i wan a baby

[shier]

i cant control my feelings and need to vent.. sorry..
my elder SIL is pregnant, my sis is pregnant, i saw 2 of my schoolmates on the streets, they r pregnant, i see my younger SIL busy tendering and showering her 2 sons(2 yrs and 6 mths old) with love, i see pregnant women and teenage girls pregnant, i see fathers carrying their new born child and smiling happily.. i see grand-parents pushing their grand-childrens in strollers.. when will my little bundle of joy come?

[shier]

sometimes i scare i cant get pregnant at all or anymore and i keep having the thought of leaving my DH so that he can find another girl who can give him his family.. cos i dunwan to regret and wasting his time with me... *sobz*

gokuangel & Maria2707 - i tout i am the only one feeling tis way... haha.. i cant even stand it when im with my niece... when i got married, my SIL was expecting, and its been 2 and half years and she already got 2 sons! ME? nothing...

iamhuda - my DH is also the only eldest son.. he has 2 younger sisters.. when 1 of his sister was jus pregnant for 6 weeks now... i was really happy yet devastated the fact that i am not...

i am really sorry for being all so emotional... but i really do not wan to bottled up my feelings...

[iamhuda]

To me having a baby completes a family. My religion do encourge us to have babies... so tat out hirachy will go on. in fact i think all religion support tat view. As for my, my hubby is the only son in the family. so i guess having a baby will continue the generation of the family. im glad tat my in laws really understands our situation and did not gave me the pressure but its myself. sometimes i feel bad tat i cant even bear them wif grandkids. but having faith in my GOD..knowing tat HE knows better and will one day bless me wif a child. juz continue to pray hard.....

[Maria2707]

Its normal to feel the way you are feeling. Your day will come and God has plans for every one. My SIL is younger than me and has three kids. She married my brother just three months earlier than me. Even before their first wedding anniversary they had a baby and then another one and then one more this October right at the time I was going through egg retrieval.  It really hurts. But there is not much we can do. Just wait for our chance. Take care of your self and let God bless you and every one who are struggling to conceive and have a baby. Good luck to you!!

[gokuangel]

lol u not getting a phobia its just how we seem to withdraw when we cant get preggers! i do the exact same thing!! When my SIL was outta town one time her oldest needed the bathroom and they asked me to take her and suddenly its been so many years i cant remember how to take a lil one to the bathroom lol!! We ll all get there someday! Dont give up! i understand ur feeling my SIL is 6yrs younger than me so i know how hard it can be!!

[shier]

thanks all.. i am really happy for all those getting pregnant around me... i think i am getting a phobia of babies and small children.. bcoz i realised i never wan to get too close when playing wif them! b4, i love carrying babies etc and now i tried to avoid doing so..

iamhuda - i can understand how it feels as we r in the same country where every1 wants to have babies... esp ur religion(correct me if i am wrong).. i am chinese(not from china), :)

in any case, i'll be praying hard for all of us!

[Didibonita]

Its natural to feel like that my older sis just had a baby boy,and God knows I'm happy.  Yet sometimes out of the blue it creekps up on you.  I usually get sad once my menses show up to.  Have faith its on its way your special blessing from God. God  is going to send you and Angel.  Just have faith.  I'm holding on and having faith.

[iamhuda]

Hi there.... im nur. juz wen 4 iui tis month and unfortunetely i had my menses just hours ago..on my day 28 ... its so heart breaking tat i cried my heart out. the sadness was too much for me... i've been married for 4 years now but still no signs of pregnancy. the sad feeling always came by especially when my menses comes knocking.... pls tell me how to avoid having tis sadness in me. i do fell envy seeing other people have such cute babies. i really want to have a baby...

[kazah]

Hey, I know how you feel.  My younger SIL who got married in Feb, told us on Sunday that she is seven weeks pregnant.  (Not great timing as I did my first found of IVF, egg retrival but no fertilisation, so no transfer).  I guess we just need to be positive.  It will happen, and when it does it will be fantastic!!  Keep your chin up...lots of women on this site are getting BFP's, so that is great.
Merry Christimas. x