sleep, and stay in bed. I don't want to get out of bed at all. I feel a little more depressed than usual despite the anti-depressants. I just can't seem to pick myself up from all of this. I feel constantly negative, despite my attempts of being positive.
Last night I tried doing some of DH's "chores" to see if it picked up my mood. He really only doesn one thing in the house and that's the dishes. Well he hasn't done them in a week! And we don't have a dishwasher. So to be nice, when I got home, I did half of the dishes, vaccumed the kitchen, swept the living room and dining room, and I did 2 loads of laundry. I haven't folded them, but oh well. After that I got really tired so I sat down, worked on my website, and watched some tv. Unfortunately DH had a MUCH worse night than me. His "kids" were terrible. The kids at the juvenile school that he works at. They were back to being disrespectful and rude and awful. So DH was in a bad mood. He's been working with these kids for almost a year. And tonight they just went back to their old ways. So he felt like after all that work..it was for nothing. Hopefully they will get better. But when DH got home, he started to take it out on me. He got mad at me for not doing ALL of the dishes. It was okay. After a while he cooled off and we talked and it was fine. It's just been a negative week in the Pace household.
mommyin09- I am excited to hear the results of your beta tomorrow! I hope all goes well. My fingers are most definately crossed. Thanks for being a constant sourse of positivity for me!
luvkayln- I hope you're doing well hun. I think your beta is today, so I hope you get good news, for sure. My fingers are crossed. You are wonderful.
pyar- Thanks for the kind words. Obviously I'm still venting (as you can tell from what I wrote above). And I'm really not trying to be negative. I'm really not. It's just been a bad week. To start out my week with the death of a friend just... it kind of put me in a tailspin and I'm still trying to figure out which way is up and which way is down.
dnikki- Girl you're amazing! Just in case you hadn't heard that yet today. I'm so excited to see what new things you've put up in the store. I'm still working on all of my stuff. I made a few more designs last night but it's going to be a while before I can add them all. I'm so sorry for your bfn. It'll happen for you. I know it will.
Good morning! So, my temp is back up... Now I wonder if it was an implantation dip, just a c r a p p y night's sleep Tues night (which it was) or if my chart is just playing tricks on me... Ugh! I'll know soon enough :) Thanks for all your nice words!
Stacey: Thanks for the note :) I would normally get AF around 18dpo. Back in July/Aug it was closer to 13dpo. So, who knows!?
jmh2005: Let's hope au naturale is all you need ;-) Best wishes!
Candie: Thanks :) You're so sweet! You may not have missed your surge. Sometimes I get cm up to a week before my +opk. Keep testing & good luck!!!
Lina: Thanks for the notes & the website :) Just one more day to go...
leighanne: How long did the belly cast take? Even though it wasn't "fun", I definitely want to try that some day :) What a great idea & a wonderful keepsake!
Hannah: I understand you not wanting to see a bfn. I personally would have tested by now, but it's your decision. Maybe your doc wants you to do an HSG exam? That's a scan of your uterus & tubes. I hope you get some answers soon!!! :)
pyar: Thanks :) Yes, many times I feel like my chart plays tricks on me, so I really shouldn't read too, too much into it, but it's hard not to! :) Please don't beat yourself up (or dh!) for what "could have been". I've done that & it just doesn't do any good. Dh & I have been together since we were 15 & 17, together for 21 years & married for 11. We just started ttc two years ago because we wanted to get the house, the careers, etc., etc. first. I was on birth control pills for 16 years! I look back & think, why was I trying so hard not to get pregnant?! Why didn't I start trying sooner?! It s u c k s, but there's no way to go back, so we just have to appreciate what we have & hope we are blessed some day soon :) Best of luck to you! :)
Babymamma: I put you back at CD17. You'll usually O within 24-36 hours from your +opk, so keep up the bd'ing today & tomorrow! Congrats on the +opk & good luck!!! :)
dnikki: Come on, AF! I sure hope she shows soon for you, so you can move forward :) We've been remodeling our home for the past 3 1/2 years, so I can understand where you're coming from. I am finally seeing the end of the road, so I'm excited! I'm sure you'll get there, too. Hang in there!
mrspace: You're taking clomid, aren't you? That can attribute to having a sour mood. Hang in there! You & dh have had a tough week on top of ttc & everything else. It'll get better :)
Aww thanx hun and goodluck for your beta test tomorrow xx fingers crossed xx BFP!!!!!
I keep ovulating late!! i dont know if that affects your chances or not,:o( Im just hoping my follies have grown too on the left side...
i dont quite understand ?? doc sed my numbers rose not very high and have dropped again as you guess i dont really understand much but i have started bleeding today and have the worst headache so cd1 for me thans for you support guys really was hoping this was my time things will get better i no it
dnikki0928- Sorry about AF. But at least you get to start again.
luvkayln- I am sooo sorry AF showed her ugly face. What is your plan for this cycle?
UpDATE: Tues., I got a + on a SMILELY OPK. Yesterday AM & PM and today AM and PM... I used my ANSWER OPKs....I know that once you get a + you can stop testing.. however, I did. They all seem to be positive..especially yesterday. Today's pm test, seems to be getting lighter. i didn't use a digital OPK yesterday and today... just bc they are expensive and I thought I had already got my positive.
Yes, I am taking Metformin for PCOS... but, I have it very mild. Plus, I have never had that issue with OPKs in the past. Before seeing RE, I rarely even got a + let alone.... seemingly + a couple of days in a row... : ( What is going on?
Rachjas: I looked at your chart & it shows you O'd yesterday :) It's normal to get multiple +opk's. You'll usually O within 24-36 hours from your first +. It gets lighter after your surge, so you should be fine! Best wishes to you! :)
Luvkayln: I'm so sorry! :-( I know you were expecting it, but it still s u c k s! I was really hopeful for you. I'm not overly hopeful for me, as I'm having AF cramps :( I know you have a positive outlook & it WILL happen for us, my friend ;-)
Dnikki: I'm glad she showed quickly, since you
knew she was coming. What's your plan this
cycle, clomid? Take care!
Hannah: I'm sorry about AF! :( I understand
how you feel about preferring to see her rather than getting a bfn, though. I'm worried about
getting yet another negative beta tomorrow...
rachjas- Well, I have an appoinment this Saturday, but I'm sure I'll have a ton of cysts left over from the follistim, so we'll probably have to do a medfree cycle. I'm honestly thinking I won't even do bbt this month either, and just have a straight relaxed cycle, but I don't know yet... I'll know more after my appointment, so I'll be sure to let you all know. Congrats on entering your 2ww! :) Mommyin09 is right, it's completely normal to get mulitple +ve opk's. One time I got +ve's all the way till 8 dpo!
mommyin09- the belly cast only took all together like 45 minutes to do. it dries very fast. by the time you are plastering the bottom on, the top is already dried. it is just such an akward feeling and i stood the whole time so my feet got very tired and my back hurt. you can sit down but the way i;m carrying, sitting would not have come out as good. my fiance loved doing it and he loved decorating it afterwards.
Thank you all for your encouragement. I ended up getting a +OPK today! The line probably wasn't as dark as it should've been, but I'm going with it! :)
mommyin09 - I am so sorry you are having cramps. I think Stacey said though that her cramps turned out to be a good thing, so it isn't over yet! I'm really praying that you get good results from your beta tomorrow.
luvkayln - Ugh, that stinks that AF showed. Are you OK? Let us know what the doctor has to say. Take care.
dnikki - So sorry about AF. I know you were expecting it though, so at least you can move on now and get another chance to try.
pyar - I know what you mean, in the back of my mind there is always that fear that we won't be able to have a family and I really don't know how we could ever handle that. I guess all we can do is keep praying and have faith that God will take care of us.
rachjas - That's so exciting that you got a smiley OPK! :) I agree with the others, some people do get a few +OPK's, but now that they're getting lighter, you could consider the one from Tuesday as your true positive. Are you doing BBT too? That would backup your OPK's and help you to be more certain.
hannah - Wow, it looks like today was a bad day for so many of you. So sorry about AF. Hopefully next cycle will end better for you.
mrspace - How are you doing? Hopefully you are getting some rest. If you keep feeling really down, you may want to talk to your doctor because the Clomid could really be having a strong effect on your moods. I'm typically a pretty optimistic, easy-going person, but Clomid really made me miserable to be around. I would get upset so quickly and just feel like crying all the time. Take care of yourself.
Oh ladies! I'm so sorry Dnikki, Luvkayln and Hannah! 3 afs in one day. Goodness. Please don't lose hope. This will happen for all of you in the next few months. The good news is that you guys can now be cycle buddie :)
Dnikki you have some massaging to do! As you mentioned it's good to have an extra month to get settled with that.
Luvkayln, this was a really tough cycle for you with some very stressful and emotional times. Take a month off friend - from the temping and the testing. Just enjoy yourself, relax and have a month for you.
Hannah - This has started you down the road of more testing and maybe that is what you need. Try to find out what "numbers" your doctor was referring to. Was it HCG? or something else?
Mommyin09 - I was happy to see your temps back up! I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I know it is so hard to wait for those beta results..ugh. You had a great month and have a good chance. My thoughts are with you and I will be checking in tomorrow for your updates. Good luck. Just remember, you have a great plan regardless.
Candie - We just missed each other! Congrats on your +opk! Woo hoo. You will have your family one day. Absolutely. Look at the BFPs we have had on this thread alone and all of the different issues we all have had. It will happen for all of us...we just need a little extra time. And you are absolutely right about the cramps. I had af cramps and was positive that I would get a BFN. Cramping can be a very good sign!
dnikki: I will update you tomorrow as cd1. Thanks for the good luck :)
Candie: Woo-Hoo!!! Yay for the +opk! I'm excited for you two, especially 'cause you're both feeling better & you didn't miss your surge after all! Good luck ;-) Thanks! I'll be sure to update you guys either way tomorrow. Fingers X'd!!!
Stacey: Thanks so much! I've been feeling down, thinking that AF's coming, but I feel better now :) You're right, I do have a plan in place & I will be okay regardless. Thanks for the positive vibes! :)
Candie, Stacey, mommyin09, mrspace, LinaG & ALL- Thank you all so much for the notes! You all are just so sweet! I honestly just couldn't keep going without the support from my friends on medhelp! If it wasn't for you guys, I'd be ready to just give up! I honestly feel close, but I know i'm just upset from AF showing. Even though I had a hard, emotional up and down kinda 2ww, I'm still here and trying to stay positive. Stacey- I really think I need to take your advice, and just go with it this cycle. Not try, not temp, just... breathe... relax...just take a month off!
Mommyin09- Please don't feel down! We're always here to bring you back up! :) I know it's going to be +ve tomorrow, I just know it! :)
thanks for all your kind words there are going to give me more tests but im glad af finally came but i did enjoy the hope and it prepared me to be pregnant the shock wont be as big when i get my bfp now lol im bleeding very heavy and im in so much pain arggghhhh
mommy in 09 gooodddd luck glad your temps are back up x
I'm 5dpo and I got my 5th +opk today. I'm getting a little worried about it. I am stressing so much right now. Which I know is not good. I just found 2 bills that DH somehow shoved away in our dining room. I'm sure he didn't mean to. But now they are past due or due today and we don't have the money to pay for them. Well...we might. I'm trying to figure it all out. I'll at least call them and make A payment on them. We just have to tighten our belts over the next few weeks til we get into the house. It's just stressful. I hate money.
My moods are still pretty bad. I'm on anti-depressants, but this week...they haven't been any help at all. I really think that it's because of Dane's death. It's just been a rough week for me. Luckily, DH and I have had some good talks all week and he's being really supportive. Sometimes he just says "Jess, you are being crazy right now. Calm down.. I'm not going to fight with you. So let's just relax and not talk for a little bit so you can calm down." He's been so great at not blowing up at me when I get all moody and cranky.
DH and I did decide that we are going to take some aggressive step with my treatment. If they do not up my dose next month ( like the plan was) I don't think we'll do it. If they do... then great. But if we don't get pregnant this month or next month, we are going to start Metformin and stop all the testing and tracking. Just relax for AT LEAST one month. We need that. And I know some people get on to us saying "No no no you can't give up!" But we're not giving up. We just need a break. I mean, heck, we just got married 4 and a half months ago. And we've been trying since day one. So it's stressful.
But really, even though I'm cranky and moody. I'm doing fine. I'm happy with so many things in my life. I just get super cranky these days.
luvkayln- You are amazing sweetheart. I know that you've had a tough road. But it has changed you and shaped you into the person that you are today. Which is exactly the person that God wants you to be. You and your DH will be such amazing parents and you will be blessed with a beautiful child. Kayln WILL be a big sister. Don't lose hope. But I agree with Candie. Relax for a little bit. Breathe. And sleep! I don't know about you but sometimes during all of this I find it hard to get a good night's sleep from all the stress. No worries sweetie. We all love you and we're here for you!
mommyin09- I'm am WAY too anxious to hear your test results! I keep figeting here at work. I keep checking medhelp over and over to see if you've posted anything. I can't wait! My fingers are crossed!
dnikki- Hey girl! Sorry I had to cut our conversation short last night. I was pooped! I had such a bad headache and I was so tired. I hope that everything is going well!!!
candie- congrats on the +opk! I hope that this tww is a great one for you. With your wonderful positive attitude, I know it'll be a great one! My fingers are crossed!
stacey- I'm glad that things are going well for you. I'm so excited that it's all going so smoothly. I know that to me, you are an inspiration. I look at you and I know that this IS within my reach.
mommyin09: I CAN'T WAIT!!! I want to hear your BFP now lol!!! Let us know as soon as you can!!!
mrspace: Hey don't worry about it!! DS was a little cranky last night - he didn't take that great of a nap, and I know he's getting restless being stuck indoors due to the cold. But today we did go out and play in the snow already! We made a snowman!! I'll have to take him out again later as long as the wind doesn't pick up any more. He had so much fun!! The snow is still so deep he can't hardly walk in it lol! I didn't wake up with a headache, which is a nice change. It kind of aches a little, but nothing like it has been.
Well, I am officially CD1, scheduled for IUI at O time. What really ***** is I was called for jury duty on Feb. 2. Hopefully I don't have to do it because it would soooo screw with the IUI!!! But I'm taking clomid 50 mg again. I've decided that mon-fri I will throw in an easy exercise tape and do that. I think it's only like 20 min. But with really ttc again, I feel like my 15-18 Ibs is going to start coming back on!!! DS will have fun mocking me and laughing at me lol!!!
Ladies, have a great day. And just to leave you with a thought: Ya'll are amazing women. Without all you here to lean on during the past year, I don't know where I'd be!! So thank you all!!!
Candie: Congrats on the +opk, I know what you mean about carefree days...I do miss them too....like you say it is fun, but sometimes BDing can feel like a job or duty....I got to say that last cycle and this one, it has been more for fun than a duty, which has been fun.
Luvkayln: I am so sorry about AF, a free cycle "just for fun" sounds good for you, like I've said, there is always the thought of TTC but when you don't keep the chart or temp, there is less to think or even wonder about...good luck!
Mommyin09: Can't wait to hear positives news from you!! ;o) what time will you get the results? around 2:00pm your time? I'll be here ;o)
Hannah: I am sorry AF show up. where you talking about beta results #s? do you think you had a m/c? I am so sorry.
Dinkki: I hope your jury duty doesn't interfere w/ IUI, ... you can always try to let the judge know you have an important medical procedure planned. my lap is 2/11 in 3 weeks.
MrSpace: I hope you feel better soon and are able to figure it all out w/ the payments and the house. Congrats on the house!
LinaG: Are you having new symptoms?!
ALL: I wish you all a happy and relaxing weekend....I wish it was a long weekend once again.
Dnikki: I work in a courtroom & the judges I've worked with are very sensitive to these issues. You could either call & request an extension by even 2 weeks, just to get you away from O time, or since Feb 2 will be cd11, you could go in & if called into the box, request a side bar & speak to the judge & attorneys privately. Thanks for being excited for me ;)
Luvkayln: I know! You're all the best & I hope you won't be cheering me up later today! ;)
Keyan: Yep, I'll know by 2:00 Pacific time. I promise to let you all know either way... Thanks!
Stacey: Thank you! I really do want to follow in your footsteps... If not this time, soon! :)
Sexykeme: Thanks :) How are you doing?
Hannah, mrspace, kmcarino & rachjas: Thanks for all the positive energy :) I really appreciate it!!!
Well ladies I am pretty satisfied with my RE today. I had my u/s done and I have 4 follies, 2 on my right and 2 on my left.
Right side were 13.6 and 10.4
Left were 10 and 8
So we are doing timed IUI this cycle. He basically wants to see when I O. So I am to OPK on Sunday, if get a surge he wants me back on Monday to do another u/s to see if the egg released. So ladies hopefully next week I will be in the TWW!!!! I'm so freakin excited ;) ......Fingers Xed for everyone!!!
Wow, it seems like Af have shown for several... everyone is going to be close together this next cycle.
mommyin09- You're in my thoughts.
ad_06- That's great that your appt. went well. Grow. follies, grow.
I took another OPK today, finally much lighter. I am worried I may have cysts?!?! I hope not. : ( I didn't even take meds this cycle.
The tracker has me at 2DPO, having my O the day after I got my first +. Fertilityfriend has me Oing the day I got my +OPK. Little confused about that. My luteal phase has been crazy. I'm not sure when I should test. Geesh, I don't need to be thinking about that already....lol
Mommyin09 - I am so sorry. You take care of yourself and enjoy the weekend. AF will show soon and you will be on to another really good cycle. You can only do so many perfectly timed IUIs without getting a BFP :)
ad_06: I'm excited for you! You have good follies on both sides, so you're covered! :) They'll still grow 1-2mm per day, too, so they'll be nice & big by the time you O. Are you using opk's each day or just on Sunday? If you get a +opk before Sunday, will you go in earlier? Best wishes to you!!! :)
Guesito: Thanks :) I bet we will be cycle buddies. Hopefully AF shows quickly for both of us!
Stacey: Thanks! I'm surprised that I'm not more upset this time because I really was hopeful. My chart looked great, but you just NEVER know!!! Thanks for the comment about iui. Hopefully third time's a charm! :)
rachjas: I hate it when FF and the O tracker indicate different dates! If you tested with opk's the day before your + and got a -, then I would bet you O'd the day after your +. I don't know that you'd O the same day, necessarily. Plus, didn't you have O pains/cramps the day after, too? I bet you're 2dpo :) Let me know what you want me to put on our list & I'll update it tomorrow. Thanks for your note :)
Thanks to all of you wonderful ladies who sent such sweet notes of support!!! You're the best & I truly appreciate you all :) Have a wonderful weekend!
mommyin09 ~ He told me not to test til Sunday, so that is what I am doing. I thought about testing this morning, but chickened out. My luck it would be + and I wouldn't be able to get a hold of them. Well anyway I usually don't O til around CD16 most times....I don't know if Femara is like clomid or not but with clomid I always O later.So we'll see. Thanks for all the support..
mommyin09 so sorry to hear your news i'm glad your not too disapointed and are thinking ahead what a shock i had a good feeling for you oh well looks like ttc plays tricks on all of us chin up
ad_06 things sound good so far good luck
mrspace i hear ya money money money its such a stress looks we can't do our ivf next cycle we just can't afford it so decided to wait another month also i run my own business and have staffing issues so all the extra hours fall on me so i don't its gonna work with me working 7 days a week
luvkaylyn sorry to hear your news too your next chilled out cycle sounds good b'ding just for fun i forgot we can still do that
guesito you are right it looks like we will all be very close in our cycle this time i'm due in this next week too funny i have heard about women who hang out together falling into sync with each other but never in cyber space
dnikki how you doing hopefully the jury duty won't interfere with your next cycle it will happen when it will i suppose as much as we try to make it life won't hold while we try
hope everyone has a great weekend xxx
I just missed you. Thanks :) I was hopeful too, especially looking at my chart & the "symptoms" I was feeling. Sooo, you just never know! :) I am feeling positive & looking ahead. I'm gonna start running today & try to get myself back in shape :) That'll keep my mind occupied! I hear you on the IVF cost. I'm sorry you're having to put it off. That's what we're doing as well, trying iui in the meantime. We thought we'd be ready in March, but that's quickly approaching, so we'll see! Your cyber space comment is too funny! Is that even possible!? lol! :) Good luck to you this cycle! Hopefully AF won't show :)
linaG sorry i forgot thank you for looking at my chart how are you doing and no i don't really feel anything i think i feel pregnant every month so now i have lost the ability to figure out what my body is doing so i just go with the flow now because otherwise i think i'll go mad .
Hey girls! :) Had my appointment today, and it showed 2 huge cysts on my right ovary! I'm honestly suprised that there was ONLY 2! :) So that means that I released 6 eggs, so that's incouraging! :) So obviously we're taking this month off! I'll still ovulate on my own, but my RE said it could be a very delayed ovulation b/c of the cysts. When I had 1 cyst on clomid, I didn't O until around CD 26! But like I said previously, we're not trying or keeping track of anything this month, not even temping! :) Sean and I need some time for ourselves. We've had a full year of talking about nothing but ttc. Every month it's the same thing... when did I O, when is af due, what's my chart look like, bla bla bla! So this is our month to just relax. :) Then when AF shows again, we'll do another round of follistim. I actually felt great when I left my RE's office, b/c he's getting down to business with our next cycle. He was honestly suprised when I walked in, and even my favorite nurse, Kim, looked so sad! I just love them b/c they're so sincere! I'll be checking in on everyone still, and I'll still be here to give you all support through this next month! :)
mommyin09: Oh, hon I am soo sorry :-( I had such a good feeling for you! Keep positive for next cycle - has AF shown yet?
ad: Congrats on the +OPK!!! Good luck with the IUI!
GUESITO: I hope AF shows soon!! So exciting!!! How are you feeling?
Luvkayln: Sorry about the cysts, but a good thing you only have 2! I'm very proud of your ovaries lol!!
Well, looks like a lot of us will be very very close cycle buddies! I started my clomid yet again this morning. So, come on hotflashes lol! I don't know how often I will be on here - my computer decided to almost crash yesterday and I can't get into my usual profile at startup - something about insufficient security and corrupt files...idk. DH is trying to fix it. Tonight, I am going out for a bit with all the people I passed boards with, so that should be fun. It's kind of c r a p p y that we aren't meeting until 7:30 p.m though - I'm usually in bed by 10 lol!!